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Human dragon My notes on Humanity Replacement Therapy
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cerislabnotes · 6 days ago
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me when we start eating billionaires and i have to kill gomez addams
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cerislabnotes · 7 days ago
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:O Treats that I can then give out! It's a Halloweensmas miracle! :3
trick or treats
I got robbed of my treats, so I guess I have to get the trick :(
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trick or treats
I got robbed of my treats, so I guess I have to get the trick :(
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cerislabnotes · 22 days ago
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Therian HRT Tarot Cards - 0 The Fool
Featuring Candy.
The Fool is about New Beginnings, about New Experiences. We might not know where we're going as we transition, but that's fine. And even if you think you know where you want to end up, you probably won't know how to get there.
There's nothing wrong with missteps and false starts, just so long as you keep your head up and find your way to where you need to go. Just do what you can, and you'll get somewhere eventually.
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cerislabnotes · 29 days ago
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Research Note 83: Accidents 1 (Wings)
Welp, while developing the proton beam process for this aHRT I knew there would be problems, and accidents. BUT, today, we nearly had a disaster. I'm in the accelerator room, laying awkwardly as hell underneath the proton track (where the beam races down to the patient), working on tightening it back up, when one of the lab's directors comes in, and wants to see progress on the system. NO ONE CHECKED ON ME. I'm just laying there, wrenching away, while the start flailing the arm around, showing off all the positions it can do and how fast it can move, when he suggests he wants to see it fire. So, they start up the accelerator. I am so incredibly lucky that I dropped my wrench, and rolled over to grab it, because that's when the beam went through, hit the break I was working on, and scattered all over my back. My scream was apparently visceral. You could hear it through a half foot of concrete. They found me, still 'sissling' apparently. I was awake but in the shockiest shock possible. If I hadn't started on my treatment, I'd probably be dead. But since I already have so much dragon in me, it just burnt the crap out of my back. Unfortunately, the doctors are already telling me that "your wings 'should' grow in normally still." Aka, all of that has been messed up bad but we won't know until they grow in.... I expect them to be tattered and unusable... There is no excuse for the soon-to-be fox that pushed the button to have not checked, and I wish I felt bad for firing him. First, saying the director asked, but didn't demand was a poor start. But then saying, "I'm just so fox brained" put me absolutely over the edge. I sometimes think the point where beings should be put in feral care should be moved up, but I am incredibly biased right now. I do know, I won't be keeping anyone past the crossroads on my staff. Not anymore. -Ceri
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cerislabnotes · 1 month ago
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Eldritch HRT part 16
Waiting room
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I hate this.. I hate the clinic, the doctor, and this whole intrusive bullshit!
I just… I just….
I.. I miss my friends… I miss hanging out…
But it feels like this- this transition is causing more problems than solving them…
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Featuring
Penny - @pennymations
I want to give a big thank you to Penny! You can read her Bovine HRT on her channel, including a follow up to this part!
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Bovine HRT, Part 16:
Ice Cream
After seeing my friend Mars for the first time in forever, we decided to meet for ice cream to cheer each other up!
Ft. @dawning-mars (Eldritch HRT) !!
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cerislabnotes · 1 month ago
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there’s something missing
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cerislabnotes · 1 month ago
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🐄 im mattie hi its cowsharktober and hallmooween is coming so dont fall smth smth the cow jumped over the moon
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cerislabnotes · 1 month ago
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Oh, if only.
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The best stretch.
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Research Note 112: Procedures
Dr. Wood wants me to write down a day of mine and send it for reference, so I'm gonna do it my way, and edit it later. "Explain it like I'm an intern following you." Sure thing doc.
*QUE UP MR. BLUESKY BY ELO on the playlist*
Wakeup with 10 minutes till I have to leave. Rush out to car, hop in and drive to the clinic. I usually make it with 20 minutes to spare. Morning meeting, with about half of us in treatment its definitely getting diverse, haha! Everyone talks about any updates with equipment, goes over a patient list and needs, and then shares how their treatment is going for research purposes. It also helps us provide better patient experience.
I then go over to the patient intake rooms and talk with the nurses who help prescribe the gene therapy part of the treatment. I ensure they know where we plan to do beam work on each patient so they can help prep them and answer any questions. Less of a surprise really helps. Sometimes, the bioengineers are around, and I pick their brains on how they make up the different species and treatments. It's incredible how much they can do with a pill.
