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Page of Lawrence might do ren next idk >:]

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kinda gory Lawrence fanart:P

THIS SHIT TOOK ME 2 WEEKS AND 17 HOURS IM NOT EVEN JOKING ART BLOCKS BEEN NO JOKE MAN

if you repost my art please credit me or ill kms and blame you

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Homesick

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he wants you back

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little Lawrence for my inactivity

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EW BUG

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A little headcanon:

Fox uses traditional Asian household items in his home, and not always for their intended purpose. «You're dead. Fox stabs you in the liver with a puerh knife.»

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tips for writing Lawrence? I really admire your writing.

IUKJ,MSEDNGBLKJGLESJLSDERG FIRSTLY THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU I'M LITERALLY SO STRUCK??? MY WRITING???? ADMIRABLE???? I FEEL LIKE MY TEETH ARE GONNA FALL OUT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

*fixes suit and tie* anyway

reminder that i am not gato and these are all my interpretations. the best part about fandom communities is that each mind thinks so alike yet independently, and the way you write a character won't be exactly the way another person does and that's your own personal magic touch.

Just like Ren, Lawrence has certain rules I like to stay attached to. The problem with HIM though is he's such a wild card it's hard to know when these rules apply.

Rule one is to remember Lawrence is isolated. He's used to being on his own and doing things on his own so he doesn't expect or even reach out for help. The idea of another human being kind or helpful for no reason is foreign, if not unrealistic to him.

Rule two is to remember that Lawrence has a very, very specific routine he lives by every week, rarely with interruptions. He's a homebody. He likes things his way and can't have them any other way. It's irritating and gives him a very strange sense of urgency when they're not. This is dangerous because that urgency can very quickly become aggression, as can a lot of things.

Rule three is to remember Lawrence is human. He's pretentious as fuck and speaks so poetically of death, wants to die so very badly, has done incredibly terrible things to people in the name of art, mentally separates himself from the public, believes he's better off locked up somewhere, yet reacts as any other person does to very many things. He says he wants to die, yet cries when his life is threatened or he's scared. He's certain he hates people and people hate him, yet yearns for the company of others who understand him and partakes in communities, even if just online. He says he's better off inside, yet left his house to meet a friend 2 weeks into talking online. He's a 'terrible person,' yet only takes MC home because he didn't want to leave them out there all alone. He's more human than he realizes.

Rule four is to remember he's proficient in gaslighting. Lawrence doesn't think the way other people do! Everything and anything can have meaning, and it's usually what he wants to see. He can make up anything on the fly if it protects him from guilt, fault, sorrow, anxiety, whatever it is he needs to be shielded from. He's quite the brat, so challenging him on any of his interpretations makes him irrationally bothered and he may not even speak to you anymore afterwards. He also uses this mental-protection to keep his world view in order, like in the situation in BTD2 when Ren leaves and he takes it out on you. It was REN who insisted you hangout a while, it was REN who left on a whim- but to Lawrence, you being there at all was the problem and it's all your fault.

Rule five is to keep the image of creepy in mind! Lawrence embodies the type of person you wouldn't want to be caught alone in an elevator with. He just radiates 'bad person' vibes, and his smell and quietness of his voice doesn't help.

And finally, rule six is to remember that Lawrence is a wild card. How he behaves depends on pretty much every single individual circumstance in whatever situation he's in. If he's uncomfortable he could be irritable, if the room has more than 2 other people in it he could be feeling intimidated, if he's meeting with a friend online he could be hesitant and scared, if something scary happens big or small it could launch him into a panic, anxiety, or aggressive attack, if someone's talking and their mouth sounds too wet it could make him hurt himself, if he's bored but nothing seems entertaining enough it could force him to dissociate, he could like this taste or feeling one day and absolutely hate it the next, his opinions on specific people change like the static on TV...

I like to think of Lawrence like an alligator, as they're opportunistic feeders and usually don't attack without provocation. Problem is with Law, you don't really know how you provoked him half the time. He's such an interesting, confusing character that I'm not even sure how to write it down in a way that makes sense. It all really depends on how YOU want to write him.

AGAIN, I'm not sure I helped??? this one is. a lot worse than rens imo. BUT I DID MY BEST AND AGAIN THANK U SM FOR LIKING MY WRITING HEEHEEHEHUEHENRKJDFGNDFLKJGGF

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testing out something (´ω｀)

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I saw someone said that Lawrence and Ben from twd game are alike

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- Go on, hug him..

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for you ren hana likers

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DARLING !!

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oh that fucked up evil necrophiliac from btd2

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i am not so good at drawing him yet..

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Stained with blood, and always will be.

character belongs to @gatobob

Version with a ponytail cause it's cute:

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oh, yes. people indeed mischaracterize Lawrence

it surprises me, genuinely, how people perceive Lawrence as gentle and kind when it's completely the opposite, in my opinion. i think he forced himself to stay in a calm demeanor, holding back pretty much everything. he does not even try to control himself but it's very, very careful with his words... very thoughtful, trying to be as understandable as possible, but he often cannot reach this and well, ends up with a corpse for him in his apartment with the bitter sense of being misunderstood over and over. i love your answers and your account btw!

i think he can be gentle and kind... he has the capacity to, but he can be cruel and calloused just as easily. it definitley takes a lot of self-restraint... he tries so hard to give people the benefit of the doubt, but every time, over and over, they dissapoint. its because they fear him. hes tall, towers over people. his hair shades his face and his expressions are subtle, if any at all. hes clumsy in social situations... so its a recipe for disaster. he just cant seem to fit in with the rest of the world... and every time he tries it bites back.

maybe one day someone catches his eye. hes in a good mood, shakes the anxiety out of his hands and makes the first move. introduces himself, asks if theyd like to go on a date. they turn him down. later on, he tries again. maybe finds a way to shoot them a text. hes sure itll be easier since its not in person. hes left on read. its mentioned he gives people roadkill, bones, things of the sort... obviously that scares them away. the shame and sour taste of yet another failure just digs the hole deeper.

the self restraint isnt enough, he always has to finish the job. he cant live with his mistakes. hes scared. part of it is being caught, im sure of it, but maybe hes scared of himself. what hes capable of. to the point where he mentally disconnects his arms from himself. the shame eats him whole.

he doesnt think he can be a kind person. im sure he tries. little things.. but it doesnt wash the stain away. at the end of the day good and bad are arbitrary... i think hes a good person but he doesnt make good choices.

his patience and understanding, the shame after its over with, im sure he tries to connect. he craves it, but the rejection and his own mistakes turn that yearning into anger and fear, and he lashes out and hides away from the world.

all of that hiding and repressing wears you down over time. he hates himself for being how he is, and he hates others for being so judgemental. hes not judgemental. he gives so much grace... and the world cant give any in return.

hes a complex character and i see a lot of myself in him. and thankyou, im glad you like it :) i like responding, and you ask some good questions. i liked talking abt this