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I genuinely miss the past. But I don’t know what I miss most. The memories I created, or the people within those memories?

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“I never grew up, but I got old.”

— Michael Dorris (via quotemadness)

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two types of people

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Supergirl checking Batwoman out.

Kara, your gay is showing.

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I am no celebrity, but I’ll answer for the fun of it.

if I were cremated and my ashes were made into a vinyl record, I think i would have the song, “Gone” by *NSYNC, I dunno. 

here’s the thing

for tumblr answer time, i ask every celebrity the same question

so far i’ve done misha collins

dj khaled

troian bellisario

sean o'pry

gavin grimm

tj miller

lany

and so far not a single goddamn answer. 

i’m gonna keep going until i get a straight answer or @staff​ stops me

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Quick thought before I crash:

4years ago I was in such a toxic place that I use to punch a basketball just to make my knuckles bleed, I once said that “somethings hurt more than scraped knuckles” because that was a pain I could control. 4 years ago I hit an all time low, and while I did unfortunately end up breaking down again some time later, its still good to know that I am not where I was 4 years ago; it did get better. It just took some time.

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4 Years Ago, I Joined Tumblr.

Happy 4th Birthday to Moi !

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I'M DOING AN EXPERIMENT

To prove something to a friend, please

REBLOG IF YOU THINK ASEXUALS BELONG IN LGBTQ+ SPACES

LIKE IF YOU THINK ASEXUALS DON’T BELONG IN LGBTQ+ SPACES

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2 weeks

So much pain in less that 24 hours. 2 weeks of silence and solitude is what I need. But I’m afraid, loneliness makes the hard cold. And my heart can’t afford to be made of ice again. Because if it does... I don’t think I’ll recover this time.

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Open post because it's not like anyone really listens or cares.

I know you’re not awake, and I’m stupid for even doing this… but I’m falling apart… I’m terrified that I might do something stupid.

I can’t sleep, I’ve been crying for hours, and every minute that passes I find it harder to breathe…..

I’m broken… and I don’t think I’m ever going to be put back together.. I don’t want to be here anymore, I don’t want live, and I don’t want to keep feeling like this….

I’m in so much pain and nothing makes this go away. Everything I’ve ever wanted in life either leaves, gets ruined, or I fail… I don’t even know why I’m still alive…

If I had known that my life would have led to all this I would have offed myself years ago…

Why is all this happening to me? Why does everyone else around me get to be happy and I have to live in misery…

I fall for people I can’t have, I hurt the people who fall for me, I can’t keep a relationship, my friendships don’t last as long, my life has been failure after failure….

I feel alone and I am alone… and every time I try and talk to someone all I ever fucking get is “I’m sorry” I’m tired of people saying that they’re sorry… I just want someone to fucking be there for me like I have been there for them… but no… I’m stuck alone wanting to kill myself because I’m nothing, I’m worthless, and I’m just a toxic asshole and just… I don’t deserve to be alive….

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“Have a smoke, pour a drink, steal a kiss in the dark.”

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“Have a smoke, pour a drink, steal a kiss in the dark.”

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I'm laughing again.

Are you a Gold Star lesbian? (Just in case you don't know what it means, a Gold Star lesbian is a lesbian that has never had sex with a guy and would never have any intentions of ever doing so)

I believe I have already answered this for you… ask me a different question next time. And for the record no I am not a gold star lesbian.

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And my god, I hope you wake up one morning to someone who loves you like you’re a sunflower and they’re desperate to keep you alive. I hope you dance with them in the small space of your kitchen floor, messy hair and tired eyes because you both been up all night watching movies again. I hope you laugh with them in a way you never did with anyone else, head tilted back and lips apart as you let out every sound your laugh can possibly make and I hope to god you don’t try to cover your mouth. And if you do, because that’s okay, I know I sometimes do, I hope they stop you. I hope they grab your hand before it ever comes in contact with your lips and I hope they hold it to their chest as they watch you with kind loving eyes. Because fuck, everyone knows you deserve it. And I hope you find someone who’ll accept you. I hope they accept your messy hair in the early morning of the day and I hope they accept the way you sometimes talk too much and can’t seem to stop when you’re nervous or how you still cry yourself to sleep on some nights. I hope they hold you and kiss you on the places where you’re most insecure at and I hope to god you let them. I hope you find someone who makes you happy, even when you feel like sometimes, life is too hard for you. And I hope that when you both come across a tough situation and it comes down to a choice where you are one of them, I hope they choose you. Every goddamn time, I hope they choose you.

excerpts from Sadness and Agony (via unpopular-deity)

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LOOK. AT. THE. LITTLE. FLUFF. 

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