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I need someone to talk about ley soul so bad 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

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Enjoying the pool with Isaac ft. my version of his listener, Vivienne!

I might edit this more and if I do I’ll post it but I’m impatient and wanna post this now, oops

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𝐌𝐨𝐨𝐧 𝐑𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫 ꨄ Isaac

˜”* ❝𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙄 𝙨𝙚𝙚, 𝙬𝙝𝙤 𝙄 𝙗𝙚𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙚.❞

⎯⎯ ୨ ୧ ⎯⎯

ꜱʏɴᴏᴘꜱɪꜱ: ɪꜱᴀᴀᴄ ᴡʀɪᴛᴇꜱ ᴀ ʟᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ ꜰᴏʀ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ. (ɴᴏ ʟɪꜱᴛᴇɴᴇʀ/ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ)

⎯୨⎯ " " ⎯୧⎯

13 December 2025

I haven’t forgotten you, mother. I know I haven’t spoken to you in a while. I’ve tried, but every time I step outside without them, I go back to that day. They make me feel safe, mother. I know you’ve always wanted that for me, to find someone to love. They’re the reason I know now that I should still talk to you because maybe you’re listening. They told me if I couldn’t bring myself to speak to you, I should write instead. 

It’s my birthday. I remember when you used to hug me and cry because I was growing up so fast. Now I’m an adult, and I have been for so long. I wonder how much you would’ve cried today. Maybe one day, I’ll have kids of my own and I’ll cry on their birthday, just like you. 

I miss you every day. Sometimes I still think you’ll knock on the door and come home with father holding your hand and grandfather behind him. 

Often, when I talk about you, they tell me you would be proud of me. I wonder if that’s true, I hope it is. It’s difficult, writing this. I feel like a child all over again, staying up past curfew to keep my pen on the paper. 

I know you don’t want me to cry on my birthday, that’s your thing afterall. I know you want me to celebrate but I don’t want to if you can’t be here. Maybe when I see you again, whenever that is, we can finally celebrate. 

There’s so much more to tell you, and I will, soon. I promise. 

Waiting for you, 

Your little sapling 

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um i dont know why i chose to break my own heart today but !!

also I understand this would be more accurate in japanese but i don't know a lick of jp and i refuse to put trust in google translate

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HO DID YOU JUST TWIST THE KNIFE!?

𝐌𝐨𝐨𝐧 𝐑𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫 ꨄ Isaac

˜”* ❝𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙄 𝙨𝙚𝙚, 𝙬𝙝𝙤 𝙄 𝙗𝙚𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙚.❞

⎯⎯ ୨ ୧ ⎯⎯

ꜱʏɴᴏᴘꜱɪꜱ: ɪꜱᴀᴀᴄ ᴡʀɪᴛᴇꜱ ᴀ ʟᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ ꜰᴏʀ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ. (ɴᴏ ʟɪꜱᴛᴇɴᴇʀ/ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ)

⎯୨⎯ " " ⎯୧⎯

13 December 2025

I haven’t forgotten you, mother. I know I haven’t spoken to you in a while. I’ve tried, but every time I step outside without them, I go back to that day. They make me feel safe, mother. I know you’ve always wanted that for me, to find someone to love. They’re the reason I know now that I should still talk to you because maybe you’re listening. They told me if I couldn’t bring myself to speak to you, I should write instead. 

It’s my birthday. I remember when you used to hug me and cry because I was growing up so fast. Now I’m an adult, and I have been for so long. I wonder how much you would’ve cried today. Maybe one day, I’ll have kids of my own and I’ll cry on their birthday, just like you. 

I miss you every day. Sometimes I still think you’ll knock on the door and come home with father holding your hand and grandfather behind him. 

Often, when I talk about you, they tell me you would be proud of me. I wonder if that’s true, I hope it is. It’s difficult, writing this. I feel like a child all over again, staying up past curfew to keep my pen on the paper. 

I know you don’t want me to cry on my birthday, that’s your thing afterall. I know you want me to celebrate but I don’t want to if you can’t be here. Maybe when I see you again, whenever that is, we can finally celebrate. 

