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Thinking out loud

This is something silly i wrote in 20 mins and i just want to share with you guys. I cant tag anyone because im on my phone. Enjoy and sorry for any mistakes. She was drunk. She had reached the level of drunkenness where she started thinking about love and how she thought she would never ever find someone to love who would love her back. At this point in her life she has had zero relationships, a few friendly fumbles here and there and she slept with one guy. He was nice but emotionally unavailable so nothing to love there. She doesn’t regret sleeping with him, it felt nice to be wanted in the moment. When she figured out that those fleeting sexy moments were all she was getting from him she decided to end whatever they were doing. So here she is, drunk and sad and horny. Horny for love. Late at night, stuck on a party boat. Yes. A fucking party boat. There is no way off unless she swims back to shore and there is no way in hell she’ll do that. “Don’t wanna freeze me damn tits off” she chuckles out loud, to no one in particular. She has lost her friends but she doesn’t care. They probably aren’t even looking for her because everyone is too busy kissing their boyfriends. She hates being the single one of the group sometimes. It’s very unfair how they ditch her all the time. Fuck them, she thinks and starts to walk back to the party deck. She hears they are now playing romantic songs and the temptation rises to jump off the boat. In all of her drunkenness she listens closely to the lyrics and of course, she starts crying. Fuck you Ed Sheeran. It’s the song about loving each other until they’re 70. Fuck why am I so emotional, she thinks. Probably period hormones raging through her. "Hey, are you alright?” A young handsome man approaches her and gently puts his hand on her shoulder. Sniffing she shakes her head. "What’s wrong? Can I help you? I’m Finn, what’s your name?” he looks worried and Rae can’t help but notice his warm brown eyes. "I’m Rae, and it’s this fucking song” she gestures to the dance floor. "Oh” he relaxes but doesn’t take his hand away from her “yeah the song is pretty awful. Fuck whoever sings this”. Rae widens her eyes “No! The song is beautiful, that’s the problem. I’m sad I’ll never get a love like that.” Finn looks confused but nods. “Um, okay sorry. But I don’t think you should be sad, I’m sure you’ll find someone”. Rae just looks down and shakes her head. Finn isn’t sure why the sadness of this pretty girl is affecting him but he can’t help it and next thing he knows he is offering to dance with her. She takes a minute to think about it but then accepts. The song is ending in about 2 minutes but for those minutes Rae enjoys the feeling of slow dancing. She looks at Finn, the kind stranger who is helping this drunk sad girl and smiles warmly at him. "Thank you” she whispers in his ear and then leaves a kiss on his cheek. He kisses her back, closer to the edge of her mouth and Rae’s horniness creeps out of its cave. She holds him closer, to test the waters and he doesn’t move away. Oh well, she thinks and kisses him full on the mouth. He quickly takes control of the kiss by grabbing her face and guiding her. What started out as a gentle kiss is slowly transforming into a passionate make out session, groping included. But Finn being the gentleman he is stops the kiss before it gets even more heated. "What’s wrong?” she asks, her voice dripping in sex. He swallows and reminds himself she is drunk and sad and he is better than that. "Look Rae, you seem like a very cool girl and I want to continue this,” he gestures between them, “but maybe some other time? Let’s dance some more alright?” He can see the disappointment in her eyes but she agrees. "To be continued?” she asks seductively. He nods vigorously and winks. "To. Be. Continued."

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Variety Pack pt.2

Sorry it took so long!!! I hope you enjoy this and not hate it because I kinda do.  Also, Im not planning on writing a part 3 any time soon because I suck haha so consider this the ending to this story. XO

(SMUTTY text beware)

His hands were slowly trailing back up her legs after pulling down her leggings. Rae leaned back deciding Finn could have his way with her. She bit her lip as she felt how Finn dropped little kisses on her inner thighs. His head was semi buried under her skirt and just the sight of him like that made her wet. He used his left hand to rub her over her panties, feeling how damp they already were. He tried to kiss her there but her skirt was impeding him from moving closer. He tried pulling the skirt down and it got stuck on Rae’s generous thighs seeing as he did not unbutton and unzipped it. Rae assisted him by standing up and pulling the damned skirt off once and for all. Finn was left on his knees as she towered over him like a goddess. He was enjoying the view from down there. He hugged her waist letting his hands squeeze her bum. He put his hands inside her panties sliding them down deliberately pressing hard on her skin. She moved further against him needing to feel him close. He guided her back onto the sofa and kneeled before her. His gaze was intense, admiring every inch of her. It wasn’t long before she parted her thighs inviting him to breathe her in. He kissed her core softly and Rae squirmed. In response he tangled his arms around her legs to slide her down. His grip was tight, and it surprised Rae how much she liked it like that. Finn started working his mouth on Rae causing her to lose sense of time and space. His tongue licking her clit felt incredible. Rae couldn’t help but writhe desperately, the pleasure he was giving her overpowering her senses. Her moans spurred Finn on further. He draped on of her legs over his shoulder and used his fingers to keep on pleasuring Rae who hummed and wailed in response.

“You like that baby?” his voice was pure sex and she couldn’t believe this was all happening. She only managed to moan a response.

His other hand started massaging her bum and it all felt too good to Rae causing her to experience a mind blowing orgasm. She involuntary pushed forward and arched her back holding her breath. Finn didn’t seem to mind and kept sucking and nibbling on her clit while his index and middle finger pushed in and out of her.  Rae pushed up her shirt and her hands followed up cupping her breasts while she writhed and moaned. Finn looked up mesmerized by the way Rae was falling apart by his touch.

“Oh god yes…please…mmm” his hand was starting to cramp up a bit so he stopped fingering her and used his mouth to lick up and down her vulva and inserting his tongue. His free hands replaced the hands on her breasts. He was aching to touch them too, there was so much Rae he needed to explore but he was lost in the way her body felt against his tongue. He used his fingers to roll over her nipples. He squeezed her breasts making Rae cry out in pleasure. It felt so good to be touched. She couldn’t take it anymore and experienced another orgasm. Her hands were pulling his hair while she grinded her hips into his face. He slowly backed up and dropped kisses on her thighs. He worked his way up to her mouth, stopping to drop small kisses on her stomach, on her breasts and her neck until he reached her mouth. He looked at her satisfied face and licked his lips, the taste of her still lingered. Her hands went up to his face wiping her juices off his chin. Her hand felt wet and she went to wipe it but he stopped her grabbing her hand and by sucking on her fingers. His gaze was intense.

“I would never waste a drip of you” he said. She wondered how it felt to him, to be able to taste her like he did. She leaned up and  couldn’t help kissing him passionately. His tongue entered her eager mouth while his hands cupped her face. She could smell and taste herself and loved the feeling. Their kiss was a pure mixture of friendship, sex and love. Finn’s palpable erection was grinding against her and she felt an aching hollowness.

“I want to make you cum Finn” she whispered against his lips. Finn stopped kissing her and rested his forehead on hers. He was breathing heavily and felt he could orgasm by just hearing her say those things to him. “I want to make you feel good, as good as you are making me feel” she grabbed his face and licked his lips.

