caprilayne

[caprilayne]

Sunday 12/4/22 4:30PM

Why? I'm here today because I'm at such a weird point in my life... like everything is really good but also just not good... like I have amazing things going on, just got married to the love of my life, just got a promo at work, which, I wish I was making more money but I'm thankful to be making more than I was tbh. But, I still have this sad sad feeling deep inside and Idk why...

Like IDK if it has to do with how fucked this world is right now or what?! Like the US is a fucking disaster and it really fucks with my anxiety just even existing. I mean - school shootings, actually mass shootings every where... But just I just stay in my little bubble for that exact reason so... other than that the shit with my mom still fucks with me pretty heavy. Like.. she's just gone... I've lost all hope and I neverrr though I could ever loose hope for anyone... so I think that's really weighing my soul down. But I guess I just had to get that out.

I'm really hear <- wtf lol , I'm high af right now lol.. HERE, because I feel like I've just lost myself and I sooo desperately need to find her again. I order to live the life I really want to live.. I need to find her. I'm off socials right now too (obv minus tumblr), just me, life, and my mind for a while. It's 4:44 right now, I'm on the right path. P.s Listening to unholy by Sam Smith rn and yeah... Bad Bitch Loading.

[caprilayne]

"Journaling really helped me, you should try it and see how you feel"