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I`m watching too many mlp lately

so yeah

PONIES!!!

I just wanted to draw Carters brothers as Flim and Flam brothers tbh

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An INCREDIBLE commission for me by MittensTheNoble 💕💕💕

Credit:

DA: https://www.deviantart.com/mittensthenoble

FA:

https://www.furaffinity.net/user/mittensthenoble/

Designs: Wilson - mine, Maxwell - @swttinshy

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That’s It for the Other One: Cryptical Envelopment/Quadlibet for Tender Feet/The Faster We Go, the Rounder We Get/We Leave the Castle - Submitted by: fastman27

#B2235A #FF7F65 #FFC778 #21BF78 #5047FC #6D1998

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This is so true. Like, people say relationship break ups hurt, but friendship break ups are more worse. I’ve had a close friend who I’ve been friends with for 7 years and not once, but twice they walked away. Ever since then, I have so many questions and thoughts in my head like:

"What did I do?"

"Why did they do this when I needed them the most?"

"Are they mad at me?"

"Do they must hate me.”

"Did I say or do something to upset them?"

"Maybe I was too much."

"Was I too annoying?"

“I guess I wasn’t important enough to be their friend.”

"Was I too childish?"

“Maybe I deserved it.”

“They must’ve waiting for the perfect moment to do this”

“What’s wrong with me?”

And then there are times where it gets from hurt and sadness to anger. Like, there’s this burning frustration inside that’s waiting for ignite once this “friend” reaches out again and act like nothing happened.

The questions of “What did I do or say to make them ghost me?” would pop up in my head and I would sometimes go back to our chat logs to see if there was something I said or did. Let me tell you, it’s like walking down memory lane with a twist of pain. Every message, every photo, and every conversation from the beginning we met to the end feels like nostalgic and bittersweet moment that you can’t help but smile and go “Heh, I remember that.” but that all turns to hurt when you go down to the last message with the same question “Where did I go wrong?” and start to feel bad.

There are even times when I'm too scared of getting close to someone because I fear they might walk away again and I'm gonna have to deal with the same pain over again. Hell, sometimes I even have trust issues when it comes to meeting a new friend and talking to them.

I think what hurts the most is the silence, no closure, no explanation, but just being left with a “what if” train that’s running in my mind. It makes you question yourself worth like if someone who knew me so deeply could just walk away, then maybe I really am unlovable.

I would even ask myself like what do these people who were your friends gain from this ghosting shit? Relief? Freedom? Do they feel at peace when I’m not around? Ghosting doesn’t really have the real answer, but ghosting seems to be their way of avoiding confrontation, to take the easy way out instead of being honest.

There are also times I gotta remind myself that maybe it’s not me, but they have their own issues that doesn’t have anything to do with me, but the fact they did this twice makes it hard to believe that. Like once I’ll understand, like life happens and some people grow apart. But if it happens twice, it starts to slowly feel intentional.

Sometimes do I think about them tho. Because technically nothing really “ended” like, there was no final goodbye, no closure, just poof. So, sometimes I wonder if we’re still really friends or not. Sometimes I wonder if they even think about me.

I even try my hardest to move on from this, but sometimes it’s hard because no matter how hard I try to push it away, the hurt, sadness, and anger will always find a way to come back. I do agree that healing does take time and moving on doesn’t mean forgetting it, but there are times it would feel like a “two steps forward, one step back” situation.

Their birthday is in 2 weeks and I still care enough to remember that. This may sound stupid, but I kinda wanna wish them a happy birthday. I know they didn’t wish me a happy birthday to me, but a part of me still wants to reach out. Despite everything, I still care about them.

Okay, that’s enough of that! Idk, when I saw this post I thought I’d talk about my feelings with this because I was in a very bad emotional and mental state at the time and I know their not a therapist, but this was something I had to deal with alone and it still hurts me when I think about it.

so sad when people just fade away from each other's lives. like we didn't fight. we just talk less and less, meet less and less. until eventually we stop meeting each other. eventually we stop talking to each other and eventually we're not in each other's lives anymore and there isn't even a reason why. we just slowly fade away from each other

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so sad when people just fade away from each other's lives. like we didn't fight. we just talk less and less, meet less and less. until eventually we stop meeting each other. eventually we stop talking to each other and eventually we're not in each other's lives anymore and there isn't even a reason why. we just slowly fade away from each other

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💞🦇

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I am very in love with geekboyzayn’s 1D Dystopia AU. Bambi is my favorite <3 

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Here’s a little of my reimagined Grexie lore

Merlin doesn’t approve Douxie’s relationship with Gregory is because he’s a vampire and King Arther is trying to get rid of them as they’re seen as demons of the night.

Fredrick doesn’t approve Gregory’s relationship with Douxie (Or Hisirdoux) is because magic frowned upon in the vampire clan and since Douxie is a wizard. He fears that he could put the entire clan at risk.

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Gregory sackville-bagg

I'm trying but i can't I don't like this

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blarg

Wilson © Klei Entertainment Percy/Art © ZombiDJ

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Just a one page thing. Percy taking over Wilsons body and being mean to WeeJay about it I’ve had this scene in my head and wanted to draw it :V Edit: (whoops forgot the spikes on Percys left arm, fixed) Percy/WeeJay/Art © ZombiDJ

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So, idk if someone has brought this up before, but Mystery’s eye can be seen in the “Soda Pop” scene where Jinu is drinking the grape juice👀

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He’s a smooth operator…one of these days I’ll end one of these with some semblance of reverence but until then enjoy the chaos lol. Aquarium date part 2 coming soonish, it’s 15 panels so it will take a little bit!

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Arcadia's whole economy is reliant on one immortal wizard, and he's not even seeing a cent of that.

As for what I think they'd get at Hot Topic, currently they're selling Wednesday merch on the website, and Gregory would EAT THAT SHOW UP I feel like. So for sure, he'd get himself a Nevermore outfit.

Douxie, on the other hand, I feel like he'd unironically get Bluey merch. There was a Muffin bag going. He'd for sure get that. Gregory would also talk him into getting a tail, and he immediately dyes it black and blue.

As well as emo typical outfits. Studded belts and bracelets, favorite band shirts, cool looking pants, hats, and sweatshirts. You know, the usual.

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For the doodle request maybe an interaction between Gregory and ercole

This whole comic was sitting in the back of my mind for YEARS now. I just kinda forgot about the Grecole crack ship and thus kinda forgot about the comic.

It was based on a headcannon that I had that vampires aren't actually weak to garlic, they just have a sensitivity to it. Cuz they're built to smell blood, and they can smell out different blood types and diseases, so the smell of garlic is too much for their sensitive noses. But they're not weak to the stuff. They can eat it just fine if they can tolerate the smell... At least not eat it fucking raw. I can tell you from experience that raw garlic does not taste as good as it smells.

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The namesake of the comic series.

Thank you, Liam. Thank you for the music you gave us. But more personally- thank you for all of the friends. I have so many friends all over the world now because of you and the buck wild experience that was being a Directioner. I still call many of those people my friends to this day. It would have never happened with you.

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