We usually get our first patients at 10. They go through the waiting room and get called back to an intake room to speak with the nurses first. The usual vitals and weight are taken (if the patient can fit on the scale), and they go through a long questionnaire to see how they've felt, changes they've noticed, and concerns they have. If they are a returning patient, they'll usually get a physical on areas we have treated, a blood panel, and nurses will search for any malformities in their changes. Doctors, mainly geneticists, will come in after, and prescribe their next course of medication (that has to be synthesized at our lab; they'll update any changes and work on filling while the rest of the treatment is happening.)
I'm not always patient-facing, but when I can be, (I love helping with this part), I fill in often. I'll get called to come and escort the patient to a diagnostics room. This lab has every scanner, x-ray, and probe imaginable. Patients are put on this table that is built like a shoe sizer, which spreads them into a t-pose. The diagnostics are operated by a radiologist while a geneticist overwatches the scans. Most patients fall asleep in the half-ish hour this takes. Between the computer and their decisions, new treatment areas are chosen. If need be, a nuclear operator (like me!) can fill in for the radiologist, as the diagnostics are effectively the same as in the proton beam machine.
It's important to remind the reader, the beam therapy not only eliminates any malformed cells or abnormal changes, but helps break down areas that are stubborn for the new species cells to fill. Think of it as blowing microscopic holes that the animal goop fills, then spreads around.
*Que "Dyson Sphere" by Epic Mountain music (kurzgesagt) on the playlist*
We'll then pull the patient out of diagnostics, and let them have a few minutes to stretch and relax before they are taken down a winding concrete hallway into the treatment room. Then, they get laid back down on a table similar to the one before in a dark room with a glow around the table and beam arm. Have you ever played Portal? The arm looks like GLaDOS, but with a narrowing probe down to the end. This time, the patient is restrained lightly by thin bands about every 10 inches. They cannot move while the beam is firing, or it might get healthy tissue! The technician then leaves the room back through the winding corridor and works from a station remotely. There has to be so much separation and concrete so someone doesn't accidentally get blasted by protons. The computer will then retrace where the geneticists and other computers highlighted, firing beams like lines in a tattoo. The real sci-fi part of this treatment is how the beam selects depth, and how fast it can track and find new targets. This technology was originally experimented with to help break down radiation-damaged cells, and then cancer, but it also works very well on removing the cancer that is humanity. (<-Joke, kinda) Even more than that, we've discovered ways to augment treatments for, well, everything. My favorite is using [REDACTED] to create cosmic rays for cosmic beings. (We've been accused of creating gods, demons, and horrors with this, but that's for another note) For about 30 minutes again, the arm will whirr and buzz around the patient. Midsession, the beam will stop, and run a second scan to verify nothing is reacting poorly to being beamed out of existence. It then goes back to targeting and firing. Most patients fall asleep while it goes; I've felt a sunburn-like feeling where I've gotten my treatments, but it usually dissipates by the end of the day.
*Que "Science Fiction Double Feature" From the Rocky horror picture show on the playlist* I'll give them about 5 minutes unless they are antsy, then come in and release them. Usually help them stand up, catch their balance, and walk out. I keep lollypops at the door, and make sure everyone gets one. They then go back to intake to get one last look over before being sent on their way, with most returning in 3 months.
My regular job, now that we are out of development, is relatively simple. In between patients, I do a complete inspection of the patient-facing part of the machine, then go back into the equipment rooms and verify everything is still functioning. The particle accelerator needs 'fueled' every treatment. We also have to verify the cooling system is optimum. It is extremely risky for a patient to get incomplete treatment, so the system has to be perfect each time.
At the end of the day, (6ish) I'll check all the systems. I try to wipe down all the stainless every day to keep it nice (and scifi looking) and look over the days data for any anomalies we might need to fix the next day. I'll lock up the beam room, say bye to the second shift researchers and analysts, and leave, making it home by 8 and usually passing out after takeout. If it wasn't for the patients, it would be the most boring job. But, thanks to the real stories, it never is. There, a long-form, first day in the life of Ceri the kinda sorta dragon. -Ceri
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cerislabnotes · 1 month ago
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Bird HRT part 13
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the removal of the slime...?
