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“Forgive me for my absence...”

A soft-spoken Sapphire apologizes, being accompanied by her Pearl.

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tell my muse how they make your muse feel.

whether they give them a sense of COMFORT and SAFETY, or send absolute CHILLS down their spine. perhaps they make them feel TRAPPED, or FRIGHTENED. or maybe, they even feel SPECIAL. let my muse know!! anon is optional!!

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{ Ok, I’m back I guess. I’m not sure how active I’ll be on here though. }

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{ I’m not gonna lie, I feel pretty bad right now. I wanted to play my character right, how I described her. Smart, level-headed, and always knowing what and what not to do. I wanted to play her like that, but I can’t, because I don’t know anything. I don’t know what to make her do, I don’t know where to have her be, I don’t know how she’s supposed to act, I don’t know what to make her say. I just DON’T KNOW.

I didn’t want my muse to be deemed ‘pathetic’ in character, I wanted her to be an aristocrat. A loyalist. Someone to be RESPECTED. But I can;t get her to be like that because I’m too fucking stupid! I’m sorry I don’t know how to play my own fucking muse, I’m sorry I can’t make her “perfect” the way I wanted to. I just don’t know how to do it. }

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{ I’m going to change my Sapphire’s pronouns from MALE to FEMALE. I will now go back and edit any previous posts to say SHE rather than HE. My Sapphire’s Powder Blue Pearl will ALSO use FEMALE pronouns. }

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{ Hi I’m here!! Just been waiting until the drama blows over... }

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“I’m just.. nervous...” Star Sapphire muttered softly once more, and afterwards, did not speak up again. She just stopped talking, and lowered her gaze to the ground, hanging her head in an almost shameful manner. Afraid of what the other gem would do to her if she wasn’t quiet.

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“I-I was merely stating an opinion.. o-of myself.” He said softly, becoming slightly freaked out again.

“I am a full-time sapphire, and I am reliable! I-I just….” Oh stars, he was freezing up again. The other gem would most likely begin to mock him again for that.

Zultanite snarled in annoyance at the Sapphire as the latter once again proved how much of a coward and a liar he was. Why was he even wasting time with such a pathetic sight in the first place?

“An actual Sapphire is not a headache like you are.” he growled. ”Because, unlike you, they don’t waste their breath and they know when to shut up. That is something I appreciate about them.“

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“I-I was merely stating an opinion.. o-of myself.” She said softly, becoming slightly freaked out again.

“I am a full-time sapphire, and I am reliable! I-I just....” Oh stars, she was freezing up again. The other gem would most likely begin to mock her again for that.

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“I’m not assuming..” Star Sapphire replied softly, giving a bit of a frightened look from under his thick hair. His eye going wide as what all he saw. He put a hand to his cheek, the expression lingering for the moment.

“My visions are never wrong, I know this to be so.”

“Something is quite inconsistent in everything you say: you are affirming that your future vision is unerring when you said earlier that you were “not so good at your job”. So, are you a reliable Sapphire full time or only when it is convenient for you?“

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when you make one of your oc’s hella smart but then suddenly don’t know how you’re going to write them bc you’re a fucking dumbass

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hello there! this blog is making a masterlist of all steven universe rpers! if you would like to be added to the list, please like/reblog this post!

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↖Slow as fuck with replies but does it anyway.. eventually..

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“Indeed.” She nodded once more, holding her hands together out in front of her. “I am sure that she will be absolutely overjoyed at your return, she will most certainly want to see you.” A soft smile graced her lips.

“I shall tell her of your coming.”

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pleeease signal boost this - i am so scared

i know that i haven’t made a personal post in a while, but i’m desperate and out of options. i am very scared.

there’s a person in my home that, two days ago, kept threatening me with violence. i’m 5′2 and he’s … much bigger and taller. he almost threw glass at me, at one point he pulled out a weapon on me because i took my mom’s room (that she offered) and he threatened to pay someone to beat me up

i can’t do this anymore. before i had the option of a gofundme or a youcaring or sharing my cash.me link i had a whole suicide note drawn up, but something in me told me to do this so i’m going for it and i really hope it works out because otherwise, i have no other options and i CANNOT do it for much longer.

