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I can't wait for college I'm feelin like I don't have any friends that really actually are best friends... No one I can hang out with all the time or trust with anything. I need friends like that & I think I'll find them in college. For now I talk to my mom she's a cool woman

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I stayed up until midnight doing my spanish project and then i was like "well, since I'm up I might as well be productive." So I made a sandwich and learned how to cut a mango. It was kind of difficult. Then I did my physics homework and here I am. Writing on my tumblr blog

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Altogether I'd say this has been a pretty good week. I don't mind that I didn't have a friend with. I liked the time alone to do whatever I wanted. I got kind of annoyed with my parents at times, but at other times they were a lot of fun. I know they tried really hard to make sure I was having a good time and I appreciated it. I bought 2 dresses and a t shirt and a sweater and a t shirt for my boyfriend and gifts for my 4 friends who all had birthdays in the beginning of april (literally my 4 closest friends it's so weird). So I hope they like their gifts and everything. It's been good. It's been fun. Except I don't know what happens to my skin but I get a really bad rash on my chest usually and I assumed it was from the sun, but I think I might be allergic to something in the sunscreen we buy. I got a rash not only on my chest but also on my arms, legs, hands, and feet. It was quite itchy and irritating but it usually goes away within 24 hours (but then shows up again if i put sunscreen on/go in the sun. I'll have to test my theory at some point). So that kind of put a damper on the week, but I think I still manages to get moderately tan-ish. My family is big on sunscreen because melanoma is on my moms and my dads side... So I'm not too crazy about being all that tan. I'd rather be pale than get skin cancer yaknow. My mom always prints out when the low tides are for the week and we always go out and pick up shells and things. That was really fun this week. Most of the shells have crabs and snails in them, so you can't keep them. They're still amazing to find though. We also found some brittle stars and star fish and sand dollars. Fun timez.

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Iceland (by Mindcage Photography)

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Florida with my moms camera

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I got a role in the play I auditioned for!!! Not the lead or anything, but I didn't really expect to get a lead role. I have lines and stuff and I get to talk in a British accent!!! I'm so excited

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I started looking at colleges and it got me so excited for college. I feel so ready to go new places and meet new people.

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I submitted a poem to a poetry contest awhile ago which I was really proud of myself for because I worked really hard on the poem. It didn’t get selected but I still think it’s good so I’m going to put it on here anyways

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An Unforeseen Blessing

I think that you are beautiful. Not just in your appearance, But how you look at me and say my name. You’re the piece that I’ve been missing. I see you when I close my eyes, Your laugh is always in my mind, I’m acting like a lovestruck fool. You’re the best I’ll ever find. Anytime I’m next to you, It’s like what must be Heaven. I’m so glad that you’re in my life, You’re my favorite blessing.

You keep saying that you love me, But why don’t you still call? You say that you won’t ever leave me I’m trying to stay calm. But all your words are fighting words And all our talks are yelling. You’re saying that you just might leave me Please, please stay, I’m begging.

You said you never meant to hurt me But I’m crying and I’m damaged. How could I live without you? I’m not sure I can manage. If you truly love me then you’ll stay You told me that you won’t. Find someone else to fill your needs, I’m sorry that I don’t.

I’m broken but I’ll heal, I swear. It might just take some time To accept that you don’t love me When I still don’t know why.

I hope you find your happiness I know that I’ll find mine. I miss you, I’ll keep missing you, But trust me, I’ll be fine.

I found someone else who loves me. He’s the opposite of you. He’s better than you ever were, I wish, back then, I knew. You made me cry more than I smiled, I thought it was my fault. You said I wasn’t good enough, Now I know you were wrong. I deserve more than you gave I can’t believe I thought That I was so in love with you When clearly I was not.

Goodbye, I hope you’re doing well. You were a great lesson. Now I know my worth and value Heartbreak was a blessing

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Maybe it’s not as good as it could’ve been because i don’t necessarily have a deeply rooted connection to what I was writing. I went off things I've kinddd of experienced, but nothing to the extent of which I wrote the poem. It started out as a poem about normal love and then I decided to make it more than that and I really liked how it turned out. I don’t like the last line of it very much, but I couldn’t think of anything better.

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Wow I really want some hot chocolate I might go make some for myself. I also need to go to bed though. Life is just full of stressful decisions geez

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I think I had food poisoning last night and I was up super late with that it was awful. I thought i had the stomach flu & I’m really glad I don’t. My mom let me skip my first hour because I was up so late with my issues which is very out of character for her. I appreciated it. I had some pasta with veggies and turkey sausage for lunch and I was really looking forward to it all day, but then the noodles were gluten free and tasted rather strange. The veggies and sausage were good though.

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I was in a musical twas very fun & a good time. I didn’t have lines or anything so I didn’t really get nervous and I could just enjoy it. I made a lot of friends and the cast party was wild. The only downside is this girl with the same name as me said some crazy stuff she did and people told other people now some people think it’s me who does things that are weird and not good which is upsetting. I’m trying out for a play tomorrow and I have I have to do a British accent for it, and I personally think my British accent is awesome. I kind of am hoping to be the lead because that’d be so cool, but I'm also not hoping that much because it is pretty unlikely. I don’t think I’d get it because I'm not as experienced as most of the people auditioning and the same girl gets the lead in almost every play so if I ever get a lead role it’ll probably be once she graduates

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The Jacuzzi, Roraima, Venezuela | by Erik Cleves Kristensen

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My family is going to Florida for spring break this year and my parents said I could bring a friend because neither of my siblings are coming with since they’re both old and in college. My sister is so wild but thats a whole different story. I invited like 5 different people but no one could come so I’m going to try to have fun mostly by myself seeing as I can’t spend too much time with my parents. I’m going to bring my moms camera and take pictures and write stuff and bring a lot of mac & cheese. Should be cool. I really wanted to go to Arizona or Colorado or somewhere where I could go on adventures but my mom wanted to go to Florida. I will spend my time entertaining myself and staying away from the sun.

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After getting my full twice and losing it twice i have gotten it for the 3rd time what a life this is

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I wish J Cole was like my brother or something because he's not that cute but he's so cool and I'd really wanna have some good convos with him

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Moraine Lake, Banff National Park, Canada

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