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Commission finished for @tigergirltail
Alexis, a pentacle necklace and a full add!
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Another easy to get lost in piece! Can't wait for the next :3
TIGER HRT CHAPTER 6 - MONTH 6 - THE CAGED BIRD
CONTENT WARNING - This chapter contains mentions of medical injections, bigotry, child abuse, self-harm, and attempted suicide. Reader beware.
FIRST - PREV - NEXT
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I had my six-month check-up with Dr. Erian, an online appointment just like last time. No particular medical issues this time around, bloodwork checks out, genetic reconfiguration is stable. We can't do a thorough physical exam over the internet, but according to him, I am "the very picture of health, by the standards of your species". I'm a bit curious what standards those are, given that I have yet to hear about any other tiger therians. Hopefully there ARE standards, and he's not just giving me empty reassurance.
We also spent some time going over dietary concerns - am I getting enough meat, am I reducing my fruit and grain intake appropriately, that sort of thing. I assured him that I'm eating real meat with every meal, just like the booklet said to, I've been limiting fruits and vegetables, and I don't even have an appetite for anything grain-based. I'll probably miss what fresh bread used to be like, but I just can't bring myself to want it anymore. Apparently not every therian is following the diet they're supposed to, but the doctor didn't have any concerns about me, "assuming your answers are honest, Miss Alexis". What, does he think I'm about to lie to the one person who knows how species transition works?
At one point during the discussion I thought I heard him mutter something about a "foolish undine", but I must have misheard. Undines are water spirits or elementals or something - a fictional creature. Then again, so are dragons and lamias, but the first well-known humanity remover was a dragon-girl, and I've been hanging out and playing online games with a lamia. At this point you could tell me there's someone out there transitioning to Sonic the Hedgehog, and I might actually believe you.
I've hit the point of full fur coverage, so no more awkward bald patches! Unfortunately, this does mean I need to start taking my estrogen in a form other than skin patches, because there's nowhere left to stick them. After a lot of agonizing over the pros and cons of potential liver damage from pills versus facing down my needle phobia, I opted to ask my endocrinologist to train me on injectable estrogen. She made a somewhat tone-deaf joke about not being trained in veterinary medicine, but she was otherwise very patient and reassuring, so I let it slide.
I do want to state for the record that I am a big scary tiger who's not afraid of anything and I only cried a little bit the first time I injected myself.
My ears are definitely becoming much more sensitive - I keep hearing really annoying high-pitch noises when I'm around heavy machinery, and that happens a lot more often than you might think. My office at work is right next to an elevator, and whenever someone uses it, the motor lets out this gods-awful whine and I have to plug my ears until it stops moving again. My local grocery also has a few freezer units that give off a similar sound, constantly, and I've had to start wearing earplugs to go on food runs.
As for visual changes, I can see in the dark reasonably well, but I've also started getting headaches and discomfort when I squint or try too hard to focus on something. I guess I should probably just… try to not do that. I have spent a significant portion of my life staring at a screen, so my eyes probably aren't in the best shape overall.
Now that my physical changes are pretty much done, most people just assume I'm wearing a very intricate costume - at least, until they get close. No costume has mouth movements or facial expressions this realistic, and believe me, our top furry scientists and engineers have tried.
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At one point there's a conversation on the humanity removal chat server about the political climates in our respective areas towards therians. Obviously, a lot of the right-wing talking-head shows have been shitting themselves inside-out about the idea of people giving up their humanity, especially the ones with a more religious bent. "How dare these freaks forsake God's holy image", "Humanity is a divine blessing and must be cherished", "We call on the one true God to smite these worshippers of the Beast", and so on like that. Excuse you, but I've never worshipped your discriminatory god and I'm not beholden to their 'holy image'. My goddess is one of beauty, love, and artistic expression, and the entire reason I'm changing myself in the first place is as an expression of self-love.
Most of us agree, though, that the absolute worst of the 24-hour news cycle doesn't have anything to do with how regular everyday people see us. In fact, we're rare enough still that a decent proportion of people don't believe we exist - they think that tabloids made us up to sell more copies. I don't know if that's better in terms of acceptance, but I'll take it over a torch-and-pitchfork mob running me out of town.
