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Its at times like today when you show that you dont want me that I feel like this. I feel so lonely and scared. I really depend on you emotionally, am not proud of it but what should I do when I have no one close to me but you. I know that if you ever stop loving me it would kill whats left of life and joy in me. I know that am already depressed and have lots of sadness in me that is incurable but am not ready to suffer from more of it. Tonight am really hurt.. Am not that excited to go with you to Germany neither, I dont like the language and am not fond of the country, but I dont feel that I belong here neither. I feel exhausted. It is so hard to live as a girl in a household that only wishes to get rid of the girl as soon as possible. It is very tough to always feel unwanted..

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Thing is, no one would understand you. You will always feel sad and they will not care about you, they will watch you evaporate and they will blow on you

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There’s nothing worth smiling for.

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Some of us are so used to being hurt that they constantly live with heart ache as part of their daily lives! Pain resonating through their bodies with every  heart beat, every thought, every breath they inhale.. thats the kind of people who are invisibly brused, that it takes only a true lover’s eyes to see those bruises and soothe them away with a gentle touch and a comforting hug..

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Thinking about his smile makes me smile <3 :’D >///>

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There’s no one ever responsible of breaking our hearts but our own selves.. *sigh*

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Zombie by The Cranberries (1994)