“You…don’t…have to…it was…not I mean you don’t” his sentence was incoherent because Rae moved her hand down to palm him. He wanted to make it clear that she didn’t have to if she didn’t want to but Rae was clearly eager to please. She understood his concern but if he only knew how badly she wanted him. So she was going to make sure there were no misunderstandings.

“Finn I really really want you…I want to feel you” she smiled boldly. Finn looked deeply into her eyes and groaned heavily. He took her lips into his mouth biting her softly. He stood up and extended her a hand to help her get to the bedroom, but Rae immediately went to unbuckle his belt. He looked down at the image before him and licked his lips.  She was getting rid of his clothes as if he were a present she had been waiting for her entire life. “You are so good looking” she admired his cock. She had never seen one up close. She saw one in the dark once and she didn’t get the chance to touch it. Suddenly she realised what she was doing and where this would all lead to if she let it happen. She was more than ready and trusted Finn enough but should she tell him she had never done this before? Could he tell? He stroked her hair softly passing his fingers through her locks. She looked up at him and he smiled so sweetly that she felt another kind of need inside her. A need to open herself up completely to him. All the doubt and anxiety she could’ve felt subsided and she dedicated her attention fully to him. She used her tongue to lick him from his balls to the tip of his cock and he stuttered her name.

“You like that Finn?” she did it again and used her hand to cup his balls. He hummed softly and grabbed her hair in his fist moving it out of her face.

“You look so sexy Rae. Fuck…you turn me on so badly you have no idea how long I’ve wanted this” He looked down at her removing the hairs that were still blocking him from seeing her face.

“Tell me Finn, did you imagine me doing this?” she gripped his cock and sucked the tip. He let out a harsh breath through his nostrils. He looked so manly to Rae, she didn’t know what came over her but she felt a primal need to satisfy him. She felt needy for him in every way.

“Rae I…I” he couldn’t quite concentrate on speaking as Rae was putting his entire length in her mouth licking and sucking her way down.  His hands were on both sides to her face and he wanted so badly to move to help her. She accidentally grazed her teeth against him making him wince. She stopped and looked up.

“Shit did that hurt? Sorry. It’s just that I’ve never really done this before shit I’m sorry” he saw her getting stressed and that was the last thing he wanted.

“It’s okay Rae” he reassured her. “I’m very much enjoying this” he smiled down at her caressing her hair.

“Do you want me to continue?” she wanted to add ‘sucking your dick’ but she didnt

“Only if you want to continue, I’m up for anything” he winked cheekily at her making her laugh a bit.

She then returned her attention to his cock taking it in her mouth again, with more caution this time. He groaned and gripped her hair tightly, causing Rae to moan involuntarily. She continued sucking and licking enjoying the way he held her hair.

“You like it when I grab you like this don’t you?” she hummed her response and she felt him harden in her mouth. His lips were parted while he looked down at her. He couldn’t help but admire the view. He felt a bit dirty about it but seeing Rae with his cock in her mouth made her more beautiful to him. Finn couldn’t help letting out a throaty moan causing her to look up. She never felt more sexy in her life, the way Finn was panting and moaning because of her. She continued to stare at him and marvel at his beauty while still working her way up and down his length. “Rae you are so fuckin…oh god…keep looking at me like that please…yes…baby I’m gonna…”she focused her attention on his tip waiting for his release that came shortly after. She tasted his cum on her tongue letting it drip out of her mouth. Finn stroked her hair and bend down to drop a kiss on her head. She stood up and made her way to the bathroom to clean up, Finn following her. After cleaning up he took her hand guiding her to the bedroom.

“Rae, would you lie with me?” she looked a bit confused not expecting this question from him. She made up her mind to continue things with him, but this didn’t sound bad either. She smiled sweetly at him.

“Of course, let me go get my clothes-“

“No. No I mean, if you’re comfortable enough I’d like you to stay like that. Actually no, I would love for you to remove that shirt and bra seeing as I didn’t get around to doing that myself” he laughed and raised his eyebrows waiting for her response.

Rae blushed and bit her lip. Happily she obliged removing the clothing that remained. She didn’t know why exactly, but she wasn’t afraid of being naked in front of Finn. He looked at her in a way that made her feel marvellous about herself. Like she was art. She hadn’t experienced someone wanting to look at her like that before and it made her feel save. She trusted Finn.

He extended his hands again to pull her closer and kissed her deeply. They moved over to the bed where they lay down embracing each other. They spend a great amount of time looking at each other, kissing and touching every part of their bodies. It felt very intimate and liberating.

“Your skin feels so soft” he said leaving kisses down her neck. “I’m so into you Rae”

“I’m also very into you Finn. I adore these freckles you have” she touched them tenderly.

“I want to make you mine” he whispered in her ear and then he licked her earlobe. She giggled pushing him away. “Do you want to go have breakfast, lunch and dinner with me tomorrow?”

“Are you asking me out on three dates? All on the same day?”

He nodded and moved closer to her grabbing her leg and draping it over him.  She felt very at ease with him.

“Do you accept?”

She rolled her eyes and scrunched up her nose nodding her answer. He mimicked her and gave her a little peck on the lips.  

They fell asleep after a while, cuddling each other under the covers.

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Variety Pack pt. 1

Hola! It has been a while eh? I had a smutty story planned for you for Vday but Ive been so busy and distracted I never got around to finishing it in time, so to make it up to u I decided to split it so here is part one of my attempt at smut. Now this isnt really that smutty but its the build up...hope you like it even tho its short <3

“Should we get the variety pack or just settle for these?” Rae observed the packages in her hand.

“Your pick girl” he winked flirtatiously.

It was a strange situation for her. She felt like they were a real couple, she sure hoped the cute check out girl thought so because she had been eyeing Finn from the moment they walked in.  She was still holding the boxes in her hand, indecisive. She felt him move closer to her and her heart skipped a beat.

“Here let’s just take these” his hand touched hers when he retrieved the box out her hand. “Let’s do this!” he was excited.

They stood in line waiting to be helped by the cashier. There was an older lady in front of them who looked back and winked at Rae when she saw what they were buying. The cashier finally got to them and scanned their item. A loud bleep sounded followed by an annoyed sigh from the girl.

“Dave! The thing isn’t scanning right!” She yelled out for everyone to hear. She then turned to Finn with the sweetest look “sorry, you’ll have to wait a minute”.

Finn nodded and looked away. Rae could tell he was a bit uncomfortable. The girl was ogling him in a distasteful manner. Feeling a bit bold Rae placed her hand on his shoulder and whispered in his ear.

“The old lady in front of me winked when she saw what we were buying” she spoke softly and chuckled. He laughed and Rae felt her heart skip another beat. He was so deliciously sweet it made her weak in the knees.

“DAVE!” the cashier yelled again, this time she sounded very annoyed. “CAN I GET A PRICE CHECK FOR THE CONDOM VARIETY PACK? THE ONE WITH HUNDERD CONDOMS?!”

