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subs unintentionally corrupting their dom by simply existing. all of my fucked up fantasies exist because of you. i can’t get you out of my head, you occupy my every thought. i don’t remember who i was before you came along. you did this to me. this is all your fault, pet.

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I want to get worse.

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google tell me how to get beat up quickly please

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Nikita Gill, from Your Heart is the Sea: Poems; "Your Heart is the Sea," originally published in 2018

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destroying a curious little girl. corrupting her into enjoying more and more depraved, twisted, nasty things. keeping her a perpetual horny mess for me

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Humans show love with their mouths, we talk, we smile, We kiss...that's why devouring another is the purest sign of love.

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just saying i’d make an excellent pathetic victim and a terribly gross captive and i’d be soo terrified and i’d keep crying but stay by your side like a dog

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imagine killing someone right before they orgasm, they knew you were going to kill them, but they thought youd let them cum beforehand <3

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boyfriend that lets you cut his wrists and finger the wounds while you jack him off

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Liking my vent posts and my porn posts is such a strange interaction to preform at once but also idk what I expected from this blog lmfao

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Praise kink 🤝Degradation kink

“You’re doing so well, you’re just a little whore aren’t you?”

“My pretty, brainless doll”

“You look pretty when you’re a struggling, desperate mess”

“That’s it, keep going you dumb slut”

“You’re such a good slut”

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Concerningly older woman pounding me and grunting "fuck, you're tighter than my daughter..."

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yeah alright time to get weird again because im feeling very detached and apathetic yayy back to freaky posting or whatever yayyy

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"I need to stop everything and hide all of these thoughts forever" VS "if i bleed i'll probably feel better and forget i was ever upset"

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i think im seen/treated more as "something to be worried about" than im seen as or treated like a real person, and its always been like that. with everyone. urges to delete this blog are back, the shame and fear and guilt is back, im losing my sense of self again.

i should have kept all of this in my head, i should have never given this any indulgence

calling myself / getting called an "infection" should never have been seen as anything positive, the way we think and act, the cravings and addictions, the fucked up fantasies and wants,, should have stayed silent and buried and gone. maybe im no better than the people and places that made us. maybe im doing exactly what they all did. wanting to "make myself worse" and living in some fucked up thought process that makes that urge into something romantic was never alright. every single thing about me is just another reason for people to worry and be upset, my entire existence is nothing more than a stress on everyone around me and i cannot at all believe i let myself feel comfortable in this for so long, there is so much wrong with me.

i need to disappear for a while, until i can fix this and stop being this way.

im no better than my dad, or anyone else from that place, i cant help but think that im only hurting the people ive been with. that somehow just my existence, or openness about these thoughts, my dependency and submission, anything, might have been seen as some form of coercion or something. thats probably irrational and wrong but im not sure,

im not good, i cant be good, ive ruined myself by being this way and trying to accept it instead of hiding it and getting rid of it

im nothing more than just something to worry about because im such a fucking mess, im not a person

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feeling horribly su*cidal and sexualizing it

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I 🫀 you,,

Aww ily too <3