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“The strength of a person’s spirit would then be measured by how much ‘truth’ he could tolerate, or more precisely, to what extent he needs to have it diluted, disguised, sweetened, muted, falsified.”

— Friedrich Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil

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"For fear of being intense, I end up being distant."

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“Those who know that they are profound strive for clarity. Those who would like to seem profound to the crowd strive for obscurity.”

— Friedrich Nietzsche

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“I still believe that the unexamined life is not worth living: and I know that self-delusion, in the service of no matter what small or lofty cause, is a price no writer can afford. His subject is himself and the world and it requires every ounce of stamina he can summon to attempt to look on himself and the world as they are.”

— -James Baldwin,from the introduction to “Nobody Knows My Name”.

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I go to law school.

I recently realized I might be going to law school in order to create the illusion of purpose through conflict and work

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Sinking into sadness and welcoming pain. Feeling detached and drinking my nights away. How will I ever be able to breath if in my lungs there isn’t any air. Pretending I’m comfortable when honestly I’m full of hate

Angelina

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I MUST ADMIT

I love you with every ounce of my body

And I envy the one who has you

I envy her ears because they listen to your voice

I envy her tears because they're probably of joy

I envy her eyes because they can see you

I envy her hands because they can feel you

I love how you move, how you laugh, how you play

I love every single mistake you make

I even love your drunken slurs and your blurry face

I love the way you mutter my name

I must admit I am in love with you

I must admit, I am really immature

I will probably forget of you in a few weeks

But I want to love you, and that's all I want to feel

I must admit my life is not the same

My love for you makes me feel insane

- Angelina alias Carmen

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they mentioned your name, i just smiled. not because there’s nothing bad about you, it’s just i’ve tarnished your name so much already that i even feel bad for you.

you should be paying for my therapist

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wish i could go back to eden and give eve a vibrator

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The inevitable writer’s block has arrived, but it’s taken over my hands and my heart. Deep down in my brain, the webs laced my mind, and now I can only think, of how it would feel to die.

- carmen

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jasper jordan kind of person. coming in to brighten up and darkening yourself.

drowned yourself in the fish tank you built.

who’s hungrier? nobody is getting fed anyways.

start off fun and end up buried.

the name won’t be remembered anyways

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need

my house