“Make sure you hurry up Dave, I’m a man on a mission” Finn stated not too loud but loud enough for people in line to hear. Rae looked like her eyes were going to pop out of her head. Finn started laughing and winked at her. She felt herself blushing and quickly looked away.

If only. I’d let him fuck me a hundred times with those condoms and then another 1000 times without. Oh how great would it be to have sex with him, dirty sweaty fucking. Followed by passionate love making. And then rough. They could also do it slow and tortuous. She could ride him to outer space. Suck the soul out of him. Drown him in her juices. Make him come so hard he sees stars and-

“Rae! Rae! Where did you go girl?” Finn snapped his fingers to bring Rae out of her day dream. “Come on let’s go to yours. We got work to do”

They left the store and Rae caught one last glimpse of the very jealous cashier. Poor girl, if she only knew what those condoms were for…

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“So you just drop it on my head yeah?” Finn was explaining the process to Rae.

It was silly, this so called condom challenge. Why would you even do this? What is the purpose of letting a condom filled with water fall on your head? Rae didn’t seem to mind though, spending some fun time with Finn was enough for her.

“Yeah okay I got it dickhead” she teased him.

“Oi! I’m no dickhead” he responded faking an angry look.

“Says the guy who is gonna put a condom around his head…” she mocked him and proceeded to fill one of the condoms.  

“You make a good point there girl, can’t argue with that”

He turned around in the small bathroom and took his shirt off in a way that made Rae tremble with need. He was so fit. Rae groaned internally. The condom in her hand was getting pretty filled up and for a second she hoped Finn would pass out when it collapsed on his head. That way she could get her way with him…Oh god Rae. Calm the fuck down you pervert. Sex crimes are not the solution to your sexual frustration problems. She was too wrapped up in her thoughts that she didn’t notice the condom balloon growing too much until it exploded in her hands. Water getting on her flannel soaking it.

“SHIT!” she shouted. Finn passed her a towel.

“Don’t worry girl, we have another 99 condoms to use” he laughed, “here take your flannel off so it can dry” Finn suggesting she take off some of her clothing was everything she wanted to hear, just not in this scenario. However she was going to remember the way his voice sounded when he said it, so she could flick her bean to the memory of it. She slowly started to unbutton her flannel, she was nervous. This was just too much for her horny mind. He being shirtless asking her to undress. Rae was afraid she might jump his bones if she didn’t get herself under control…

After trying a few more times they decided to call it quits.  The condoms kept falling to the ground instead of Finn’s perfect head and Rae was getting bored with opening so many condom packages and not using them for sexy intercourse.

They decided to just chill out and drink some beers. They went through the beers rather quickly and so Finn pulled out a bottle of vodka he kept for special occasions.

The conversation flowed and they were having a good time. Finn went to pour some more drink in Rae’s glass when she stopped him.

“Nooo no more” she put her hand on the glass.

“Why nooooot?” he prolonged the last word.

“Because alcohol makes me feel all horny Finn, I’ve had too much fucking drink, I need to go home and…take care of some business” she blurted out. After a second she realized what she said but the alcohol in her system was preventing her from having a proper freak out.  Instead, she started laughing crazily. And then Finn started laughing too. Rae felt so bubbly and giddy she felt she could just spontaneously combust.

“Rae, can I ask you something very important?” he took the glass out of her hands and set it on the coffee table in front of them. Normally a question like this would cause Rae to run away fearing whatever was to follow. But again, the buzz she got from the alcohol protected her from that.

“Hmm?” she smiled amusedly.

“Do…you…fancy me?” he was looking at her intensely now and Rae felt herself get red under his gaze.

She felt so shy all of the sudden, like a little schoolgirl with a crush. She put her hands on her face, hiding her giggle.

“Is that a yes?” smirking he stood up a bit to hover over her.  

“Maybe” she mumbled. “Why do you wanna know?”

“Because…” he bend down in front of her leaving him in dangerously close to her lady garden while she sat on the sofa “I really…” he kissed her left knee “really…” he was now kissing her right knee “want you to want me” he was trailing kisses all over her legs and Rae cursed herself for wearing those damn leggings. “Do you?”

All the giddiness Rae was feeling transformed into a feeling of extreme horniness. She was breathing heavily and was left speechless by the feel of Finn on her thighs. He was using his hands to caress her sides, staring fixedly at her silently asking for a sign from her to proceed.

She bit her lips and lunged forward to kiss his full lips. Her tongue made its way out of her mouth teasing Finn’s bottom lip. She was moaning softly into his mouth, excited about how he tasted. He pulled back after a moment, out of breath. “Rae I want to make you moan, can I?” he put his hands at the end of her skirt wanting to push it up. She clenched her thighs in anticipation and nodded. “Yeah?” he gave her a little kiss “do you want me to make you moan?” his hands sneaked up under her skirt stroking her inner thighs.  Rae hummed something that was supposed to be an affirmation. Her eyes were shut, she was relishing this moment. “Ask me Rae” he left a wet kiss on her neck “please”.  Rae had never felt more turned on in her entire life.

“Finn” she whispered breathless “please make me moan” and with that Finn pulled down her leggings.

TO BE CONTINUED.

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a little psa

be patient m’dears im still alive and writing (if u even are wondering) im just not feelin it but something is being worked on and its smutty af and i dont know how to write smut so yeah....

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Butterflies

Hello again. I have written something and it’s a bit longer than what I usually write. Im not sure how to feel about this fic, do you ever type somthing and think “what the hell is this what am i even doing”?? Well i had that feeling during some parts, also coming up with a title is stupid and hard someitmes. Anyways I hope u enjoy. XOXO

They were in his bedroom listening to music, as they always did. Sometimes they spoke, a silly joke or critique that later turned into a full blown discussion about the particular song playing. The way she would act all offended over Finn’s opinions was something he adored about her. Finn discovered pretty early in their friendship that he fancied her. And by the way they acted around each other it was not difficult to conclude there was definitely something there. The tension between them, the playful banter, their secret mode of communication and the lingering looks were the perfect ingredients to a steamy romance. One of those love affairs Rae read about in the books she tried to hide from everyone. Finn knew she read them though. On one of the many afternoons in her bedroom he picked up one of her books up to entertain himself while she prepared some tea downstairs. He of course opened the book on a random page that happened to describe a very erotic exchange between the queen and a servant.  He was pleased to know this little secret of her, it made him feel tingly inside. He didn’t say anything when she came back because he knew she wouldn’t react well.

So it was clear that there was great chemistry between Finn and Rae. But nothing ever really happened between them. And it was because of Rae. Rae stopped things before they started. Rae was always the one to break the intense eye contact they sometimes had. Eye sexing, as Chop had called it. Rae made jokes when the air around them got charged with sexual tension. It was always Rae fleeing from these intimate on-the-verge-of steamy moments. It was driving Finn crazy. It made him think he was imaging things, she wasn’t interested like that. But then she would look at him in a way that ignited a fire in him. Words were overrated in those moments. She didn’t need to tell him, he could feel her want for him. But then out of nowhere something in her would snap and she would look away or make a joke breaking the moment.

