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oh i have THOUGHTS about Judit Minot

In the final EDC check, she is the only officer other than yourself who gets an "Of course" when Gottlieb and Pryce are discussing who will be on their side when whatever plans they have come to fruition

Trant is a 'No', Vicquemare is just a 'Yes' but Minot and you are both 'OF COURSE'. It comes at the very end, so most people probably don't really register it, but to me that is HUGE.

What it says definitely depends on what criteria Pryce is using to make this decision- if your Esprit De Corps isn't high enough, Pryce responds to your name with "Yes" instead of "Of Course", so maybe it's about loyalty to the RCM (that would make sense, since Trant is a potential backpeddler)

It also makes sense why, despite everything, it's her who defends you after your radio call-in. She's down to lie for you, to try and help you because you're one of them, and because she believes you would do the same them. A remarkable amount of loyalty from her, considering she's apparently only been part of the task force for two months (it makes me think you must've known her before she was assigned to you)

Her kindness and allowance toward you seems to be in large part because she believes you're mentally impaired- "Treat him like you would treat McCoy's little brother" is one line that sticks out to me in particular.

BUT. It's not just... How do I describe it. She will call you an asshole to your face, and she also calls Jean an asshole to his face, even though you're both her superior officers by several ranks. It's not an outburst of anger either, she's so very controlled and firm in her frustration. "Why should I?" when you ask why she doesn't want to talk you, so on and so forth.

She calls her husband "half a husband", and she almost laughs at some of Jean's sarcastic comments (but she stifles it, because this is a Serious Situation and now is Not The Time)

Most interestingly is if you talk to her about being working class, and ask if she wants to overthrow the system. Her immediate response is "No", but she elaborates- "Sort of. Just not with you. Not like this." So she is DOWN with a little bit of overthrowing the system, but she wants you to not be losing your mind first. Love that for her. (If Pryce's plan is Le Retour, then that could be part of what makes her an "of course")

She's mellow, not loud like Jean, but you can still read so much into her personality just from the little pieces we get of her. I think seeing how she interacts with Jean gives a clearer picture of her day-to-day personality, helpfully chiming in with details and reprimanding him when he goes too far, but not overstepping her rank by ignoring his orders not to tell you shit. She has this balance of familiarity and professionalism that I find fascinating.

anyway this is my disco women appreciation post thank you judit minot i dont know what you meant by "half a husband" but it is very funny

I really do wish we got some more info on Judit. It's kind of left up to the viewer to imagine why someone like her is in the RCM. She doesn't really seem to have the personality for it, shes generally kind and empathetic. Maybe she wanted to become a cop to help her 'harden up' and stop being 'soft'. Maybe she's particularly patriotic and wanted to help her city in the most hands-on way possible. Maybe she has an authoritative, power hungry streak that she hasn't shown yet because she's new. Maybe she knew the flaws of the system and wanted to become a 'good' cop and change it from the inside. Maybe she wanted to prove something because she's a woman.

I get a lot of mileage out of imagining her POV and why she is where she is now

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Also Bell lore is intrinsically linked to Bitters lore. Who is Bitters? The other courier. What, you don't know that there's TWO courier six? Fake fan.

Whenever I write Bell lore here I'm waiting with the mousetrap in my other hand like yes yes come closer no no ignore my arm conspicuously hidden behind my back. Now are you ready to hear about The Dual Protagonists—

Writing Fallout New Vegas lore with a friend requires either a compromise or the erasure of one whole courier. A WASTE OF POTENTIAL I say. That's why me and my bestie most beloved (at @caricatureblue ) ended up deciding both our couriers existed, actually, and the platinum chip was put in two separate deliveries. Harder to track and easier to transport, right? (Except Benny had Yes Man. Sorry House, but also not sorry at all House.)

Enters Bitters, and enters Bell. They're two different sides of the same coin and I love that for them so much.

Bitters is from Arroyo. Bitters was supposed to be the next Elder. They're the Chosen One's kid, they're a direct descendant of the Vault Dweller, they were meant for great things. And then the Legion took them on their endless pursuit of Conquest and Subjugation. Bitters spent the most important years of their life under the Legion, witnessing the atrocities AND SUFFERING THE ATROCITIES FIRST HAND. They had a brilliant future ahead of them that was taken from them by the Legion. They were meant for great things and they were deprived of all of that. After escaping the Legion they try to go back to Arroyo, only to find out their mother is long gone and that their aunt wants them gone, lest they try to take her place as the Elder. So, they leave. They become a courier. They try to move on, as much as you can move on from something like THIS + with the Legion on the Mojave's doorstep all this time.

Then there's Bell. Are there important people in her family? Kind of! But they're so far removed from her that she has no idea of who they are, or what they did, or what influence they had on the wasteland. For all intents and purposes, Bell is a nobody. She's the kid of a random British couple that came to America, she's the youngest and her brother is much more outwardly educated and promising than she is, she has no great aspirations in life other than being a courier like her auntie used to be. She's charming enough, but that doesn't change the fact that she's… not really… outstanding, or important, in any way. Unremarkable. She loses all of her family, but being an orphan in the wasteland is the same as a fork in the kitchen. Nothing different from the norm.

Their paths intersect, in the fact they work at the same place and deliver parts of the same packages to the same places, but they never meet before the fatal Free Lobotomy courtesy of Benny.