The conversation shifts to us sharing our locations, those of us who are comfortable doing so at least. We generally keep it vague, but most of us are at least alright with saying which country we live in. I narrow it down to a province for myself, mainly because my province alone is larger than some countries, but also because once we start to get noticed by the media and the world, there'll probably be no stopping our locations becoming known.
It's also going to get interesting if anyone starts asking how most of us are going to the same medical provider when he requires that consultations be done in person, or why the location he operates out of - Hyper City - doesn't appear on any map. Truthfully, I'm still trying to wrap my head around it myself.
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The next day, I get a private message from the girl with the corvid avatar:
"Hey I saw your post when everybody was talking about where they are! I live there too!! We should totally meet up sometime ^v^"
…This is a dilemma. Obviously, I'm worried about the optics of a teenager meeting up with a 39-year-old she met on the internet, there's all kinds of ways that could be taken the wrong way, but dammit, I still don't know anyone like me in this part of the world, who knows if I'll ever find anyone else who's local? …I really want to try, but I should at least give her a warning, and a judgement-free out.
"Uhh I get wanting to meet up, but I'm more than 20 years older than you, would your parents be anywhere near cool with that??"
There's a long pause. I see her start and stop typing multiple times. I'm worried I've upset her. Eventually, she sends another message:
"I don't give a fuck what they think"
I'm taken aback by the harshness of the reply, and don't manage to type anything before another series of messages pops up:
"and they don't care what I do anyway so it's whatever" "if anyone asks I'll just say you're my weird aunt" "you have no idea how bad I want to meet someone who GETS IT" "humanity is a curse and I want to be free"
'I want to be free'. Something about that phrase hits somewhere deep, in a source of pain that never fully healed. Freedom from pain, freedom from self-hatred, freedom at any cost, even if it meant my life. I remember how that desire for freedom feels.
The only thing I can think to do next is ask if she's okay. Her response is to ask if I can go on a voice call. I'm not sure if she wants some confirmation that I'm a real person or if she just doesn't want the next part of the conversation preserved in the text log.
"Hey…", I begin cautiously as the voice call starts. "Can you hear me okay?"
There's a suppressed sniffle on the other end. "Yeah… I hear you."
For a moment I entertain the thought of going all 'when I was your age' and explaining that I was always cautioned against talking to strangers on the internet, but it's probably not the time for that. Read the room, Alexis.
She's not saying anything. I'm going to have to start this off, I think. Something harmless, something value-neutral…
"So from your icon, I'm guessing you want crow HRT? Raven HRT, maybe?"
"Crow HRT.", she states simply. "Crows are everywhere here, and I've always loved them, always been jealous of them. They get to go anywhere they want, do anything they want…" She lets out a groaning sigh. "Augh, this is stupid. You probably think I'm stupid for wanting this."
I can't hold back from giving a little bit of a laugh. "Hah! Young lady, one year ago I went to a doctor and told him to his face that I wanted him to turn me into a recessive-gene variant of an endangered species that doesn't even live on this continent, and then I threatened to bite him if he wouldn't do it. Fantasizing about being a crow is just about the normalest thing I can imagine compared to that."
"…You said you'd BITE him?"
I grin, though without a camera set up she can't see it. "Every one of us who seeks out humanity removal therapy is already a little bit inhuman, even if we don't fully know it yet. After all, why would we remove something if we felt emotionally attached to it?"
Another audible sniffle. "Holy fuck, you DO get it…"
"I sure hope I get it, it's not like I can un-grow the fur and the tail."
She gives a laugh, then there's a long pause. "…Does it hurt? Is it scary?"
"Sometimes. My fingers were REALLY sore while my claws were developing, and having your entire facial structure rearrange is no joke. As for scary, well, I sure get stared at a lot more, but I think I scare people a lot more than they scare me."
"Heh, maybe I want to be scary."
I frown a little. "I don't. I just want to be true to myself."
There's an awkward silence. After a while, I decide to bring up something I was curious about:
"So I remember you asking if there was a way to get species HRT without your parents noticing. I'm guessing they're not exactly supportive?"
She lets out an uncomfortable groan. "Mmmngh… They watch a lot of those news shows, you know, the ones that only run angry sensationalist bullcrap? Dad gets furious at the idea of anyone changing themselves, something about the 'holy sanctity of the human body' or whatever. He even thinks tattoos are blasphemy. Mom says it's the most horrific thing she can imagine, she nearly fainted when she caught me watching a stream of this one dragon girl talking about her changes."