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“Raemundooo!!” the bottle landed on her and she immediately rolled her eyes. Why is Chop always trying to get people to kiss each other in cupboards ugh.

Chop spun the bottle again to pair her up with someone. It landed on some girl named Julie.

“I’m not going into the cupboard with her” Julie slurred. “I don’t want to kiss her” she was clearly drunk.

“What’s wrong with you Julie, Raemundo has the perfect lips for kissing” Chop intervened. Rae sighed.

“Just get into the damn cupboard Janine, we’re not gonna kiss so just relax” Rae changed her name on purpose because she knew it would annoy her. Finn, who was sitting next to Julie, let out a laugh.

“It’s Jul-” she tried to correct her but Chop was already blaring over her.

“How dare you disrespect the cupboard in that way Raemundo?! It’s made for kissing, and you’re going in there and snog someone and if she doesn’t want to,” he pointed at Julie “then we’ll just find another candidate wont we?” he grinned.

“How about Finn?” Izzy chimed in.  They have been locked in cupboards more than once, but it has never led to any snogging. Maybe tonight will be different Finn thought to himself.

“Finn is a fine candidate, he’s next to Julie so I think it doesn’t break the rules too much. I declare,” he slammed his fist on the table “this decision will go through”. Obviously he was also a little drunk by now. He was making no sense and taking this game of spin the bottle way more seriously then he should.  Then again, these traits seemed to be an inherent part of Chop’s personality.

“Come on Finn” Rae winked at him and he stood up following her to the cupboard.

Chop whistled as they walked away. “I’ll come get you when time’s up lovebirds”.

There they were, locked once again in a cupboard. Finn hoping she would let him kiss her, he didn’t care if it was because of the stupid game. Maybe it would help her get over whatever was holding her back from the possibility of them being more than friends. All he knows is that he desperately wants her to kiss him. He thinks about her lips constantly. Sometimes he feels ashamed, he shouldn’t be fantasizing that much about her. Especially when he’s wanking, but his mind betrays him so often by picturing her. The way her skin feels against his when they accidentally brush past each other. He’s a big pervert and he knows. At least I have the decency to be ashamed about it he thinks.

“We seriously need to figure out what Chop’s deal is with this game. I mean why is he so obsessed with making everyone kiss? Does he get some thrill out of it? Does he have some sort of goal to make everyone in Stamford kiss each other?” she leaned back into the wall.

“He used to do it because he wanted to get off with someone, but now he’s got Izzy…” he moved closer to her “maybe he just likes the idea of people getting together” he contemplated her hoping that what he’d said would get through to her.

Their eyes met and fixed on each other. Finn was feeling the tension between them again. He recognized this feeling, it was like leaning over a rooftop. Nervous butterflies eating his guts. She must feel this too right?

“Yeah right,” she scoffed “don’t really think he’s trying to get people “together” I think he’s just a bit of a pervert honestly. Why else would he be so invested in making other people’s genitals touch each other. It’s just weird and stupid”.

The moment was gone again. Rae went on ranting about Chop’s childish behaviour and Finn just stood there wondering if he would ever be able to break down her walls and kiss the crap out of her.

“On top of that she has the nerve to look at me like some sort of brainless banana, I don’t get why she’s here. Who invited her anyways? She’s not a nice girl” Finn smiled, she was banging on about something again and making these funny expressions he has seen endless times on her. “She was just mad it was me she got paired up with instead of you…” her voice dropped a bit.

“Fuck her though, I’m glad I’m the one that gets to spend some time with you in this cupboard girl” he smiled sweetly. He cursed internally, that didn’t sound creepy and predatory did it?

She turned to face him and gave him an affectionate look.

“Me too” she stepped a little closer to him. Finn leaned in towards her. Once again he was caught up in the moment. She got closer to him, so close. He looked down at her lips. She licked them. Oh god those lips, he was dying to feel them on his. She put a hand on his shoulder and left a light kiss on his cheek. She moved back smiling timidly at him. The nervous butterflies in his guts were now having some sort of raging outbreak and filled up his entire body. He stared at her, his eyes probably spilling his feelings for her. He hopes she can read his eyes and this time he is the one that moves closer to her, putting his hands on her face and brushing his thumb up and down her cheek. He closes in leaving a sweet kiss on her cheek, dangerously close to her lips. He leaned back a bit but left his hands on her face. She didn’t break the closeness and Finn felt hopeful. She was breathing a bit more rapidly than before and looked down at his lips. That’s she sign, she wants this. Kiss her. He raised his eyebrows unintendedly while closing the distance between them. He took his time, savouring the moment. His heart was beating fast against his chest and he felt like he was about to discover the greatest feeling on the world. He saw that she closed her eyes and he couldn’t help but smile a bit. Right before he could put his lips on hers Chop came barging in like a lunatic.

“TIME’S UP LOVEBIRDS” yelling the one thing Finn did not want to hear in that moment. Rae tensed up and turned quickly. She left the cupboard without saying anything. Finn frowned and glared at Chop. Fucking Chop ruining whatever was about to happen between Rae and him.

“You alright mate?” Chop grinned. He found Finn’s frustration quite funny and made fun of him whenever he could.

The rest of the night was uneventful as Rae returned to treating him like nothing had happened causing Finn to be the designated grumpy sod of the party.  

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Dear Diary

I think I almost kissed Finn. ON THE LIPS!!! On his scrumptious beautiful lips. Mouth-watering lips. I’m very confused. Do I proper fancy him? Is this just a symptom of my ever-growing horn diary? He’s such a good person, we have been mates for a while and everything feels right between us. I don’t know if I’m just confusing his kindness towards me for something else. He makes me very nervous. He looks at me with an intensity I can’t decipher. What if I’m reading way into this? That sounds like me right? Screwing a friendship up by trying to force my lips on his? He probably just wanted to do me a favour, that Julie bitch was mean to me and he always makes me feel better when something like that happens. Not that it happens often anymore. I guess I’m confusing everything, like I did with Archie. Not that I think Finn is also gay, but I clearly am not good at reading people because I get everything wrong. Sometimes though, I feel we talk without talking. Like we have this whole little universe that’s just ours and we just get each other. I’m afraid I’m misunderstanding everything, like I’m making up his part of the unspoken conversation, the way he looks at me… He didn’t talk about what almost happened in the cupboard, so I guess it was just a friendly gesture towards me. IF he were to kiss me it would  be because of the game. He couldn’t possibly want to kiss me just for the kiss of it. It was the cupboard. Chop and his bloody cupboard kissing games.

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“How did you get Rae to kiss you?” the question was out before he had the chance to think it through. Archie looked up to him astonished. They were the only ones left in the changing room after their footie match. Maybe asking him this question was way out of line but it was too late as he had already blabbed it out interrupting Archie in the middle of their casual conversation about the match.

“Are you being serious right now?” Archie responded amused. This annoyed Finn. He stood up and paced the room. He was having trouble responding to that question, because he was. Dead serious. The whole situation had Finn a little exasperated and he hated feeling this way. Archie wasn’t even really interested in girls and yet he had the privilege of tasting Rae’s lips. They didn’t have the chemistry that he had with her. How was this so hard? Archie noticed his friends distress and deduced he was indeed being very serious.

