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Remembering how I spent so long like “why am I not seeing dupes more often? I’m a little bit jealous but Data should get more love, I can handle it”

And then I saw one dupe, and it wasn’t even a blog, it was just an example art someone made as showing of the commissions they’d done for other selfshippers, and I felt like a kick in the face

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Still imagining female Data’s alternate looks as Emma Stone lol not as much need for her to have alternate looks now. But still valid since I don’t have her die in my sequence of events, and “synthetic” beings are eventually illegal

Also fuck it I can do whatever I want I’m tired

Edit: to be clear, I mean eventually I think she’d have to be in hiding so a completely alternate set of looks would make sense

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Just thinking about Code Lyoko, cause it was like my first sci-fi show and I just had a thought like

Code Lyoko!Star Trek AU!! With Data in Aelitas place, and me in Jeremy’s. 👀

I honestly always used to selfship more with Odd though lol still kinda do sometimes. I also have imagined him transitioning and looking like that Hunter girl from Euphoria irl

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I ship myself with 40k dollars, anyone wanna make my romance come true?

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I also realize, with ten more seconds of thought, that real life polyamorous people don’t always have to be sharing the same partners but like. That’s the kinda balance I imagine needing for my own comfort if that makes sense lol. Kinda part of why it’d be unrealistic for me in real life in most instances. I can’t imagine 3 or 4 of us unless we’re all crazy about each other, otherwise I would be jealous or guilty constantly. Not like it’s immoral, but it’s just a boundary I wouldn’t really be comfortable having crossed no matter how rational I tried to be about it.

I have decided that if I start “seriously” Selfshipping with anyone else again, it’ll probably be a big imagined fictopolycule. So I’ll have to imagine that Data would actually like that person as well, you feel me? Maybe that sounds crazy, since I could technically just, decide that, anytime I wanted, but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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I have decided that if I start “seriously” Selfshipping with anyone else again, it’ll probably be a big imagined fictopolycule. So I’ll have to imagine that Data would actually like that person as well, you feel me? Maybe that sounds crazy, since I could technically just, decide that, anytime I wanted, but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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over-psychoanalyzing blorbos is healthy and needed enrichment for the girlies in order to avoid over-psychoanalyzing themselves. like giving a dog a chew toy in order to redirect chewing on its hind legs

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Imagine your f/o thinking your messy handwriting is endearing and characteristic of you. Even if it’s difficult to read. It doesn’t have to be ��neat’ or ‘pretty’ because it’s yours. They would love receiving notes from you and like the way you write their name.

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A present from my lovely @porcelainviolin 💚💚💚💚 One of the latest breed of altered Tribble. Since the Federation found out a way to stop them from multiplying every 12 hours, they’ve been particularly popular among those still suffering from mental illness in the Federation.

That’s because, without their tendency to multiply, the things are basically chronically anxious themselves, and an essential element of their care is calming them down. Studies show that between feeling their heartbeats slow and hearing the noises they make and their purring, it typically helps your own symptoms of anxiety and similar a great deal.

She’s a girl~ I’m trying to think of names for her. Any ideas?

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Doing this add-as-I-go with randomness thing, and also using the traits from this one mod I like, was a great idea

Well, storytelling wise. Might be about to torture Data a bit 😅😭 ve just rolled the trait “Trust issues”, which actually canonically makes sense because in vis canon relationship experience, ve’s typically taken advantage of and then thrown away, or else dated until the partner realizes ve can’t love them (which, duh, no emotion chip at the time- but it added a sense they were inadequate. plus the secrecy around, say, vis one night stand with Tasha)

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Also gonna include some traits from mods to keep the possibilities broad

I spent a long time figuring out me and Data’s traits in detail for this rp system I like to do and

I think im gonna delete em all for both of us

I still like the system a whole lot! But I feel like a lot of the fun of a relationship is learning about each other and growing together as you go.

Also, I don’t know myself super well, and I feel like Data wouldn’t know verself super well once ver emotion chip was activated. So it’ll be like both of us are getting to know ourselves together as a team.

So yeah. Keeping the system cause I enjoy that.

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I spent a long time figuring out me and Data’s traits in detail for this rp system I like to do and

I think im gonna delete em all for both of us

I still like the system a whole lot! But I feel like a lot of the fun of a relationship is learning about each other and growing together as you go.

Also, I don’t know myself super well, and I feel like Data wouldn’t know verself super well once ver emotion chip was activated. So it’ll be like both of us are getting to know ourselves together as a team.

So yeah. Keeping the system cause I enjoy that.

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I’ve made a little side blog to rp Data, @porcelainviolin if anyone wants to follow it!

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On the bright side, I feel better than I have in a little bit right now. Sleeping as much as I did the last couple of days did me good

Still- probably not good it takes me that much sleep to feel fairly functional again. Possible being on the tail end of my antibiotics could also contribute to it though

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Gotta remind myself that “blocking indiscriminately if a blog makes me uncomfortable” literally means if a blog makes me uncomfortable whenever I see it I can just block it. It doesn’t have to break one of my checklist things or doing something I find immoral. If it squicks me out, that’s valid, too. I think I just gotta remember to remain mindful of my feelings cause I kinda gotta function regardless of them in so many other contexts, you know

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How are you supposed to just get up and go to school and go to work and come home and make dinner and fold the laundry and not want to kill yourself the whole fucking time.

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Wow. Not even spying a double on a blog- just a sample from an artist’s examples of prior commissions,,, kinda upset me really bad not gonna lie.

Jesus fucking Christ I’m pathetic