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Remember, oh most gracious Virgin Mary….. that sometimes I’m an idiot and need your help

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it would be kind of based if our renewable energy woes were just immediately solved by building a functioning fusion reactor. like all this philosophical hand-wringing about the consequences of our overconsumption, about the need to eschew our worldly possessions and live smaller, simpler lives more in tune with our food and our material goods and where they come from. how climate change is a wake up call to shun the vulgar decadence of modernity and embrace a more humble, soulful way of living. and then it's just like no lmao we solved it with a machine. sorry you spend all that time contemplating the human condition but what we actually needed was a new machine. sorry lmao. there's pretty much free energy forever now don't even worry about.

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It’s crazy and fucked up that being yourself is actually the solution.

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It's that time of year again when everyone's gonna celebrate a birthday while conveniently ignoring the birthday boy.

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Merry Christmas everyone!

Last night's mass was presided by our brand new bishop. I loved him. I desperately want an organ for our cathedral.

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My little sister (12) told me yesterday she's not eating breakfast or dinner and she's still fat. She's been having a bad relationship with her body and food for a while but I didn't know how bad it was.

I am worried and I am looking a for a psychologist, I think I'll have to take her without my parents knowing because they play a huge role in her feelings around this.

Please pray for her. And for our parents.

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Would someone praying the rosary help if they committed a mortal sin and aren’t moved towards repenting? Can the rosary fix a hardened heart?

This is a quote from Louis-Marie de Montfort, the Apostle of the Rosary:

[I]f it were true that God only heard the prayers of those in a state of grace, it would follow that people in a state of mortal sin should not pray at all. This is an erroneous teaching that has been condemned by Holy Mother Church, because of course sinners need to pray […] We earnestly beg everyone to [pray]: the just, that they may grow in God's grace; the sinners, that they may rise from their sins.

Staying in relationship with God is important, even if you don't feel particularly repentant yet. Perhaps especially when you don't

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you can't just switch off years of unhealthy behaviors, negative thought patterns, and counterproductive emotions. but u can recognize them and be like 'i'm not engaging. this isn't the end of the world. i'm box breathing. i'm not giving those thoughts attention; i'm acknowledging them and letting them go. i'm going to take a break when i can.' don't be hard on yourself if it doesn't work or you do something that feels like you've set yourself back. that doesn't help, either, lol

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5 years ago, I was in Rehab.

10 years ago, I was watching my Potential and Opportunities dissolve and evaporate in an ocean of cheap gin and expensive whiskey.

But 5 years ago, I was in Rehab.

One of the exercises they had us perform was to imagine ourselves happy, 5 years in the future.

Many of us in that room had forgotten how to imagine nice things happening to them. A few snorted (well, I snorted), finding the notion that we’d even still be around in 5 years grimly humorous.

For about half of us, it was the last stop on the way down.

But I indulged the therapist. I was there, after all, because I did not want to die. So, I imagined myself, 5 years hence.

Happy.

It came to me all at once; an artistic remix on Norman Rockwell’s Freedom From Want, reframed with myself placing food at the table.

Sunday Dinner At My Place, I answered, when it came my turn to share my fantasy. I was asked what food I imagined eating.

It’s not the meal itself, I said, it’s the implications framed around it. Sunday Dinner At My Place means that I have a Place. It means that I have Family that will actually speak to me and friends who actually want to see me. It means money enough not just to feed myself but others too. It means having the time to spare to take the time preparing the meal.

A lot of nodding heads all around me. A struck chord. Many people with no Place, in that place. Nowhere that would lament their leaving.

5 years hence, as I lay down to sleep in my Home, with my Wife and my Son, surrounded by my Art and my Flowers, I reflect.

It was a long road. It was hard. We lost people. So many people. There were long days and long nights and hospital stays. Angry arguments with ghosts. I changed, in ways I never hoped for, or expected. Good ways, finally, for once. Slowly, against the backdrop of a world in chaos, I found my mind.

Sometimes, My Wife wondered aloud, what she did to deserve me. After some stumbling with my feelings, I eventually settled on an answer.

I’m a Rescue.

She gave me a Home.

And, so, I gave her a Family.

It seemed fair

This Sunday, my folks, which whom I have not had a shouting match in years, will come over for dinner. We will cook and eat together. My Friend became My Wife, and she took a piece of me and with it she made Our Son. There will be many hugs, and no violence. Good Things Happened.

I don’t know who needs to hear this, but you don’t know what the future holds.

don’t give up yet, ok?

It could get good, even.

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“Advent is a twofold reminder for us: for one, that God’s presence in the world has already begun, that he, in hidden ways, is already here; and then, that his presence has only just begun and not yet reached completion but still is growing, developing, maturing.”

— Joseph Ratzinger

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Andrew Garfield, in an interview with GQ

It's never-ending. The grief is never-ending. The love is never-ending. Like, Oh. That's the nature of love.

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147 cm - 160 cm

people in the 4’10-5’3 range are the only valid bitches on this planet everyone else is either too short or too tall

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my grandmother had a stroke last night and they told my family in the ER that the type of stroke she had is unsurvivable

she’s hanging on right now and im praying she’ll at least hold on until i can get there on friday to see her one last time

this was not expected, and my family and i would really appreciate your prayers 💙

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I don’t think I believe that anyone is actually annoyed by rickrolls. Anytime I click on a link that I suspect to be one and it is, I’m just like