“Err we went on a date and I just kissed her. I didn’t have to use any formula or method, just you know, kissed her” Archie didn’t really had a clue how to answer the question.  Finn heard enough. He was feeling a bit nauseous as he pictured how easy it had apparently been for Archie.  “You like her a lot don’t you?”

Finn looked down at his hands and nodded. “I really do, I like her Arch and I sometimes think she likes me too but then she clamps up and gets all nervous around me and I don’t know what to think anymore” Archie furrowed his brows.

“Well that says a lot doesn’t it? Maybe she gets nervous because she fancies you too Finn. And sometimes liking someone like that can really mess someone up, it can be scary don’t you think? I mean look at you, you’re kind of a mess right now. Maybe you should reassure her? Or just talk to her, how is she supposed to know what’s happening in that head of yours?”.

Finn let Archie’s words fall into place. He had a point. Rae hadn’t had much experience with this sort of thing, and neither has he if he’s completely honest. Girls didn’t use to scare him but with Rae he’s terrified of saying or doing the wrong things. He looked up at Archie and smiled.

“Thanks mate” Finn, not a guy of many words, responded. Archie nodded and patted him on the shoulder before leaving.

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There is this weird thing some people do when they have a crush on someone and that thing is denying the entire existence of the crush. Rae is one of those people apparently. You see, Finn had been actively moving pieces around to try and make them fall into place. Basically trying to get him and Rae together but with caution, he didn’t want to scare her too much. He knew how prone she was to running away from their interactions and he understood that she might be a little afraid of her feelings. He wasn’t doubting their existence anymore though. He was convinced, she liked him the way he liked her. He paid extra attention to their communication, how she looked at him and how she would react to his touch. Finn was now a man with a mission: persuading the girl he adored into accepting her feelings for him and then being with her (in every way she would let him).

The gang had decided to camping for two whole days. Chop had been very excited about it, already planning all sorts of drinking games. Convincing Linda to let Rae go wasn’t as hard as expected. Rae didn’t want to think about the reasons why it had been so easy, because it probably involved Karim and the TV in their room and she didn’t want any nasty images ruining her trip.

“There is no way I’m getting saddled up with Mr. Grumpy and Miss Rolls-her-eyes-at-everything! I’m riding with you guys” Archie wasn’t too happy to go camping as the rest was so he was already demanding a lot of things.

“What are you on about Arch? Why don’t you wanna ride with us?” Rae had to hold back an eye roll to not make his point clearer.

Archie didn’t respond and got in Chop’s car. Chloe was also tagging along with Chop and Izzy and now Archie, that left Finn and Rae alone in the other car. Not that either of them had a problem with that.

During the drive Finn had to restrain himself from touching her hand or putting his on her thighs. He did glance at her more than necessary and she noticed.

“Is everything okay Finn? You’ve been staring at me and it’s freaking me out. I don’t want us to crash” she laughed.

He smiled and nodded. “Yeah, I guess I’m just distracted by the view. Everything is so beautiful out here…” Smooth Finn. Very charming. Rae blushed and looked out the window. She cleared her throat and turned the volume on the radio up.

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Everyone, including Archie, was sitting around the campfire feeling quite content and relaxed. Chop and Izzy seemed to be in their own little world, exchanging kisses every now and then and talking. Archie was reading a book and Chloe fell asleep whilst trying to get tanned.

Finn jumped up suddenly, walking towards Rae.

“Fancy joining me over there?” he pointed at the water. Rae didn’t look very convinced. He took his shirt off, maybe this will convince her. Rae’s eyes bulged a bit, starring at his magnificent chest. “Come on girl, it will be fun” he extended his hand and she took it. They walked away from the group still holding hands.

Finn took his shoes and socks off, leaving him standing only in his jeans. He looked expectantly at Rae who still wasn’t looking very convinced. He joined his hands making it look like he was begging (which he was actually). Rae sighed and went to take off her shoes. Finn excitedly jumped into the water, that covered half of his legs. He walked in a bit more till it covered his entire lower body. He turned to see Rae was slowly entering the water, walking towards him. She smiled brightly and Finn knew he was lost. She looked gorgeous, he could feel his hart hammering in his chest. He didn’t just like her, he loved her. The butterflies he usually felt when he was around her were now behaving like someone set fire to them.

“Okay this does feel quite nice” Rae was approaching him and swaying her hands around the water.

“It’s nice yeah. But now we’re going underwater okay?” He took both her hands and held on to them. “Hold your breath and dive with me…1…2…3!” they fully immersed in the water. When they came back up again, her hair was sticking to her face and her vest sticking tightly to her curves making Finn stare at her in amazement. Rae shivered, due to the cold and also a bit because of the way Finn was looking at her. His hands went up to her face brushing away her hair. He came closer resting his forehead on hers.

“Rae…” he said with a raspy voice. Rae could feel his breath on her face and she felt very warm inside. They couldn’t resist any longer and kissed. Finn felt like he was floating away slowly , like the stupid butterflies were now lifting him up towards the sky. His lips were sweetly nibbling hers. His hands moved down to her waist and he pulled her roughly towards him, he wanted to feel every part of her body pressed into his. Rae gasped at this sudden movement and he took the liberty to pass his tongue around her teeth. She used her hands to caress his arms, making Finn shudder in delight. They kissed for a long time. At one point the air around them became too chilly for them to stay in the water so they slowly broke of their kiss.  

They got out of the water and realized they forgot to bring towels with them. Finn saw Rae shivering because of the cold and he hugged her. “Let’s go get warmed up Rae”  She didn’t move.

“Finn…” her voice was low and she wasn’t looking up at him. “Why…why did you kiss me?” Finn furrowed his eyebrows. What does she mean?

“I kissed you, because I wanted to. And also, because I knew you wanted me kiss you too” this came out a little annoyed and also sounded quite arrogant.

Rae huffed and rolled her eyes. “You can’t just go around kissing girls Finn, yeah you’re gorgeous but that doesn’t give you the right to just decide to kiss your friend when you’re lonely. It doesn’t work like that”  Rae was mad. Mostly because she didn’t comprehend why this kind and special boy decided to play with her feelings and kiss her and also a part of her was mad she enjoyed it so much. “Also why do you say you knew I wanted to kiss you too? I don’t think I heard the words “Finn kiss me please” come out of my mouth so how did you get to that conclusion? Huh?”

“You didn’t say it with your mouth, but I could read it in your eyes” In your eyes? Finn regretted that phrase as soon as it left his mouth. What a twattish thing to say.  

“Oh so you’re an expert eye-reader now? Well how about you read my eyes at this very moment” she stepped closer to him. She looked furious. “You don’t need to kiss me because you’re sorry for me or because you’re lonely or whatever”

  “Jesus Rae, I kissed you because I fucking love you” he yelled. Shit. This was not the way he had planned on telling her. Angrily shouting his love confession wasn’t exactly romantic.  

Rae stood there with an expression of shock and disbelief. Finn looked at the ground, horrified. He had completely ruined this. Why did she have to think those things of him?

