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mother and father issues are so valid like yeah i do take issue with the way you two behaved. Actually

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please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me

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i wish i had the energy to end it rn

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i need to be put down

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all i’ve ever wanted is to love and to be loved completely.

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I just wish I didn’t have to live like this anymore.

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I’ve seen that in order to heal your inner child and teen, you’re supposed to learn to let go of your anger and resentment, but I’m not doing that. I worked hard to earn the right to express my anger. I have big emotions that deserve to be felt in their entirety after being bottled up for so long. I will allow myself to feel it all.

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Why does everybody make me feel alone, like?

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What I would give to be loved in return

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it’s exhausting :(

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Dissonance from feeling like you can’t talk, as if it’s physically painful to open your fucking mouth. Because nobody needs to hear your input and being quiet is the safe route + the intense urge to scream at the top of your lungs and destroy everything around you

Yeah fuck that feeling.

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i literally disagree with my own thoughts and reactions all the time like girl what are you onnn about. there are two wolves inside me

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i will forever be the hurting child, the angry teenager and the lonely adult.

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i hate that im sensitive and jealous and stupid and quiet and ugly and annoying 

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i hope my unwashed hair and deer in headlights type stare has captivated you