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When I am at my lowest part of my life, I was hopelessness and I think I will die that time, that was during the pandemic (Covid 19) it was so depressing hearing the news that days and people are afraid to get out of their houses. Everyone is panicking that time and me I don’t know what to do, I almost cannot eat three times a day and don’t have a proper sleeping time like sleeping around 4 to 5 am and waking up afternoon, I was so down that time didn’t know how to keep up with my anxiety and depression, and I cannot express my thoughts all I do is overthink and sometimes think of how things were different before than during that time, I always think that time what will happen to me and my family if things didn’t go well. And that time my girlfriend cheated on me her name was mikyla because I caught her and she only apologize because I caught her and I don’t know what to do with our relationships that time should I fix it or should I leave her and move on, I think it was my fault that time because she cheated, it is because I am not enough or maybe I lack something she wants in me. Then after some time I finally realize things leaving her that time was the best option no apology needed, if someone cheated on you it means that they no longer respect or afraid toloseyou.Because I didn't feel loved by anyone at the time, I learned how to skip home. And when I couldn't drink alcohol, my problems in life seemed to return, and it wasn't good; I realized that everything I did and the choices I made in life were bad. As a result, my addiction to the vice of the moment grew worse. I detested it as I thought back on my entire life. and I am aware that there is still time to make a fresh start. I was also mistaken because I disregarded my parents' advice, which I should have done. I realize that time that it is better to move on than be with a person who does not value you anymore, after that thing went well, I started moving on and luckily that time it is still quarantine, I use that time to coped up with things I think I couldn’t handle by myself, after all things that happened, I manage to catch up with what is happening around me and started looking after myself like taking bath a day and having proper diet like eating fruits and vegetables, I also started working out like jogging around our barangay every morning and playing basketball in our barangay silway 8 and to church ,and I also help myself to learn something new like cooking and learning some talents like playing guitar and drums because we have a church and I still don’t have ministry to it so it is a good thing that I learned drums. I also learned reading books and it started to become my habit to read books. The first book that I’ve read is the War bey Robert Greene, that book was all about tactics and learning the moves of your enemy, I became interested in the book because my goal is to become a better person once I comeback to the people after i distance myself so they can respect me. I also read that book because I think that will help me in the future once I become a police or soldier. After that things went well in my life my parents started praising me for coping with things.

Having some new friends also help me recover from my past mistakes and depression and time by time, my relationship with my new friends started to grow and bond like playing online games like mobile legends bang bang, call of duty mobile, pubg mobile and also computer games like dota, we could not yet met each other that time because its still lockdown,And I want to genuinely thank everyone who has supported me during the ups and downs of my life, especially my cycling companions who made my life brighter when I met you and my mother who always gave me advice. And now that I've had my fill, I promise to stay away from my prior bad behavior. Now that I've seen and connected with my friends I'm haappy , I realized that having some friendship with many people really push you up whenever you are down, having Friends prevent isolation and loneliness and give you a chance to offer needed companionship, too. Friends can also: Increase your sense of belonging and purpose. Boost your happiness and reduce your stress. And also you need to choose what friends you want because it will also affect you and your behaviors especially when you always hand around with that people, because when hang around people with bad disciples and no manners you’ll eventually adapt it so its better to choose your circle of friends. The old saying that friends are like family is very true, because your closest friends are those that have been there for you through everything. You never have to worry about their intentions, or doubt their advice, because they always have your best interests at hear. You need a real friend is someone that you can rely on. You know that they will keep their plans with you. You know that you can rely on them to show up for you when you need it. Real friends are people that have proven they will show up for you in the past and will continue to do so because you are a priority to them. This is the key on coping up with things that you think is impossible to do, having some help with people is not a bad thing to do, though someone might not help you but will give you some life changing advice that will help you see things differently.