"And here you are, wanting to be a bird… I'm sorry, that sounds really rough."
"It… It is." I can hear her voice faltering. "Hearing nothing but how terrible a waste it is, and how awful and horrific they are, and the whole time knowing that I'd give ANYTHING for it to happen to me, I just… I'm sorry, I just…"
"Hey, you don't need to apologize… I'm not going anywhere."
"I just… don't know how much longer I can take it!"
"…Take what?" I'm afraid to ask my next question, but… I just have to. "…What are they doing to you??"
Somewhere deep inside her, the dam just… breaks. She starts sobbing as she tells me about how her parents yell at her over every single mistake, how she gets shoved or hit just for being in the way, how she hurts herself just so the pain gives her something to feel and to focus on, and how she… How she once climbed up to the roof of her building and took a flying leap off. She had every intention to end her own life, but in the moment her feet left the ground and she felt the air under her arms, she experienced a rush of euphoria, for the first time she can remember.
…And a moment later, she broke a leg and several ribs when she hit the ground.
She explains that she spent over a month in hospital, a captive audience for her parents to yell at more, when they even bothered to show up at all. I'm too stunned to even react.
She's spent the years since then chasing that high, climbing trees and jumping off, finding rooftops and hilltops to go stand in the wind, looking up online videos of parachuting and wingsuiting and hang gliding, and when she first heard rumours about medical treatments that can alter one's very species, she started frantically researching. That's how she started finding other therians to reach out to, how she got involved in the group chat.
"Have you��� had an appointment with Dr. Erian yet?" I have a feeling I already know the answer - something something, 'letter from a physician, two psychologists, live as your preferred species for at least a year'. The same horseshit I had to listen to.
"No… I tried to get one, but he won't see anyone under 18 without parental consent, and fat chance of ever getting that."
Huh. I hadn't expected that, it feels surprisingly principled for him. Though at the end of the day, it's probably just another liability thing - ol' Teddy Erian covering his own ass as usual.
"I just…" She's started crying again. "I just want to turn into a beautiful black bird and fly away from all this, forever… I just want to live my life on the wind, going wherever I want, never having to see a single human again…"
I can feel my own tears welling up, and that's the moment I make my decision. I'm going to meet up with this girl, and I'm going to find a way to help her. Maybe she doesn't need humanity removal, maybe she just needs to know someone who understands.
We decide on a place and time to meet up. There's a little cafe I like nearby, run by a trio of neurodivergent queer women. It's a public place, and about as safe for weirdos like us as you can get. Corvid-girl tells me she'll be the one with a feathered headband and a crow-skull necklace. I tell her I'll be the one with white fur and a tail. That manages to get a laugh out of her. I choose to take that as a victory.
There's something about the way she laughs that sounds a bit like a crow's call. I wonder whether that's intentional on her part…
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A few days later, I'm sitting in the cafe enjoying a hot chocolate and a roast beef sandwich - extra meat, naturally. Dr. Erian said I have to start cutting chocolate out of my diet because cocoa is going to become toxic to me, but… chocolate! I did ask for a lighter mix though, so what I'm drinking is actually mostly just hot milk. Maybe there's a cocoa-free substitute out there I can look into…
I'm snapped out of my thoughts by a squeal of delight emanating from the front door. There's a teenage girl standing there, staring directly at me with a look of amazement on her face. Dark clothes, pale skin, black hair, headband with feathers in it, and hanging from her neck, an amulet in the shape of a bird skull. I smile and wave a paw at her. She practically bounces as she walks up to my table and takes a seat.
"Holy SHIT, you're… And you even have the… Your face looks just like… Can I touch your paw??"
I laugh and hold out my paw. "Haha, sure, just watch out for the claws, they don't stay all the way inside just yet."
"Oh, it's okay, I'm used to sharp things!"
I wince as I think back to our voice chat from the other day. I REALLY hope she doesn't mean what I think she means, but I can't help noticing she's wearing long sleeves, even though the weather has been getting warmer.
She turns my paw over and squeals. "OHMYGOD you even have the BEEEEANS!" I can't resist smiling as she starts poking and prodding at my pawpads. "You look SO!! AMAZING!!"