“You love me?” her expression softened. His eyes met hers and he nodded.

“I didn’t plan on telling you like this, and I’m sorry. But yes Rae. I kissed you because I wanted to for a long time. Because I can’t stop thinking about you. Being your friend is nice, but I want more. So…would you like to go out on a date with me?” She went to him and hugged him. There they were again, the butterflies in his stomach were persistent.

“I’m sorry Finn, I don’t know why I reacted like that. And to answer your question…no. I don’t think going on a date is necessary” she smiled. “I don’t want to waste any more time because…I really like you and love you too” she whispered closely to his mouth. Finn went to kiss her but stopped. He raised his eyebrows playfully asking for permission. She crashed her lips on his. After a moment he pulled away.

“You can’t just kiss someone like that Rae” he mocked her and bopped his finger on her nose.

“Don’t be a dickhead and just kiss me Finn” she returned the gesture.

They were kissing the life out of each other when they heard the gang approaching.

“What’s going on here? Raemundo you little minx!” Chop shouted at them. “I wasn’t aware we were playing spin the bottle” he laughed.

Rae and Finn looked lovingly at each other. “We weren’t Chop. I’m just here kissing my GIRLfriend”

“FINALLY!” they all simultaneously shouted.

“I guess it took us a while to figure things out” Rae stated. “But everything is sorted now” she left a small peck on Finn’s cheek. “Now let’s go and change because I’m freezing my tits off!” They all laughed and walked to the tents.

That night Finn sneaked into the tent where Chloe and Rae were sleeping to cuddle with Rae. His girlfriend.

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Dear diary!!!!!

GUESS WHO GOT HERSELF A BOYFRIEND?! That’s right me! Apparently I am very good at reading people because Finn totally loves me. And I love him. Now please excuse me I have to go and snog my boyfriend’s face off. See ya later!

Thanks for reading!! If you wish to be tagged just let me know :)

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[candlesandbeyonce]

Feelin like Rae Earl in my robe

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Terms and Conditions

Hello! I’ve tried my best to continue Unknown number and now its ready. I struggled a lot with it but then decided to have fun with it and just write instead of worrying so much so at least Im happy with it. I hope you will like it too. 

Finn parked his car nearby the address she had given him earlier that week. He took the keys out of the ignition and stayed seated for a while to calm his nerves. The morning after her drunken love confession via text they had talked on the phone for quite a while. The conversation made one thing clear, they missed each other like crazy. The what and how’s of their relationship weren’t clear yet but they felt that would fall in to place eventually. They were enjoying being a part of each other’s life again, it was like rebuilding the foundation of their relationship, this one needed to be stronger than the last one.

So after 2 weeks of daily communication they decided to see each other. Finn said he would love to go visit her and see how she’s living now. Still seated in the car he takes a deep breath, and takes out his phone. Should he text her to tell her he’s here? Should he just knock on her door? He’s nervous and he doesn’t really understand why. It’s just a visit. They had been talking good, they were friends again. Friends building towards a loving relationship. And that was the part that scared him, he didn’t quite know how to act like a respectful friend around her. He knew the moment he saw her he would want to kiss her, touch her and sleep with her neglecting their much needed talk completely.

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She greeted him with a beautiful smile. He couldn’t help but to smile fixedly back at her, taking her in. It has been months since they had seen each other in person. It felt good. A familiar warmth was building between them again.  They stood there smiling and staring at each other for a good minute. The tension between them was palpable. Rae bit her bottom lip. Finn licked his lips and took his bottom lip in with his teeth. Don’t Nelson. Don’t you dare kiss her. Don’t do it. Before both could realise what was happening they were kissing fervently. Rae was nibbling his lips and he felt like his brain shut down. Her hands went to the back of his neck urging him closer. He passed the threshold and kicked the door shut. His hands hadn’t dared touch her, afraid he wouldn’t be able to stop this from going further. Instead, they were at his sides balled up into fists. His mouth didn’t seem to mind to keep going a little while. Rae felt she was ignited by her desire to have him. She pushed him into a wall roughly. Her hands were wandering all over his torso and slid under his jacket to get it off. Finn turned them around, making Rae lean on the wall while he stood in front of her still kissing her. He used his tongue to explore her mouth and Rae moved her hands down to his pants in response.

“Rae…” it was difficult for him to break the kiss. Rae started to leave a trail of kisses on his jaw, moving down to his neck.

“Hmm?” it vibrated against his skin making him shudder. He put his hands on her shoulders pushing her away slightly. He looked at her and couldn’t resist kissing her once more on the lips. She pushed into him guiding them towards the bed. They fell down, Rae on top of him.  She was letting out soft moans, like she always did when they kissed.

“Rae?” he mumbled with his lips still pressed against hers.

“Yeah?” her breath was ragged. She looked so sexy to him. And beautiful. His thoughts crashed in his mind, the need to have her fighting against the need to keep her. There was a difference between those needs, he reminded himself he wanted to talk. To work things out before sleeping together. Having sex would complicate things he figured. Not that he doesn’t want to, he’s just craving a different form of intimacy with her.

“As much as I’d rather keep kissing you and…you know, I think we should talk first yeah?”

“Shit” she lay down beside him, “you’re right. I’m sorry”

“You don’t have to be sorry for kissing me” they both stared at the ceiling.

“That line sounds vaguely familiar”

“It’s a spin on something someone once said to me” he smiled remembering what she had said when he first kissed her.

“Like a remix” she laughed. He took her hand in his, lacing their fingers together. The heat of the moment they shared a minute ago was fading, leaving them with a strange feeling of nostalgia.

They stayed silent for a few minutes, trying to calm their breaths and figure out what to do next.

“Finn…I’m so sorry for leaving like I did. I didn’t realise, I guess I just thought that we…we would…I don’t really know how to explain myself. I fucked up, made a mistake. I convinced myself to make decisions I thought I had to make in order to…grow up.”

“It hurt a lot Rae” if they were going to do this they might as well be as brutally honest as possible, "I wanted to be there with you, growing beside you”

He squeezes her hand tight, encouraging to continue talking.

“Do you still want to?” it comes out as a whisper.

“I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t Rae. I care about you. About us, you know that right? I may not always get the way you feel, but I’ll always be there for you. I said that when you broke up with me and I meant it” he shifted on his side to look at her.

“Please don’t think I broke it off because I don’t care” her tone was pleading. “I realised I have been selfish Finn, I didn’t consider your feelings because I was so caught up in my own anxiety about us and the future”

“Why didn’t you talk to me about that? About our future?”

She opened her mouth to speak but she shook her head.

“What? Please just say what’s on your mind, don’t hold back” Finn was still looking at her.

“Well, I don’t want to turn this into some sort of blame game but…why didn’t you talk about our future? You knew I wanted to go to uni but never really asked about it so that spiralled into me thinking we weren’t going to last because I would leave and you would stay in Stamford.”

“Shit” it hit him like a brick. Their lack of communication had once again fucked everything up. “Rae you’re right. I’m sorry for not talking about it either. I guess we both have issues with talking about important stuff eh?”

