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when i think of the ocean, i think of you. // september 26th

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I got played.

In the second week of September, I applied for the Social Media Specialist position at LEAP BPO, a job I found through Indeed that perfectly matched my skills and experience. Days after submitting my application, I received a call, went through the interview process, and was hired just three days later. Since I wasn’t based in Cebu, I requested a few days to prepare for my relocation.

Unfortunately, due to severe weather and canceled trips, I arrived in Cebu a week later than expected. Thankfully, the company was understanding of my situation. They sent me the digital contract, which I promptly signed. But just as I was about to head to the office on my first day, HR informed me—at the very last minute—that I was being relocated to a different office. I was taken aback. This wasn’t mentioned in the contract, and it left me feeling uneasy, but I decided to go anyway, struggling to navigate the unfamiliar address.

I finally arrived at the office an hour late, only to be left waiting in the lobby for three more hours. Eventually, a member of the hiring staff appeared with the company-issued laptop for my work. I immediately expressed my concerns about the sudden relocation, which hadn’t been disclosed in my contract, and felt as though I was being taken advantage of—or worse, deceived.

After a long discussion with the hiring staff, we managed to resolve the issue. They apologized for the oversight, and I was assured everything was settled. Relieved, I went through the briefing for my first day and headed home after my shift.

The very next morning, as I was getting ready for my second day, I received an email from HR informing me that the company had decided to retract my contract. I was stunned and furious. After uprooting my life to move to Cebu, I was being dismissed after just one day. The humiliation of having to explain this to my family and friends was overwhelming. They claimed the retraction was due to "work exigencies," and as compensation, they offered me one week's worth of salary—if I signed their retraction document.

I was beyond fed up. How could a supposedly "big" company hire someone, only to let them go the next day? It was not just a professional setback—it felt like I had been deceived, manipulated, and discarded without a second thought.

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- September 22, 1917

- The diaries of Franz Kafka, 1914-1923

[ID: September 22. Nothing. End ID]

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oh my god ill be moving to cebu for a job opportunity and i am overwhelmed and i feel like i wanna vomit

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i can't believe im still longing for the same person for 10 years

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being an aspiring artist living in the philippines is so difficult and unsure if your talent could survive and feed you. i hate how this country discourages kids from being artsy because the nation needs another police officer

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Every person, every memory, is a piece of a larger mosaic, each one adding depth and color to the portrait of my life. I carry these people with me, not as ghosts of the past, but as integral parts of my being. Their love, their lessons, their presence have shaped my thoughts, my actions, my very essence.

As I sat and looked around this place, I realized that being a museum of everyone I’ve loved is both a blessing and a burden. It means carrying the weight of lost connections, of relationships that have faded or fractured. But it also means holding onto the beauty of those experiences, the growth they’ve inspired, the love that has transcended time and distance.

In my twenties, I’m still discovering who I am, still forging new connections and building new memories. But I do so with the knowledge that I am a composite of every person who has touched my heart. They are the brushstrokes on the canvas of my life, each one adding richness and texture to the story I’m writing.

So, as I sit here, in this museum of my making, I embrace the past and look forward to the future. I honor the love I’ve received and the love I’ve given. And I carry with me the hope that the best parts of these relationships will continue to guide and inspire me as I navigate life's winding paths.

-Cael, "A Museum of Everyone I've Loved" September 5th.

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friends and family kept saying i looked different, turns out i gained 23 lbs in just 3 months

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life lately / still figuring out what to do now

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i just graduated college last month and idk what to do like should i start learning how to play the guitar or go on job hunting instead??

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i wish i hated u

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