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[Text] It just started randomly. Im halfway done cleaning the kitchen floor

text: okay, i’ll be there in a second

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[Text] Maybe. I feel like my heart is gonna explode

text: something trigger this? or was it random?

text: are you in bed?

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[Text] My anxiety is so bad

text; anything i can do to help calm you? hold you? kiss you?

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carlospena: okay, i guess. been an interesting few months. you?

carlospena: it feels so late out. i hate this time of year.

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[text] What are we doing for Delia's birthday?

text: do you want to have a party? or just do something with her and the kids?

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[text] You know what I mean.

text: i know. we’ll figure it out and it’ll be fine.

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[text] Sucks I can't be a normal person

text: no one is normal

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[text] I'm not trying to push you into doing something you don't wanna do. We have to be responsible. I'm upset at the situation but because you have to be the one to make sure I stay responsible it transfers a little to you too. I'll get over it eventually

text: i know you aren’t trying to push me. i’m just explaining where my head is at too.

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[Text] both

text: idk what the answer is here. or what to do. i’ve been going back and forth between

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[Text] Yes

text: are you upset with me or just the situation?

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[Text] Fine. Whatever.

text: are you upset?

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[Text] Why do we always have to be responsible

text: because we’re adults and parents?

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[Text] Could risk it and if I ever get pregnant I'll just get off my meds

text: yeah we could. just doesn’t seem responsible.

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[Text] If you have to

text: kinda have to, don’t i? you’re back on your meds

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[text] I kept trying to call the doctor last week but I just couldn't bring myself too. They're closed today because it's a holiday. If I really have to go back on birth control you're gonna have to call and make the appointment because I just can't do it.

text: okay. i can call.

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carlospena: it does, and then to have to do it twice a year? no thanks.

carlospena: it feels so late out. i hate this time of year.

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carlospena: they should! Arizona doesn’t fully it, so why should the rest of us

carlospena: it feels so late out. i hate this time of year.