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something that is both heartwarming and heartbreaking about Caleb is the way he consistently continues to fight his fate, despite every sign he encounters pointing toward its inevitability:

it's in the way he defies the Toring Chip, and the meaning of 7%

When Caleb falls apart on the bench with MC and the chip resets in Farspace Bloomfall, 100% of his mind is supposed to reset.... and yet only 93% of the chip is integrated and able to do so.

We know Caleb is aware of this too, when he tells MC to tell him about her problems “while I can still respond.” Because he knows he'll inevitably lose some information once it happens, like the 'patrol data' Enforcer mentions.

This means it’s happened before, Caleb's mind had been reset before. Which means, he knows if the chip’s integrity ever gets to 100% and resets, anything he feels toward MC will also reset. And so..

“…he’s purposefully ‘sealed’ his brain rather than damaging it.”

So Caleb gathered up every emotion, every memory, and every impression of MC in his mind, wrapped it all together into one small piece, and has since, against all odds, continuously used his Evol to put a barrier around it, to protect it. To keep the chip from finding it and wiping it. And what is that piece? That 7%?

7% is MC. 7% is his memories of MC. 7% is his love for MC.

it's in the way he's turned himself from "perfect weapon to destroy each other" to "perfect weapon to destroy others"

I could be wrong (please correct me), but I'm pretty sure it's murky right now whether Caleb (subject 002?) knew MC during any of her 'incarnations' in the lab and/or their purposes to be a killswitch for each other. But if he does know or remember any of it, the protection of that 7% from the Toring Chip becomes even more vital and strategic as all hell.

Because that would mean Caleb orchestrated a situation where he's become the lab subject, a decoy in MC's place as they try and correct the chip within him.

And that would mean that Caleb planned for them to "sacrifice a great deal to obtain him," — apparently, so much that they're unwilling/unable to simply dispose of him when he's resisting the very thing that would seal his fate as "the key", as MC's killswitch.

and it's in the literal beat of his heart

when you lay your hand over caleb's heart to hear his heartbeat, no matter how fast that beat starts out, if you hold your hand there long enough, his heartbeat inevitably tapers into a calm 50-60.

Despite all he's doing to preserve that 7%, he can't fight the nature of the other 93%. The nature of the chip and it's purpose to keep him in an emotional stasis.

His excitement to see you, his happiness to have you there, the fluttering of his heart? Those are abnormalities to the chip, those aren't in line with what that stasis is supposed to be. And so... no matter how quickly his heart beats for you initially, it inevitably gets suppressed.

We see how it affects other members of the Fleet too. How all of them have accepted the inevitability of the chip. Tuum Officer No. 6025 and Liam in particular shows us exactly what it looks like to give in.

And yet, every time you come back, Caleb's still excited, Caleb still fights it. He's fighting it with only 7% of his memory, he's fighting it with every quickened beat of his heart.

If the chip is a tether, if his fate is a tether, Caleb will never stop sawing at the strings, and i am not okay about it.

blame for any and all crash outs can be directed to @solifloris and @starmocha, who have managed to make my "down bad" for caleb turn into "sick to my stomach with eternal devotion"

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Credits artist @aa_yiwen

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PLEASE HE LOOKS LIKE SUCH A DAD 😭

Also he and Zayne decided to match today, you know what that means!

snowcrow canon.

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May actually be a little bit in love with her ngl

She’s so cute 😭

In short i see why they fell for her ngl

I too would betray a god for her, let her curse my soul to never forget her even though she might, give up my crown and all my people AND volunteer to face man made horrors beyond my comprehension for her. Yes.

I couldn’t complete their myths :( I’m sorry if something’s awry

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This ad just made me laugh so fucking hard it being under the House md tag specifically is so fucking funny I cannot describe it

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He is so incredibly kind, my beloved my darling, my sweetheart my best boy, my husband, LOVE OF MY LIFE

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THAT meme but with Luke and Kieran~♥ more art on Patreon

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Chat why he kinda……..

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THIS DIVA ISTG 💀💀

Like WTF IS THAT POSE HAHAHAHAHA I mean yeah I touched the butt but you didn’t have to mog me like this 💀

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They went a little too meta with this I’m afraid 💀

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"Me? I'm loyal to SnowCrow" I say as I hold up my Zayne and Sylus plushies. I then look to the side to see a feature, a creature feature that is SnowApple.

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F this, the tests are flooding my mind, but here's my daily SnowCrow:

Whenever Zayne smells like jasmines, Sylus knows something is up. Let's say that bathing himself in jasmines is one of his ways of reliving stress. It's not frequent, but he does do it occasionally. Sylus, being the dotting lover that he is, will immediately come to the rescue and absolutely PAMPER Zayne. Food, bath, massage, manicure, pedicure, relaxation, sweets, EVERYTHING. He won't stop until Zayne is completely fine.

The doctor will admit that it is quite overwhelming at times, and if so, all he has to do is tell Sylus to give him space and space will be given. After, let's say 5 hours of complete separation (Sylus is dramatic af), the crow will attempt to pamper him again.

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SnowCrow because yes (gotta keep the daily grind)

Sylus would be the one to ask silly questions. "Will you love me if I was a worm?" "Would you let me get eaten by a crow?" "What if I became a rag?" Those types of questions.

Zayne will either say scientific shit because he's sassy and smart like that, or lean into Sylus' questions, playing along.

One morning, as Sylus is cooking breakfast, Zayne leans on Sylus' side and rest his head on the broad shoulders. This time around, Zayne will be asking a silly question.

"So.. do you actually like me, or are you just here to suck my dick?"

Sylus would be shocked, side eyeing Zayne. "We've been together for *** years. What the heck are you talking about?"

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I feel like Zayne and Sylus unknowingly adopted the twins. Like, they just signed a random paper that the twins gave them (I know that they're 18) and go back to their daily life, as usual.

The twins love that of course. They have always seen Sylus and Zayne as the parents they never have. They're definitely the biggest Snowcrow shipper.

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(highschool AU SnowCrow idea I thought of while on the toilet)

Sylus hires Zayne, a classmate, to be his tutor in math and science. Not because he can't do it, he's secretly smart just lazy, but because he wants to spend time with Zayne. While Zayne starts rambling on about the subject, Sylus would look at him and daydream.

He knows he can pass the test even without Zayne's help.

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Zayne is Do I Wanna Know-Hozier’s version Caleb is the Original Arctic Monkeys version I said what said

Someone should edit them with that transition btw