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HO-TAAAAAN i love her very very much

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Okay so I just noticed something and I'm going feral, feral I tell you.

This is going to be a really, really long one with a lot of picures and I'm honestly not sure if I saw something completely obvious that everybody immediately got whilst watching^^° or if I found something here.

Nonetheless strap in in this essay I will...

So in Cap's flashback he enters the room and looks around clearly looking for someone and when he spots Havers he gets this relieved, smitten "omg I found you/you're here and alive" expression in His face

And Havers who spots him out of the corner of his eyes gets all wide eyed

and turns himself towards Cap with this tiny little smile and he looks so fond at him and also as if he's internally screaming (also in an "omg you made it I'm seeing you again" way)

And then Cap walks in his direction but then bumps into Cartwright and they start talking and Cap who seems to be on good terms with him smiles back at Cartwright and seems super happy and giddy (because Havers is alive and in the same room and they will reconnect in a few moments)

And then Havers watches them like this

and starts to turn back towards his colleagues with this almost jealous/shooting daggers look.

and then he makes the face on the left and looks so spaced out, a bit resigned, disappointed and hurt. And then he does his thing again like in Redding Weddy where he presses his lips together and forces a smile (this time tiny smile) with a tense jaw to regain control over his emotions, to put on a stiff upper lip. But look at his eyes the man is clearly hurt (heartbroken) about something

and at first I did not really get what was going on but then it clicked.

You ever had that moment when someone is waving to you that you don't know and you're like do they mean me? and you wave back but then realise they were waving at the person behind you? It's like that just with "in front" instead of "behind"

Because when Cap's eyes fall on Havers look who's standing in front of him in the Captain's line of sight

Yep it's fucking Cartwright. And when Havers has his little "I turn to you moment" Cartwright is also walking towards Cap in the frame

So from the camera angle and they way it's shot we see them bump into each other but do not see if Havers actually saw it ; what he definetely sees is them turning towards each other, though.

and in the next frame Cartwright takes a step to his right and we see them standing like this

So it's a line and Havers is basically looking at Cartwright's back so when Cap lifts his finger to indicate that he wants to go over to Havers, it's probably not visible to Havers because

first of all we can't see Havers anymore in the background when the camera focuses on Cartwrights face. And secondly from the shot of Cap pointing it becomes apparent that Cartwright's body is blocking Havers's view of that.

So but what am I actually getting at?

Well...

OMG I think Havers thought for a bit that Cap didn't want to reconnect with him (or wasn't there because of him) but with (because of) Cartwright!!

Because what he's seeing is Cap entering the room looking for someone, their eyes meet Cap takes a few steps staring happily in his direction. But then some guy walks to Cap in front of Havers who he realises is in Cap's direct line of sight. Then the two of them start talking and Cap looks so happy whilst talking to this other guy! And then we see Havers's heart break! And how he struggles to collect himself and hide that!

He probably thought Captain moved on, that he no longer has the same feelings for Havers, that maybe he has affections for Cartwright. Or at least that Cap prefers o talk to Cartwright instead of him.

So and then when Havers runs to his aid he turns to the next person, who happens to be Cartwright and yells "Well fetch a medic!", he sounds soooo angry. I can think of a few explanations here tbh from "why aren't you helping him?" to "what have you done to him?!" to "oh it's you I can't stand you since 5 minutes ago get out off my sight!" maybe it's neither, maybe its all of them or a mixture. Who knows.

However we're not finished here because guess what

When Cap says "I'm sorry I had to find you" this is Havers reaction.

He looks legitimately surprised in an "who, me?" kind of way (and /or his "omg is this happening now" kind of way just like back in RW) but also worried about Cap and his Adam's apple does the bobbing thing it does when he's nervous or emotional.

But then Cap's words seem to sink in and he's now clearly emotional. Not just worried but also look how softly he gazes as Cap and tries o smile at him whilst clearly being distraught.

And then the realisation hits him about what exactly is happening right now. That Cap indeed was there because of him and that he is now dying in front of him and that there's probably not much time left. And that's even before Cap tries to confess his feelings and Havers confirms that he knows about them.

And it's all just so absolutely fucking heartbreaking.

PS:

Just realised that this would also explain why Havers didn't walk over to Cap and just interrupted the conversation with Cartwright or joined in. Because he thought that Cap was there because of/ wanted to talk to Cartwright and Anthony was heartbroken about that ;_;

Btw also a little thing that's interesting to note in this regard: before the older soldier walks over to C&C we can see Havers in the background just constantly looking at them from the distance. Maybe it's jealousy, maybe it's yearning, maybe it's both.

Yeah so that's that. Safe to say I as always have a lot of opinions and emotions about these two. Curious to know what you guys thought was going on there with Havers .

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well now I'm a little sad.

How to Say It Without Saying It: A Guide by the Captain

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How to Say It Without Saying It: A Guide by the Captain

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So cute!

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Larry got an honorary Doctorate and he answered my comment lmao

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GUYS DID YOU KNOW LAURENCE RICKARD IS DOCTOR NOW

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three chaotic idoits

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Much to his regret.....Larry is iconic

"We were not married previously, much to my regret."

- Laurence Rickard and Ben Willbond on RHLSTP 03/07/2023

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the Captain apologising to Alison on behalf of the group VS the Captain apologising to Pat (idea by @ghosts-of-love​)

bonus:

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YONDERLAND (2013-2016) | 3.02 (Elders '11)

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Havers really put the “left” in lieutenant didn’t he?

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I stand by this.

The Captain is autistic.

So reasons for this conclusion are:

He is not good with social ques for example he often takes sarcasm seriously or takes him a while to figure out that they are being sarcastic. He also doesn't really seem to get metaphor and takes thing seriously instead example he though pillow talk was actually talking to you pillow (i mean so did but still)

Stimming- his baton (i think its a baton) is basically just a stim toy example tapping, fiddling, swinging it about. Vocal stims clearing his throat, pom pom etc. Bouncy feet he bounces when he walks and sometimes when he is just standing.

Monotone voice- he has a very monotone voice its an autistic trait

Blunt-he is very blunt and alot of the time doesn't realise he is doing it.

Need for routine- he gets distressed if there is change to his routine an example is when Alison and mike has a party and it means he is unable to sleep. Fanny waking up screaming. An hour a week of the thing about tanks. Alison not being on time for his run etc.

Sensory issues- does not like loud noises and are easily startled by them like when some one yells.

Struggles to express his emotions and share feelings- good example of this is pat pointing out you never hear him laugh. Him unable to come to terms with being gay and that he is definitely in love with havers.

Change to routine and control- he likes to be in control of situations eg the whole leader situation. Organising the wedding. Alway on time or early for the group session unless he has planned something else so he has control. Doesn't have a different outfit it provides him with sameness.

Hyperfixations\special interests\info dumping- he is obsessed with everything war related in more than any other officer would be. He knows alot and want to learn more on the subjects.he info dumps on character about these interests. Which they seem to find irritating especially Julian.

He's gay. Neurodivergent people are more likely to be LGBTQIA+.

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Larry why would you. Also Ben whyyyy

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Larry why would you. Also Ben whyyyy

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The bowtie

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Wonderful

Hello! I’m probably going to be more active on here now as Twitter is … something.

Here is some art I did

Longing for someone far away…