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I’ve only ever played 2 games in which u can romance the NPCs and in both of them i exhibited extreme biases towards the initially cold and blunt ones who turned out to be very sweet and cute and soft once the romance took off. Hm. Shane my beloved. Zayne my beloved. Lots of self reflection to do here.

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It's our favorite boy!!!!! Satoru Gojo!!!!!!!

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newest issue of first years fashion just dropped

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Late night sketch with Ukai Keishin

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UKAI🚬

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OTOYA?! Good to know my boi found a career in modelling good for him

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Ya know, cocky yet competent

Counterpart to this

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Completed Rafayel’s branch in the main story and I noticed that this is the exact colour of his eyes 🥺 the sea really is embedded in his very being🥺🥺 it’s such a precious little detail. Look at the sea🥺🥺🥺 and look at his eyes 🥺🥺🥺🥺 I once wrote a short story about someone drowning in the same blue ocean their lover had used to describe their eyes… ocean symbolism goes SO hard. It does. I love everything related to the sea.

And this line????? So RAW I love it. It’s giving “they mistook my kindness for weakness”

I once wrote a poem about the ocean along similar lines and every time I read something about the sea it makes me feel some type of way. I’m not romancing Raf, but I respect him. He’s so cool. You go, funky little mermaid. Lure in sailors with your enchanting songs. I know your aunt does 😏 (though I’d willingly walk into a monsters maw if she was the one beckoning me)

GAAAAHHHHH the ocean can NEVER be tamed!!! RAAAHHH you can NEVER conquer the sea!! It will come back to reclaim its glory and you won’t be able to stop it!! I love the sheer majesty of the ocean! I love how many people it has claimed! Who believed they could conquer and tame it!!!! You cannot! It’s there in all its untamed glory! And you cannot do anything about it! Worship it! Hope it is as forgiving as your god!!

Sorry idk what took over me. I just love the sea.

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Well I just finished the main storyline and boy. Caleb is such a complex character. I should do an in depth analysis of him someday. His intentions, his motives, his thoughts, the lore… at the end of the day who is he lying to? Ya know? Who is he betraying? Her? Himself? Ever? Nobody? Is he just hopelessly lost trying everything in his power to try to regain control which in the end will all explode into disarray? His actions aren’t his own but what if the lines are really really blurred to the point he starts thinking that they are his own, and the ones that are his own seem foreign? What if because his memories are being destroyed and rewritten again and again and again he’s just completely lost himself and doesn’t know if anything is real anymore? I’m just hypothesising ngl but it’s very fun to think about. It’s a full 180 degrees and no one knows what’s happening and why and how yk?

Also Viper is so fucking funny I love them. What an icon.

This was so fkn funny it came outta nowhere I burst into laughter ngl. Like this whole sad story about mind control and manipulation and killing children and unethical human experiments and Caleb just casually breaks their neck? And Viper doesn’t die? Instead is just mildly inconvenienced???? It made me laugh so hard ngl. And tbh if I had regeneration capabilities like viper I would jump under a hydraulic press just to see what would happen. ​also why they kinda….

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i don't know what those things are but they're cute

(also Mei cameo in the back lez go)

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SOUKOKUUUUUU

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What I truly love about bsd is Tachihara and his entire deal. His identity his loyalties it’s so complex and wonderful I could talk for days about it

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something that is both heartwarming and heartbreaking about Caleb is the way he consistently continues to fight his fate, despite every sign he encounters pointing toward its inevitability:

it's in the way he defies the Toring Chip, and the meaning of 7%

When Caleb falls apart on the bench with MC and the chip resets in Farspace Bloomfall, 100% of his mind is supposed to reset.... and yet only 93% of the chip is integrated and able to do so.

We know Caleb is aware of this too, when he tells MC to tell him about her problems “while I can still respond.” Because he knows he'll inevitably lose some information once it happens, like the 'patrol data' Enforcer mentions.

This means it’s happened before, Caleb's mind had been reset before. Which means, he knows if the chip’s integrity ever gets to 100% and resets, anything he feels toward MC will also reset. And so..

“…he’s purposefully ‘sealed’ his brain rather than damaging it.”

So Caleb gathered up every emotion, every memory, and every impression of MC in his mind, wrapped it all together into one small piece, and has since, against all odds, continuously used his Evol to put a barrier around it, to protect it. To keep the chip from finding it and wiping it. And what is that piece? That 7%?

7% is MC. 7% is his memories of MC. 7% is his love for MC.

it's in the way he's turned himself from "perfect weapon to destroy each other" to "perfect weapon to destroy others"

I could be wrong (please correct me), but I'm pretty sure it's murky right now whether Caleb (subject 002?) knew MC during any of her 'incarnations' in the lab and/or their purposes to be a killswitch for each other. But if he does know or remember any of it, the protection of that 7% from the Toring Chip becomes even more vital and strategic as all hell.

Because that would mean Caleb orchestrated a situation where he's become the lab subject, a decoy in MC's place as they try and correct the chip within him.

And that would mean that Caleb planned for them to "sacrifice a great deal to obtain him," — apparently, so much that they're unwilling/unable to simply dispose of him when he's resisting the very thing that would seal his fate as "the key", as MC's killswitch.

and it's in the literal beat of his heart

when you lay your hand over caleb's heart to hear his heartbeat, no matter how fast that beat starts out, if you hold your hand there long enough, his heartbeat inevitably tapers into a calm 50-60.

Despite all he's doing to preserve that 7%, he can't fight the nature of the other 93%. The nature of the chip and it's purpose to keep him in an emotional stasis.

His excitement to see you, his happiness to have you there, the fluttering of his heart? Those are abnormalities to the chip, those aren't in line with what that stasis is supposed to be. And so... no matter how quickly his heart beats for you initially, it inevitably gets suppressed.

We see how it affects other members of the Fleet too. How all of them have accepted the inevitability of the chip. Tuum Officer No. 6025 and Liam in particular shows us exactly what it looks like to give in.

And yet, every time you come back, Caleb's still excited, Caleb still fights it. He's fighting it with only 7% of his memory, he's fighting it with every quickened beat of his heart.

If the chip is a tether, if his fate is a tether, Caleb will never stop sawing at the strings, and i am not okay about it.

blame for any and all crash outs can be directed to @solifloris and @starmocha, who have managed to make my "down bad" for caleb turn into "sick to my stomach with eternal devotion"

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Credits artist @aa_yiwen

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PLEASE HE LOOKS LIKE SUCH A DAD 😭

Also he and Zayne decided to match today, you know what that means!

snowcrow canon.