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Yes hello my name is Brie and I have to go to the dentist and I am stressing the fuck because I've got to do it alone and won't have anyone to squeeze and like I'm an adult but not this adult

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don’t get me wrong here

my want to be an actor stems not from me wanting to be famous

but mainly wanting to kiss all kindsa cute people ;3

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so I’m rewatching The L Word

I just finished season 1 and something that kinda confused me but like....I’m not...hmm

anyways. 

My thoughts were: if Ivan GAVE Kit a key to their apartment.....why were they so upset when Kit walked in? Like, no, I get that you probably weren’t emotionally or mentally prepared for your kinda/somewhat/notsoreally/wanthertobeyour girlfriend person to walk in and see you so vulnerable and so not in your own mask/skin, like that is stressful A F.....but like....you gave her a key???? you told her to stop by whenever??? like I’m not saying Ivan doesn’t have a right to be upset like....that is super a lot to deal with but....you gave her...a key??????

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Cole Sprouse; b&w n color

●like or reblog if u save ●don’t repost

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HEY LOOK I’M BACK

but maybe not for long idek

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Ok but can we get like real stained glass of the sides mmk yes awesome

misunderstood the request, please forgive me

took the idea of the dream castle a bit to far

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Reading is fundamental

Don't get excited drag fans, I mean for real reading.

So, context: I'm doing a reading....thing... challenge...whatever, with a co-worker who has a (relatively popular) booktube channel. Basically we're going to read the same book every month for a year and make a video on it. January was Dumplin' by Julie Murphy (meh) and because she's also joining another booktuber friend of hers in a p.o.c. only author challenge for a year (3 months on my coworker's end) February was 2 books. Dear Martin by Nic Stone and The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas.

Y'all I'm shook. I was told I needed to read The Hate U Give months ago and it s been on my list for a hot minute I just haven t read it. But GOTDAMN THESE FUCKING BOOKS. 

Y’ALL!!!

Quick backstory: I was raised by a poor white lower class single mother. I wasn’t even exposed to a person of color until I was....12 years old(?) She worked two jobs most of my life and with the help of my Godparents, was able to send me to a Catholic school that was educationally phenomenal but extremely white. I remember there wasn’t a SINGLE person of color at that school except for a girl my age who left after fourth grade who was I think like...full half Cherokee. Then a boy who was a few years ahead of me, who went only for my fifth grade year, then left. THAT’S IT! Faculty, Staff, Students, everyone was white. It wasn’t until I was in seventh grade when I switched schools did I meet a single person who was not white. Then Katrina and that BS blah blah sob story blah blah. 

I had no clue of the true prejudice there was in the world when I was young and these books, no Starr and Justyce brought me to true realization. I believed the whole there’s a difference between a “black person” and an n-word. I used the word in anger behind my mother’s back thinking it was just like saying shit or damn. As I grew I learned, I became an ally, I understood the prejudice and the difficulties and the straight up SHIT in the world but...I still didn’t truly understand. Not until Justyce, not until Starr. I’m not saying (insert Valley Girl accent) “Oh my God I’m SO WOKE right now like I get it like I really get it Ohmygaaaawd”. No that’s stupid, I’m a white woman who WON’T ever understand the true battles it is to be a person of color. But maybe now I understand enough now to be a better Ally, to be a better friend. 

I have a friend, let’s call her Sunny, who when I told her I had read this book, then told me, “How Starr feels, that’s me, every day.” I was flabbergasted! I couldn’t believe it, I had no words. No way to truly explain in depth what I felt BECAUSE she felt that way. I was angry and pissed to say the least. That she feels torn like that.That she feels that she has to be two different people with everyone around her. That she has to be a certain way or be put in a stereotype. Don’t be the angry black woman. Don’t do this, or say that, or act this way, or talk that way. Don’t bring attention. Don’t give the officer a reason to shoot you. Keep your hands visible. Don’t...Don’t....don’t.

These books were eye-opening, moving, and gut-wrenching. They were sad and inspirational. You will cry, and laugh, and be mad. But the one thing that stuck out with me. Is you will feel. 

10/10 Read these books.

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You are suddenly transported to a fantasy world! One item in your vicinity is transported with you and transforms into a fantasy-style weapon (or shield). Design your weapon.

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THAT MOMENT WHEN

So I work over night and a lot of the times I'll be in a part of the building by myself.

So I sing....

Well I wasn't paying attention tonight and CUTE CO WORKER TOTALLY JUST SAT THERE AND LISTENED TO ME SING MOANA BECAUSE SURE. And then when I finished he started clapping. I fuh-roze. Um...th-thanks....

Someone fuckin shoot me

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O.O.....

N O!!!!

I THOUGHT IT WAS COMPLETED!!!

FFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

Judge me IDC

I’m on the 13th of 16 books in the Dresden Files Series. (Meaning I can knock out the rest in about 2 weeks give or take)

And though I’m upset about the series being over, I’m very very excited to finish it so I can then go read AO3.

Cause actual HarryxKarrin stories….oh yes, gimme.