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LMAOOOOO turns out the friend i have a crush on had a crush on me 😐but idk when she just said she had a crush on me because i told her i used to (slight lie- i still do) have a crush on her and i have no idea what to do send fucking help

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ANYWAYYYYS extremely worried there’s something wrong with me because i can never seen to actually connect with people xox

like yeah i have friends but they all have better closer friends and i feel like im just intruding and i don’t understand what everyone else is doing so differently that makes me the outsider

like sometimes i don’t even really feel like a person- i feel like i lack too many of the attributes and am more of like a thing that nobody wants and it sucks

and whenever i bring this up to my mum she brushes me off :/

even scarier thought though: what if there’s not something wrong with me and this is just the way i am?

i don’t think i can handle this just being me i need a reason that extends beyond it’s just the way i am because that would mean it’s literally just me

like it’s not that i’m missing something within my social interactions because of some external factor it would literally just be that people don’t want to be my friend and don’t like me as much as their other friends

i just want friends the way everyone else has friends lol

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another update i deleted the dating app and now am yearning again what was i even thinking downloading a dating app

i need some advice,,,

basically i have a crush on my friend but idk if she likes me back and things are still complicated with her ex

im too scared to do anything about it but its getting harder for me not to say something if that makes sense??? like i want to tell her but im scared that it will ruin our friendship which would suck because she’s like one of my closest friends :/

but i also don’t know if its even worth it because i might be moving away and we wont really be able to see each other and if she did like me back and we ended up going out what if it doesn’t work out long distance???? ughhhh

i just really like her and i want to tell her but i feel like it might just ruin things but its really weighing on me :/ any advice is welcome and appreciated,,,

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who up terrified there’s something fundamentally wrong with them 😋

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UPDATE i downloaded a dating app 🙏hinge if you can hear me save me hinge

i need some advice,,,

basically i have a crush on my friend but idk if she likes me back and things are still complicated with her ex

im too scared to do anything about it but its getting harder for me not to say something if that makes sense??? like i want to tell her but im scared that it will ruin our friendship which would suck because she’s like one of my closest friends :/

but i also don’t know if its even worth it because i might be moving away and we wont really be able to see each other and if she did like me back and we ended up going out what if it doesn’t work out long distance???? ughhhh

i just really like her and i want to tell her but i feel like it might just ruin things but its really weighing on me :/ any advice is welcome and appreciated,,,

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i need some advice,,,

basically i have a crush on my friend but idk if she likes me back and things are still complicated with her ex

im too scared to do anything about it but its getting harder for me not to say something if that makes sense??? like i want to tell her but im scared that it will ruin our friendship which would suck because she’s like one of my closest friends :/

but i also don’t know if its even worth it because i might be moving away and we wont really be able to see each other and if she did like me back and we ended up going out what if it doesn’t work out long distance???? ughhhh

i just really like her and i want to tell her but i feel like it might just ruin things but its really weighing on me :/ any advice is welcome and appreciated,,,

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any tips for GETTING THE FUCK OVER MYSELF???? would be appreciated 🙏

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the real question is though- do i really like her or am i just lonely and like how she cares about me and lets me talk about my interests and hugs me,,,

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im fucked 🙏respectfully

cause why tf do i have a crush on my friend WHO ISNT OVER THEIR EX

this has to be self sabotage atp

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i’ve made a massive mistake and somehow developed a crush on my friend :((((

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i’m afraid to fail, and, more than anything, i’m afraid to no longer be held to the same standard i was when i was 10. learning similes and metaphors, being praised for how well i write them.

despite this, i have done nothing, and most likely will do nothing, to maintain this standard. similes and metaphors are no longer impressive, i feel like a one trick pony.

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i’m scared that my 8 year old self will be disappointed with the person i am now