Corvid-girl starts frantically complimenting all my animalistic features - "Your stripes are so pretty!" "I love your tail!" "Ohh, your fangs, they're so COOL!!" - and I start uncontrollably blushing. I never would have thought species affirmation would feel this euphoric… Naturally, being a teenager, she takes this as an excuse to push even harder, and I start covering my face with my paws, thoroughly embarrassed.
"You look just like the tigers they have on stage for those shows in Vegas!"
"H-hey, that's actually not okay…"
"You know, I bet you'd look good up on a stage too! Everyone would love to see you!!"
Instinctually, I let out a growl, louder than I actually want to. It has the intended effect, in that she stops dead and stares at me, but so do a few other cafe patrons. Oh gods, here comes the embarrassment again… "H-hey, look, it's just…"
"Sorry." She's gone completely deadpan, and stiff as a board.
I close my eyes tightly. Gods, why did I DO that?? First the waitress at that seafood place, and now an actual CHILD. I REALLY need to start getting a handle on these predator instincts. When I open my eyes again, she's still standing there, and she looks like she's on the verge of a panic attack.
I need to calm her down, need to bring her back. "No… I'M sorry. I shouldn't have done that, I just… The animals they use for those stage shows get abused all the time, and it's kind of a sore spot for me."
"…Really?"
Okay, she's talking, she's distracted, maybe I can still salvage this. "Yeah… Every species has baggage, it's one of the shitty parts of being therian, and tigers, white tigers especially, they're treated like show pieces, or worse."
"…Well shit, I knew they're endangered, but… fuck."
"Yeah, it's a whole thing, I try not to -"
Our conversation is interrupted by one of the staff tapping corvid-girl on the shoulder and asking to talk privately. She reluctantly agrees to go to the back of the store and talk. At first I think maybe she's being chastised for being a disturbance, but the barista who pulled her away is giving me some very pointed looks. Worried looks, I might even say.
If I angle my ears just right, I can almost hear them through the noise of the rest of the cafe.
"…other patrons were concerned… …young lady so close to a dangerous creature…"
I wonder if the barista notices the indignant look that crosses my face when they describe me as a 'creature'.
Corvid-girl lets out that bird-like laugh of hers. Her voice is a lot more distinct and easier to pick out:
"It's just my aunt! She's not a 'creature', she just takes meds to look like that!"
The barista doesn't protest as corvid-girl returns to our table, but they're still giving me a very 'You'd better not try anything' kind of look.
Corvid-girl sits down, seemingly a little more grounded, a little more sobered. "…I guess I never thought to ask, why a white tiger?"
I lean forward, head in one paw, and give a bit of a shrug. "I relate a lot to them."
"To… being treated like a show piece, or whatever you said?"
"…Yeah. When I was little, they called me 'gifted' and put me in a separate school. I remember being excited about it, but it turns out it just meant getting more homework."
"…Ew."
I smile a little bit. "That's what I thought too! They wanted me to be some brilliant prodigy, a genius in the making, but the reality is I was just more observant and better at math than most people, that's all. I actually had to take an extra year of school because I was so bad at it."
"EWW!!"
"I KNOW, RIGHT?? But, then I went to college and graduated at the top of my class, so the joke's on them in the end."
"I wasn't even planning on staying around long enough for college…" She still has a bit of a depressed air about her, but she's not going into a panic. Maybe I'm better with kids than I thought.
"Yeah, I remember, you were going to turn into a beautiful crow and fly away forever." I try to give her a reassuring look. "But hey, the human world isn't ALL bad."
"Says the woman who's turning herself into a wild animal."
I snort quietly as I hold back a laugh. "Okay, fair, but wild animals don't get the internet, or nice little cafes where weirdos like us can just sit and talk."
"Hah, yeah… Weirdos like us." She gives a smile. An actual, genuine smile. Suddenly all the awkwardness is worth it, to see someone so deeply unhappy smile. "That reminds me, I saw on the server you're into witchcraft, can you… teach me?"
Somehow I feel like I should have expected this. The goth-looking crow girl is into witchcraft, big surprise. "I… guess? Maybe? I'm not like an expert or anything, I've just read a few books and cast a few spells is all."
"Ooh, what kind of spells??" And now she's back to her enthusiastic self.
"Just some protective charms on people who needed them, a few card readings with a tarot deck, nothing much really…"
"Does it really work??"