“Yeah, we suck” she said mockingly.

“But we can fix that right?” she also turned on her side to face him.

She smiled at him and nodded and silently mouthing “yeah”.

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They continued talking for about an hour. They discussed everything that had to do with their relationship. It looked a bit like two lawyers negotiating a merger between the two of them. They were now sitting on the bed facing each other, and at a certain point Rae couldn’t contain herself and leaned in to peck Finn on the lips.

“Oi! None of that Miss Earl. Not until we finish discussing the terms and conditions of our relationship” Finn pushed her back laughing.

“Alright sorry! I’ll keep it in my pants then” she winked flirtingly.

After they felt they had discussed every important thing they needed to discuss they fell into a comfortable silence.

“So…we’re together again now right?” Rae asked.

“No. Not until you agree with the terms and conditions and sign the contract.” Finn said matter-of-factly.  He then gave her a playful wink.

“Okay” she sighed faking annoyance, “where is this contract I have to sign”

“There is a lot of places you have to sign, first here please” he pointed his finger to his left cheek. She smiled and gave him a little kiss on the cheek.

“Now this side” he pointed at his right cheek this time a little closer to his mouth. She gave him a lingering kiss.

“Now we close the deal by you leaving your sign right here…” he pouted his lips and leaned in.

“This is quite an unusual contract Mr. Nelson…” he shrugged while she put her arms around his neck. “Not that I mind” she kissed him hard.

They broke apart leaving small lingering kisses on their lips. They looked at each other and smiled.

“Now, I’m officially yours again Miss Earl. Pleasure doing business with you” he gave her a cheeky smile.

“Oh I’ll assure you it will be very pleasurable…” she kissed him again. She started to unbutton her blouse exposing the same white lacy bra she had on when she sent that picture to him.  He kissed the top of her breasts sighing contently.

“I love you” he whispered against her skin.  He pushed her back on the bed and finally let his desire to have her take over.

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[candlesandbeyonce]

First kiss

HELLO! I got inspired again to write but its not the continuation of Unknown number (im working on that tho so dont worry). I read this prompt and @kneekeyta requested it so here it is. Its 4:28 in the morning so please dont judge any mistakes because I literally just wrote this. Anyways enjoy!

Sitting in the tiny waiting/dressing room was when she realised she made a mistake agreeing to this. Who in  their right mind would agree to just go and kiss a stranger, even worse kiss a stranger in front of a camera. At the beginning the thought of it was compelling to Rae. She understood it would capture the beauty of a kiss and the intimacy of it in a beautiful artistic way. But now she was so nervous she was seriously contemplating running away and never agree to do anything for Izzy ever again. Izzy was so excited about this project that Rae could never do that to her. She assured her that they weren’t going to make her kiss an old man or anyone she didn’t feel comfortable with.

“Are you ready Rae?” Izzy appeared with a wide smile on her face.

Rae just nodded and stood up to follow the enthusiastic redhead.

“You have no idea how great this is going! Every kiss has been so interesting to watch, I can’t wait to see you” she stated happily.

Rae could only worry about worst case scenarios by now. What if he doesn’t want to kiss me after seeing me? What if my breath smells? She checked her breath once more to be sure (she had already eaten at least 12 breath mints).

“Okay Rae, when I say “go” you walk through that door and meet your…uh...kissing partner, I don’t really know how to call him. I can’t tell you his name because you have to introduce yourselves to each other and then well you just kiss. You can talk a bit first but you shouldn’t tell a lot about yourself otherwise the project isn’t really fulfilling its purpose. Do you understand?”

Rae nodded again. Izzy talked into her walkie to signal that Rae was ready. Thirty seconds later it was time for Rae to walk through the door to meet her kissing partner as Izzy had called it.

She walked through the door taking a deep breath. When she saw the boy she had to kiss her breath was unable to leave her body. OH MY GOD HE IS HOT. SHIT. FUCK. I HAVE TO KISS HIM. HE HAS TO KISS ME. OUR MOUTHS ARE GOING TO TOUCH. OH GOD.  She was having a little internal freak out but tried not to show it. She stood in front of the boy and smiled nervously.

“Hi” he smiled at her.

“Hi” she greeted him. She looked around and noticed the camera. His eyes followed where she was looking and also saw the camera.

“I like your shirt” he tried to break the ice a bit to make Rae feel more at ease.  She looked down at her classic The Stone Roses shirt. She smiled and thanked him.

“I’m Finn by the way”

“Oh right, I’m Rae” she extended her hand to propose a handshake. She then thought it was a bit formal for what they were about to do but she didn’t quite know how else to handle this. He shook her hand but didn’t let go of it.  Rae felt like there was an electric current being transferred from his (hot amazing) body to hers.

“I guess we should kiss now” she said. He just nodded and stepped a little closer to her.  

Suddenly they were looking at each other with hungry eyes and Rae felt like she was on fire. He slowly inched forward looking at her mouth, licking his lips. He ever so lightly brushed her lips, inviting her to come closer and initiate the kiss. She did.

The kissed started off sweet and slow. Finn moved even closer to Rae and she wondered how that was even possible. She opened her mouth a bit and Finn took the liberty to pass his tongue around her lips. She gripped his t-shirt in her right hand, letting her left hand creep up to his hair. Before they knew it they were lost in the kiss that had slowly transformed into a passionate make out. His hands started caressing her voluptuous curves and Rae felt her panties moisten. She moaned softly into his mouth feeling his tongue dance around hers. This made Finn groan in response and grab her by the waist to pull her even closer. It was as if they wanted to swallow each other. As if close wasn’t close enough.  Rae felt how Finn’s body was responding to the kiss. He was defiantly enjoying this kiss as much as she was.

They heard a cough that made them realise that this was going much further than needed for the project. They toned it down a bit but kept on kissing.

When the need for air became too much they broke the kiss off. Finn kissed her shortly a few more times leaving Rae with a tingling feeling in her body.

“Jesus” Rae whispered out of breath making Finn laugh shyly.

“Yeah you could say that” he put his hands in his pocket to try adjust his jeans which he now regrets wearing, “So what now?”

Rae wonders if they can go and part ways after this. This was honestly the best chemistry she has ever felt with someone and  she doesn’t think she will find anyone who makes her feel like this. Finn has managed to make her go crazy with just one kiss, she couldn’t possibly let him go without trying at least right?

“Can I have your number? To maybe meet up and chat, I mean if you’d like to. I don’t know if you’d want to of course I mean this project was just a project but if you would like we could maybe…” she didn’t have time to continue with her non sense rambling because he shut her up by giving her another kiss.

“I would like that yeah” he says when they break apart. He puts a string of her hair behind her ear, “do you have something to write my number on?”

Rae pulls out her phone and hands it to him. He saves his number in her phone. To make sure he got the number right he sends a text to himself.

Unknown: Best fucking kiss of my life.