So you'd expect the obvious, right? Bitters, the lost heir that was meant to take up their mom's mantle would reclaim their spot as Elder of Arroyo, and not only that, they'd also save the Mojave and, no matter which faction they decided to trust, they would be the defacto changing force in the narrative. Meant for great things. It's their destiny. It's what's supposed to happen. Bell, well, she's a helper, right? It's not even funny that her last name is Watson. She's here to be supportive and as a second gun, she's here to highlight Bitters' strengths and to cover for their weaknesses.

But that's… not… what happens.

First and foremost, their relationship of mutual trust and relying on each other? Essential.

Without Bell's insistence on gentleness and kindness and compassion and drive, Bitters would have been aimless, and wouldn't have spared half the people in the wasteland they met. They're angry. So, so angry. They don't want to be, but severe brain damage does that to someone. Bell stays their hand when she sees someone can genuinely change, and helps focus that anger on the intended target (the L E G I O N).

Without Bitters putting their foot down sometimes and reassurances and righteous anger, Bell wouldn't be able to choose anything, and would have let people step all over her all the time. She's afraid, all of the time. Terrified she'll make the wrong choice, that she's incompetent. Bitters pushes her forward when she's too scared to act, and reminds her that sometimes people don't want to change.

Bell thinks Bitters is a genius, and in many ways they are! Even if the brain damage made things harder for them, they're still extremely knowledgeable. They're a Science kid, they're skilled with Medicine, they're resourceful and know how to convince people if they want to, and they're resilient and courageous and strong and how could Bell not think they're perfect? …That's the thing. Bell sees Bitters as this… impossibly Perfect person. Above her, in every way.

AND BITTERS SEES HER THE SAME WAY. Bell is sweet and gentle and compassionate, she can and is willing to talk things out with people every time, she's a fantastic gunslinger, she's knowledgeable in a variety of fields even if she can't articulate it well, and she's always there when they're frustrated with not remembering something, or not being able to do something they used to do well before the Headshot. They see Bell as a Superior.

These two have to work through their tendency to put each other on a pedestal and putting themselves down, but that's something I can talk about on another post.

The fun thing is that Bell thinks she's not capable of leadership, Bitters is… and they couldn't disagree more! Besides, they don't- want, to be a leader. Not like what New Vegas requires, or what Arroyo needs.

When it comes down to it, it's Bell who pushes for an independent New Vegas, and Bitters backs her up every step of the way. She becomes the public face of New Vegas, the Sheriff, and Bitters becomes the ghost of New Vegas. Doing things behind the scenes, aiding in so many fundamentally important ways while only receiving acknowledgement from the people close to them. Bell doesn't think she would be able to be where she is without Bitters, and Bitters doesn't think they would be able to be in Bell's position.

I AM UNWELL ABOUT THEM can you tell i love fallout new vegas

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INSULINDIAN PHASMID - That must be incredibly hard. The arthropods are in silent and meaningless awe of you. Know that we are watching -- when you're tired, when the vision spins out of control. The insects will be looking on. Rooting for you.

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gotta say, the primary tumblr portrayal of Kim as a super patient understanding guy is very funny after actually playing the game

like, he doesn't really read as patient in a lot of cases so much as flexible. he's basically fine with you taking bribes and giving drugs to kids, at worst he's a bit passive aggressive about it. he doesn't even say anything if you steal the boots off the corpse, even though he absolutely would know it was you. hell, there were even a couple cases where I tried to be very principled in my first playthrough (not giving into evrart's blackmail over the lost gun) and Kim was like, dude it's fine, let's do it since it'll help us out, I won't judge

v much feels like someone who defines himself by the narrow social role he inhabits, like most NPCs in the series

I do feel bad when he gets upset with me btw. that part was 100% accurate

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So. Anyone wants to hear about dsmp OCs now that we're in the ex-family reunion or am I going back to the fallout posting

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pelican town

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hilarious that the new alternate universe “this could never happen” mode is just like. john having a good day for once in his fucking life. born to wear kitty cat slippers forced to fight monsters beyond human comprehension

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now i know it won’t happen but

I am thinking about trafficlife’s connection to evo and I am thinking about how in evo, the defeating of the end was exactly when the watched’s nabbed Grian and turned him into one of them

imagine with me, the secret life folks going to the end, defeating the ender dragon

and one of them not returning after the credits

just like evo

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mayor!Scar surprise cameo, 20 dead 200 injured

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HAPPY HALLOWEEN UTAHLIVE NATION!!!

I hope everyone is having or had a great night and got lots of candy! Please enjoy this little treat :D I will see you all soon for the next episode!

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“it is hard being an ethogirl on this server”

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Queerplatonic desert duo. You agree

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they both ended their episodes with "wish i had a friend" and i havent been sane ever since

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cringetober day 16 - objecthead

i miss this design i really should draw ctubbo like this more often :3

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the round mound astounds

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After the Sirens

Something about its description of the bomb has stuck with me for nearly a decade

an incomplete list of unsettling short stories I read in textbooks

the scarlet ibis

marigolds

the diamond necklace

the monkey’s paw

the open boat

the lady and the tiger

the minister’s black veil

an occurrence at owl creek bridge

a rose for emily

(I found that one by googling “short story corpse in the house,” first result)

the cask of amontillado

the yellow wallpaper

the most dangerous game

a good man is hard to find

some are well-known, some obscure, some I enjoy as an adult, all made me uncomfortable between the ages of 11-15

add your own weird shit, I wanna be literary and disturbed