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ANYWAYYYYS extremely worried there’s something wrong with me because i can never seen to actually connect with people xox

like yeah i have friends but they all have better closer friends and i feel like im just intruding and i don’t understand what everyone else is doing so differently that makes me the outsider

like sometimes i don’t even really feel like a person- i feel like i lack too many of the attributes and am more of like a thing that nobody wants and it sucks

and whenever i bring this up to my mum she brushes me off :/

even scarier thought though: what if there’s not something wrong with me and this is just the way i am?

i don’t think i can handle this just being me i need a reason that extends beyond it’s just the way i am because that would mean it’s literally just me

like it’s not that i’m missing something within my social interactions because of some external factor it would literally just be that people don’t want to be my friend and don’t like me as much as their other friends

i just want friends the way everyone else has friends lol

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who up terrified there’s something fundamentally wrong with them 😋

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any tips for GETTING THE FUCK OVER MYSELF???? would be appreciated 🙏

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i’m afraid to fail, and, more than anything, i’m afraid to no longer be held to the same standard i was when i was 10. learning similes and metaphors, being praised for how well i write them.

despite this, i have done nothing, and most likely will do nothing, to maintain this standard. similes and metaphors are no longer impressive, i feel like a one trick pony.