There’s so much more to tell you, and I will, soon. I promise. 

Waiting for you, 

Your little sapling 

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um i dont know why i chose to break my own heart today but !!

also I understand this would be more accurate in japanese but i don't know a lick of jp and i refuse to put trust in google translate

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fanfic writers will go "anyone gonna explore the kinda fucked up or emotionally impactful implications of this minor canon detail?" and then not wait for an answer.

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my elias fic turned out to be longer than i expected 🤧 i try to keep each post under 1.5k words so i'm gonna have to add 1 more part.

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Hi, hello im Bochen/ZielonyBochen !! And i wanted to introduce myself. Im a small Polish artist, I mainly use she/her but any other pronous are okay too. I love (almost) anything art related ( except ai „art” , fuck ai). I love audiobooks, audio dramas/RP, making ocs, analog horror, psychology and visual novels. Also, i never posted anything before so its my first time showing my art on the internet (and my skills with alot of platforms are like skills of a grandma trying to logg in on facebook ;-; I just thought i should say it upfront ).

Ngl the thing i will mostly post about is definetly Zsakuverse ( i started listening to Redacted audios to tho). I just adore the hard work that is put into the characters/episodes , its so well writen AGGGHHH. Saku does such an amazing job, that i just have to put at least a small brick to the fandom ( took me long enough to get my shit together and post smth but im finally here). Also i am aware that Saku took a break cause of loss of Kimahri, i absolutely respect that and hope he sees this post in his own time.

I want to make as much art work related to audio RP, as posible, but there will be some of the art definetly not related ( Ocs, other fandoms, just drawings i did).

Anyway, the drawings present Andrew and my darling oc Ambroży. I know Prof. Marstons series ended some time ago but pleaseeee hear me out!!! His characer is like, my biggest hyperfixation and i love, love, love him!!! Also i have some plans on more comics about them in the future (maybe something like a series of comics, but there's like 79% chance that i won't make it. However i'll definitely do some small comics!).

Back to the drawings, the character sheet, I LOVVEE THAT. The comic is okay (also if the language in the comic is a bit off , im so sorry. I will work on it) , but the drawing with them sitting at the table.. i only posted that, so i can look back on it and HOPEFULLY see progress later on. Tbh its kinda funny that you can see where i give up a little in those drawings shshsh.

This introduction is already dragging on, so thank you for reading all of that ( if you did) and i hope you will like my art!!!

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someone needs to cut his hair

(1st one)

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ꨄ sakuverse tweets ! pt. 7 :

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wheeeeewwww gradient (also hai it's been a minute :p)

thank @hearts4mxlay for this yall

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HEAR YE HEAR YE

i caved in here's a masterlist, english isn't my native and i didn't use a grammar checker so bear the mistakes (ᵕ—ᴗ—)

andrew x darling

andrew seeing darling with children nickname problems

andrew x june (oc)

-> "the color of my desire is red" a series capturing snippets of their early tension, with themes of finding home and translating love across language barriers, generously intertwined with arabic poetry and egyptian culture. 1. prologue: resemblance 2. untouchable figure 3. crawling back to you

elias x june (oc)

fast and furious au; hold still!!, part 1 | part 2

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GOT MY LONELY AHH SMILING😭😭😭

andrew seeing darling with children! ˚✩‧

andrew marston x darling tags: they are married your honor, domestic bliss, short fic, i love him a normal amount, fem listener.

the first time he saw darling with children was when she was sat all sprawled up on the pavement right outside their flat, surrounded by kids around the ages of 6 to 10. their dirtied bikes left laying on the side of the road, while they paid close attention to whatever darling was doing.

as he approached closer, a cry of meows was heard. even when he was standing close enough to shadow those kids, they didn't bother to look behind.

a messy redhead asked with concern, "...will it walk again?"

before darling could reply, another girl chimed in with a scold, "i told you to not go too fast!" she visibly fumed, "kitty's hurt cause of you!"

a familiar neighborhood cat was cradled in darling's arms, writhing and distressed, too weak to escape her touch like the it normally would. a gush of blood came from its front left leg, staining its white fur red.