"I mean, the people I cast those charms on ended up safe in the end, but who knows if what I did made a difference? Some of the card readings were scary-accurate though, I think I might have a talent for divination."
She laughs. "Gonna have to get you to read my future sometime."
We end up spending the next hour or so making small talk, getting to know each other, talking about the ins and outs of humanity removal, complaining about Dr. Erian, until…
"Hey, I gotta go catch the bus back home, but… this was nice." She gives a bit of a smirk. "Cool to meet another weirdo."
Before she leaves, I ask her name - I still don't know it, I've been internally calling her 'corvid-girl' this entire time.
She gives me a disgusted grimace. "Ugh, it's 'Margaret'. I'm named for my great-grandmother, it's SUCH an old-lady name."
"Margaret, like Maggie, as in magpie?" I smile a little. "Those are corvids too, you know."
Her expression softens a little. "…Never thought of that. Still don't like it, though…"
"Well, is there a name you'd like better? I can start calling you that if you like."
She freezes. Somewhere in her eyes I can see her mind working to process what I've just said. "…Nobody ever asked me that before. I'll… think about it." She turns to leave.
"Wait, hold on a sec."
"WHAT!?" She outright glares at me, then seems to soften. "Sorry, it's… never mind."
That… was an EXTREMELY sudden mood shift. Trauma response, maybe? "I… was just going to ask if you wanted a sandwich or something to take home."
"…Didn't bring any money…"
I shake my head a little. "That doesn't answer my question. Would you like me to BUY you a sandwich or something?"
"…Egg salad if they got it I guess…"
I go up to the counter and buy her an egg salad sandwich to go. She looks like she's going to cry when I hand it to her. I… probably shouldn't make a big deal about that, but somewhere deep inside, my heart breaks a little. Does she never have anyone just… offer her food?
I'm beginning to understand why she wants to leave behind the curse of humanity. I chose this path, I wanted to be a tiger, I'm running towards something. Corvid-girl, though? She's running away from something.
I walk her outside, and she starts to walk away, but suddenly stops, and turns back to me. She walks resolutely up to me, then grabs me in a hug.
"Soft…" Her voice is muffled against both my shirt and the fur underneath. "You're very soft…"
Once I get over my surprise at the sudden gesture, I hesitantly put one arm around her shoulders and pat her on the back. She pulls away after a few short moments, and walks away down the sidewalk without another word.
I touch my shirt where her head was leaning, and notice a small wet spot.
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Time to play "Spot the References!" Intentional references below:
"something about a 'foolish undine'" - welldrawnfish (Fish HRT)
"the first well-known humanity remover was a dragon-girl" - ayviedoesthings (Dragon HRT)
"I've been hanging out and playing online games with a lamia" - ariathelamia (Lamia HRT)
"someone out there transitioning to Sonic the Hedgehog" - sonic-spirit (Sonic HRT)
"watching a stream of this one dragon girl talking about her changes" - Rain, by Jocelyn Samara D. (Dragon HRT)
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cerislabnotes · 1 month ago
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Clip studio apparently has this really cool feature where if you turn off "vector eraser" when doing vector lines and start erasing things it doesn't erase anything it just covers it with "invisible" lines and it just COMPLETELY FUCKING DESTROYS YOUR LINEART CLARITY and makes it REALLY HARD TO COLOR AND TO CLEAN UP THE LINES which is really cool and not frustrating at all and I'm really glad it does that and it doesn't make me want to hurl my tablet and it doesn't make me quit working out of frustration and *rage* just a 10/10 feature.
Anyway I liked this better for design purposes than my last post but I ran out of energy to finish it and fix a couple things for *SOME REASON*
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cerislabnotes · 2 months ago
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Powerful piece with some wonderful people!
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Eldritch HRT part 15
Presence
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I hate this, I hate this, I hate this, I hate this!
I shouldn’t have done this. Everyone is staring and.. fuck, I hate this! Even others on AHRT seem upset!
I don’t know what’s going on, I want to turn back.. but I know I shouldn’t..
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Featuring
@ariathelamia - Lamia HRT
@home-sweet-hive - Black Arms HRT
@lycans-art-kingdom - Werewolf HRT
@theshootingraistar - Cyborg HRT
I highly recommend you go check out their stuff and give them a follow!
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