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Unknown number

Hello, this is a new thing for me. Ive written a fic (one shot) because I was inspired I guess? I dont really know if you are gonna like it but it takes place in a time where texting is a thing so around this time yeah? If you dont like the mention of boobs dont read this (its not smut just boobs? idk im so nervous sorry)

Also, big thanks to @kneekeyta for teaching me how to work this thing out. U are amazing i hope i can write as beautifully as u one day.

Finn stares with difficulty at his phone. It’s 3 am, who is calling him this late? He didn’t get the chance to pick up the phone on time. Well if it’s really important they’ll call back he thought. He decided to turn up the volume of his ringtone, just in case he falls asleep and gets called again. The brightness on his phone was hurting his eyes, so he put the phone away and started taking his clothes off. He’s struggling with this simple task, he shouldn’t have drank those shots of tequila. But he felt he deserved it. It has been 3 months since she left and he is dealing with it fine. Tonight was a celebration, him celebrating not needing her so damn much anymore. He even kissed a cute girl and she gave him her phone number. He might call her. She was pretty, she looked a bit like Rae. But then again, maybe he just wanted her to look like Rae. The truth is he thinks he’s dealing with everything just fine, but he isn’t. Everyone around him knows it, he is just too stubborn to actually admit it to himself. He talks about Rae a lot. He asks about her a lot too. Even though they sometimes talk. Not as much as he’d wish. Shit he thinks here I am thinking about bloody Rae Earl again. A loud PING distracts him temporarily from his train of Rae Earl thoughts. It’s his phone announcing a new text message.

Unknown number: Hi. This is my new number add me so we can chat and keep in touch. I really miss you. A lot. Xxxxxx Dickhead (followed by a lot of heart emojis and the kissey face emoji)

He rereads the text over and over. There is not a single doubt in his mind that this is her. Rae. She’s calling him at 3 am. And texting him. He wonders if she’s a little drunk like he is. So we can chat? He tries to not overthink this, not make this into something it’s not. But when a girl texts someone a message like that, it has to mean something more than just chat right? She…wants to chat? What do all these emojis mean. Why am I overthinking this? Im just going to text her back. Nothing fancy, just a simple hello and thanks for the number. He doesn’t want to make things awkward.

Finn: Helloo mt sweet gorgeous Rae (heart emojis). How are yoi??? Thanks for the number I love chatting wirh you, rember ? I miss you too so much I wish you were here right now (wink emoji) what are ou up to ??????

His drunken mind doesn’t seem to agree with him on that plan of action. He’s making it awkward. Why isn’t he aware of how drunk he is right now? He is so excited about this little text message that his heart is beating faster. He stares at the screen waiting for her response.  He figures he could save her number while waiting, he adds her number to his contacts debating whether to call her  Sexy goddess or Girl but then decides on a simple Rae will do.

5 minutes later he finally gets a response.

Rae: you

Rae: frtp

He doesn’t understand what she’s trying to say.

Rae: I wantt o hear you please can i call you???????

She doesn’t wait to see what his answer will be because she’s already calling him. This time he picks up the phone. He puts it to his ear but is unable to say a word. Typical of him. He hears her breathing, and then she starts giggling.

“Hello Finn?” she is still giggling and its making Finn feel like she’s grabbing his heart and slamming it around his body.

“I love,” he starts, “hearing from you. It nice to hear your voice”.

“I love hearing your voice too,” she giggles, “talk to me please” she stops giggling and Finn feels something change in her tone.

“What do you want me to talk about?” he says trying to sound normal but it comes out slurred and lusty. Hearing her voice was making Finn feel euphoric. God he misses her so much.

“Do you want to know why I called?”

“To give me your new number, right?” He hopes that isn’t the only reason.

“Hmm. Yes. You guessed it right” she giggles again. “You won”

“What?”

“You guessed it right, so you win” she laughs hard this time.

Her laugh is contagious. They both suddenly can’t stop laughing.

“What’s my prize for winning?”. He knows exactly where he wants this to go.

“Um I don’t know. Nothing. You’ve won, that’s the prize.”

“That’s not fair or fun. I want a prize.” He pouts even though she can’t see him.

“Are you pouting?”

“How did you know?”

“I felt it, telepathically-” she laughs again “inmyladybits”

Finn didn’t quite catch that last part.

“You wha?”

“Nothing”

They don’t speak for a minute, falling into a comfortable silence.

“So, what kind of prize do you want?” Rae starts talking again.

Finn shouldn’t say what he wants to say but he says it anyways.

“You”

“Me?”

“Yeah” it comes out like a whisper.

Rae doesn’t speak and Finn feels like he fucked up. Why does he have to be such a screw up? He scared her and now she probably won’t talk to him anymore.

“Rae?” he pleads “are you mad?”

“Shh hold on” he hears her say. She sounds like she’s far away from the phone.

Finn waits for her to focus back on their conversation.

“FUCK” he hears a loud noise like something is falling.

“Rae? Are you okay?”

He hears how her phone is being shuffled around and finally she speaks.

“Check your messages”.

“What? Why?”

“Just do it ugh” she sounds annoyed. He gets annoyed at her annoyance but decides to check his messages. She send him a picture. He swallows thickly, hoping it was something naughty.

It was.

“Jesus Rae” he repositioned himself on the bed.

“Do you like it?”

He couldn’t answer because he was too caught up in staring at the picture.  She was leaning towards the camera generously displaying her rack to him. She was wearing a white lacy bra. Fuck, he could see a bit of her left nipple spilling over the bra. He wishes he could touch her.

“I..like it a lot Rae, I just wish I could see you. Live you know?”

“Yeah. Me too. I need you” she sounds shy.

“I need you too. I can’t stop thinking about you”

“You should come and visit me” Finn swallows. He tries not to be sad, but the mood changed again and he feels like shit.

“I thought..” he didn’t finish his sentence.

“Yeah, I know. But…I regret it”.

Before she left she broke it off with him saying that they couldn’t make it work and that it was better this way. Finn was stupid enough to be convinced by her carefully chosen words. It did sound like they would eventually come back to each other. That them splitting up for a while gave them time to grow and other bullshit he doesn’t really remember well tonight.

“You regret what?”

It was silent. She was too drunk to have this emotional conversation with him and he was too. She started crying and that was enough for Finn to start crying too. So there they were, like two idiots crying on the phone. Drunk as hell. In love as hell.

“Rae, maybe we should talk later yeah?” he felt exhausted all of the sudden.

“Yeah” she sniffs. “I’m sorry”.

“No, no please don’t be. I want to talk tomorrow when I can talk better yeah?”

“Okay”

“Goodnight Rae”

“Goodnight Finn”. She sounded exhausted too.

She hung up. Finn felt frustrated and confused. He also felt hopeful. When they broke up he felt as if she didn’t love him anymore. That she decided to just leave and forget about him. But after this, he’s not quite sure.  He slowly starts drifting off to sleep when he hears another PING from his phone.

Rae: I still love you.

He smiles wide. Me too he thinks, but he doesn’t say it back. They will talk tomorrow. Everything will be alright.

So, that was it. Hope you enjoyed. Also, i made this blog specially for this. If u wanna know why its called like this, its because i wrote this with candles everywhere and beyoncé on speaker.