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Just muted a user on Ao3 who wrote the tag "I'm not writing old man sex". Well, then I'm not reading your fics. I don't need that kind of negativity in my life.

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occasionally I still see people complaining abt top/bottom discourse in fandom and like. my hot take? they don’t have to have penetrative sex at all 😭

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im a public school teacher part time and despite the gloom-mongering narrative you’ll see online i find that on the whole the kids have been far more kind attentive and curious than i expected. however one of them is named naruto. and another is kanaya

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Trying to explain even one ounce of class/caste/ethnic/religious dynamics in South Asia to somebody completely removed from it is so humbling like sometimes I forget how cartoonishly insane all of it is. The racism factory that churns out new types of racisms

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“Dogs don’t know what they look like. Dogs don’t even know what size they are. No doubt it’s our fault, for breeding them into such weird shapes and sizes. My brother’s dachshund, standing tall at eight inches, would attack a Great Dane in the full conviction that she could tear it apart. When a little dog is assaulting its ankles the big dog often stands there looking confused — “Should I eat it? Will it eat me? I am bigger than it, aren’t I?” But then the Great Dane will come and try to sit in your lap and mash you flat, under the impression that it is a Peke-a-poo… Cats know exactly where they begin and end. When they walk slowly out the door that you are holding open for them, and pause, leaving their tail just an inch or two inside the door, they know it. They know you have to keep holding the door open. That is why their tail is there. It is a cat’s way of maintaining a relationship. Housecats know that they are small, and that it matters. When a cat meets a threatening dog and can’t make either a horizontal or a vertical escape, it’ll suddenly triple its size, inflating itself into a sort of weird fur blowfish, and it may work, because the dog gets confused again — “I thought that was a cat. Aren’t I bigger than cats? Will it eat me?” … A lot of us humans are like dogs: we really don’t know what size we are, how we’re shaped, what we look like. The most extreme example of this ignorance must be the people who design the seats on airplanes. At the other extreme, the people who have the most accurate, vivid sense of their own appearance may be dancers. What dancers look like is, after all, what they do.”

— Ursula Le Guin, in The Wave in the Mind (via fortooate)

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Pre-menstrual depression is always depicted as like "He He! I had a box of icecream bars and cried while watching the Titanic!" But in reality, it's more like, "I'm standing the edge of an abyss. There is nothing good inside of me, I'm filled with rage and desperation."

It's crazy that being told how to deal with that is never a part of anyone's menstrual sex education.

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Murderbot season finale thought that's simmering in my brain:

SecUnit wakes up and is immediately, literally infantilized at the beginning of the episode. The techs tease it, call it a baby, force it to pretend to cry like a baby. They very specifically make multiple remarks to this effect. It's hard to watch.

Then, at the end of the episode after saving SecUnit's life and memories, the well-meaning PresAux crew do things like dress it up in clothes they picked for it, beckon it, tease it (gently), and when it echoes, "We can talk about this," Arada murmurs warmly, "That's its first one!" as though it's a baby taking its first steps. This is framed, at first, as all loving and positive, but still... deeply uncomfortable.

The contrast is interesting, because obviously the techs' treatment of SecUnit is just… downright despicable as compared to PresAux, but still. Even with the best of intentions, PresAux still slips into an adjacent, though demonstrably less abhorrent, mindset. Their good intentions matter, but good intentions aren't everything.

PresAux has a lot to learn, and even though it's clear SecUnit likes them, and on some level appreciates the warmth, it can sense that patronizing energy radiating off of their every action.

It's not going to be their little baby they can raise to be good. It needs to go out and grow on its own. And I'm thrilled it gets to do that.

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Dialectics

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MBTV finale spoilers

He ripped it whole from the company, cradled it within his own brain, staggered home, and then poured it back into its body.

He risked his safety to gain access to the data. He risked his health to hold that much data — a whole person inside of him.

And then when it needed to leave, he understood and let it go.

That was the text of the episode. That isn’t stretching or reaching or interpretation, that’s just. What happened.

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I want to read all of them, especially the last one

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"came back wrong" but it's food that you heated up in the microwave

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Oh my god we actually did it.

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A few years ago while trying to find ways to commit suicide as painlessly as possible, I came across a PDF of Dr. Paul Quinnett's The Forever Decision. Thinking it might go into actual methods of suicide (I read an article once that actually did that and was trying to find it again) I started to read it, and I think I only got about two pages in before I was crying too much to actually see the words.

I downloaded the PDF to my hard drive and I open it again whenever I'm feeling too suicidal to do much else, but not enough to start booking a ride to the hospital. And every time without fail I only go up to a few pages before backing off and choosing to live another day just because suicide suddenly seems even more unbearable than whatever the hell upset me in the first place.

All the book really does is [I'm pulling a summary from GoodReads here as, again, I've read no more than 5 pages] "discusses the social aspects of suicide, the right to die, anger, loneliness, depression, stress, hopelessness, drug and alcohol abuse, the consequences of a suicide attempt, and how to get help."

But it also starts with the author kindly asking the reader to complete the book before going through with anything, and for some reason I'm compelled to really just try to read it all before finalizing everything. Despite not yet completing it (hopefully never will) I think I can safely say it's saved my life at least a few times now.

It's intentionally legal to copy and redistribute this book to keep it as accessible as possible, and it's very easy to find, but here's a link for it anyways.

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all the “peer pressure is bad” education we give kids is practically useless because all it cares about is telling them that Drugs Are Evil rather than the much more useful lesson of ‘the person who responds to you saying you don’t drink by telling you they’ll find a way to get you to is also going to be shitty about all your other boundaries’.

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Frances Mcdormand would be just a perfect cast as fem!Daniel