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what do you do when you desperately need something you don't deserve

and the only way to reach a stage where you deserve it is if you get it

asking for a friend

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Mindfulness is a core component of DBT. This set of skills is all about focusing on being present in the moment. Being stuck in your own thoughts can be very distressing. Mindfulness is a research-based strategy that gets you out of your head. It encourages you to become more aware of your surroundings and to live in the moment.

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Was planning on cutting my tongue off this weekend

kept delaying it because I couldn't do it

I'm catching up on all the studying I had to do these couple of days

maybe some other time

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the universal college experience, no matter your major, is learning how remarkably fucked everything is. except business majors theyre having a great time learning to do basic arithmetic and and staring at that one supply and demand graph where the line goes up

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yea I kinda forgot about the whole DBT thing. Doubt I can get it to work anyways

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Everything feels like it's on standstill

everytime I try to talk to people it just ends in misunderstanding and then frustration for both sides

Assuming so much shit and it's driving me insane

I don't want to wait till next week

tmrw Imma decide what to do

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All the things you said

Swimming circles in my head

Words repeating Beating

Like a pulse

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2 weeks

22 of march will be a friday

I'll see how I feel by then and how things are and then I'll decide if I need to take more drastic action

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turns out you have to think about other people too

you cant just tell them how you feel and expect them to do the right thing for them and for you

I am irrational

I don't do the right thing most of the time

but so are other people

I'm working on it

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I think I should set out some sort of list of deadlines

or maybe just plan out different things with specific dates

that might help a bit

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Starting this blog as a way to keep track of my mood and progress with mental issues.

Hopefully the structure of a tumblr blog will make it easier to commit to this than the notes app.

Quick introduction

My name is ##### but I'd like to go by BugSoup on here

I am a trans woman living in a country where that is a very dangerous thing to be

I suspect I'm Bipolar however I am unable to go to therapy or get that sort of professional help

I'm gonna try reading on things like DBT or similar and try to apply that to my own life

I might post random rants and throw my ideas here

maybe post some of art aswell

we'll see how things go