 i’ve been locked in my room for days. i only leave to drink water or go to the bathroom. i don’t even eat because he occupies the living room and i’d have to pass him to get to the kitchen, which is what pissed him off enough to send him on a rant threatening to end my life. nobody in my family likes the cops (for obvious reasons) and i need my laptop as that’s really one of the few material posessions i have and need for school.

my last meal was yesterday because my sister bought me food, but idk when i can be able to eat again and i’m scared because i  haven’t been downstairs eating regularly since may and i’ve lost probably 20+ pounds

i need $900. I have $95. So, a little over 10% of the way there, but still not enough. i’d hope to get it by the end of this month, but as soon as possible. $900 would go towards the deposit and rent of an apartment i’d share with 2 friends, plus any other utility or moving costs. my scholarship and my job that starts August 6th will pay off the rest in august but i have to leave asap because i can’t do this much longer. 

i hate tying my identity to this blog.

my cash.me link is cash.me/$yss1rhc 

i have a youcaring link (takes paypal) and a gofundme link (takes 5% of all donations) that, if you ask for, i can pm to you to donate (because it does contain personal information, please only ask for it if you know you’re going to donate and you can’t pay with a card (i understand.) 

otherwise, i’m content with the cash.me

if you can’t donate, please, i’m begging you to reblog because i don’t know what to do anymore. usually i draw and offer commissions but my mental health is completely shot and i can’t… do anything.

if you donate, i do believe in positive energy and i’ll find a way to pay it back + pay it forward because it warms me how much people have helped me so far.

i wouldn’t do this if i didn’t think it was absolutely necessary. my heart is breaking at the fact that i would ever have to do this. 

i would rather sleep on a floor with boxes in an empty room than sleep in the same house as a person who’d rather risk throwing his life and son away because he hates me that much.  thank you so much.

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“I... Don’t believe it will.” The Sapphire spoke again after being silent for the moment. Her expression being one of shock. A vision had appeared before her, suddenly, it did not look well.

“I have foreseen a terrible thing, the Cluster has been prevented from taking form!”

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“Just like everything else, this planet has a past, present, and a future. I only wish to study it’s past for as long as I can before it is gone. Not of gemkind and our occupation of this planet, but rather, the natural inhabitants. I would like to learn of their past, but.. I am hesitant to do so.” He felt sort of embarrassed that he was afraid, he just wanted to stay on good terms, and not be suspected of treason and/or be shattered.

“I am.. not going to do that, as much as I want to…”

though his expression was filled with doubt, he made an attempt to keep his ears opened for the gem, as he listens carefully. however, there was still nothing. he still couldn’t quite grasp it, as he sighs to himself. is it just him? no, it isn’t him - what is he thinking? shaking his head, he frowns. this planet is already messing with his head.

“hmph. well there’s going to be no future once the cluster hatches.” he spoke to break from his thoughts, as he looks to the sapphire with uncertainty.

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“Blue Diamond? Yes, I am of her court.” He gave a curt nod, though, he seemed to freeze up at being asked how she had been doing. Obviously not very well, for she had been absolutely depressed ever since the younger Diamond’s fall.

“Not well... She has been very sad ever since your shattering. She continues to be this way, even today. I cannot imagine how close you must have to her. She has missed you greatly.”

Standing back up, his arms fell to his sides and he gave a soft nod in understanding. He wasn’t too uncomfortable per-say, he’d felt a lot more nervous than anything else. Very many questions had popped up into his head at this point.

“I was told by the others that you had been… shattered.. How, may I ask, are you back so soon?”

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“I personally don’t want to bring any harm to this planet, but you must understand that the Diamonds must have their way, no matter what. Might I add that your knowledge on the Cluster’s status has proved to be a vital piece of information.”

The Sapphire paused, hesitating to say the next part, he didn’t want to. He really didn’t.

“You know that I will inevitably have to tell my Diamond about this. About the Cluster being bubbled.”

“Yeah but, if you want to hurt this planet or the life on it, then.. then you’ll need to leave.”  Black Star ordered in a quivering tone.  It wasn’t like her to be aggressive, let alone tell someone what to do.  “This.. this is my home!  A-And I.. won’t let you hurt it!”