"kitty just needs a little bandage work, it's fine dear," darling's eyes flickered from the boy to andrew, and mouthed "they asked for my help".

his eyebrows lifted slightly in surprise before walking up the stairs pass by the hurdle of kids, "I'll get the emergency kit." the door left ajar behind him as he rummaged the cupboards, coming back with a white box.

darling took the white box from his hands, unpacking some gauze, tweezers and small tubes of antiseptic. she held down the cat gently, preventing it from moving too much. as she begin cleaning up it's wound, the children's faces scrunched in second-hand pain as the cat winced and flailed it's limbs around.

andrew felt something tugging at his heartstrings when darling tended the cat's leg while simultaneously easing all the children's fusses with her silly endearing humor. that was when he noticed her damp hair and mismatched shoes; she had rushed out to help.

the situation did a number of damage to his already softened heart. a strange bubbly feeling rose up to his chest and andrew couldn't take his eyes off the scene. his brain marched towards undiscovered territories, almost chanting: darling, child, darling, child, dar-

the turmoil inside was only translated into his silence and constant fidgeting. sure, they are married. yes they've had talks about having children and whatnot even before their marriage. but witnessing it in front of him is a lot different.

"see? kitty's alright," darling gently placed the cat back on the ground, watching it limp towards her ankle and offer a few grateful licks.

the redhead's face regained color after having them all washed out for a couple of minutes, either from guilt or fear. "you have to apologize to kitty," a jersey-wearing boy pointed. he squatted and nervously extended his arm to pet the cat, raking his chubby fingers along the soft fur.

"sorry kitty..." darling couldn't help but chuckle at the kitty's protest as he disheveled its fur, the redhead looked even more beat at the rejection. "or you can give kitty snacks as a sorry."

the children' gloomy faces lit up. "ooh! ooh! we have a koi fish at home-" one of them said before receiving a smack on his back.

"we can just buy cat food from the store nearby!" someone said, already rushing towards her bike. the shrieks of rubber agaisnt asphalt ringed in andrew's ears, as the group of kids followed her lead, hurriedly lifting their bikes up while exclaiming clumsy thank yous to darling.

"your welcome," darling exhaled lightly as she brushed the dust off her sweatpants before climbing up the stairs, facing andrew.

darling chuckled at his stilled figure, "that's some change of scenery." she ushered andrew inside, not forgetting to give him a little peck on the corner of his twitching mouth. "yeah, it's been too quiet lately..." he trailed off, still feeling soft and fuzzy from what he just saw, or more exactly, experienced.

andrew's gaze trailed behind darling as she rambled about work and her annoying boss. that is before his mouth acted faster than his head, "you're good with children."

darling stopped at her tracks and andrew felt like getting caught red-handed. there was a glint of amusement in her eyes, he recognized them, it's the kind of look she has a second before a tease comes out of her mouth. "well, i can proudly say children find it easy to approach me!" she inched closer towards andrew, leaning into him, "or were you implying something else?"

for the first time in a while, darling managed to turn andrew into a flustered mess instead of the other way around. the tips of his ears felt hot, "n-no i mean, yes- but we don't need to rush-" a blabber of words spewed out in attempt to recover from his slip up.

he curled up his fist and took a deep breath, "i meant to say, you're good at dealing with children and..." the beat of his heart raced abnormally fast, "it was hard not to imagine having a child of our own."

there was a heavy silence that left andrew sweating, holding onto her hands for an answer (a positive one, he hopes). a few blinks later, darling's eyes creased like crescent moons and she cooed, "awww, you could've said so."

like the attentive partner she is, she ended the conversation right there when she realized andrew just arrived home. looking at him up and down, his slightly crooked tie and disheveled hair a silent confession of a busy shift at work. darling immediately made him shuffle towards the shower and sat him down for an earl grey afterwards.

admist all of this, andrew was still holding on to darling's innocent remark, "children find it easy to approach me." what she thought was just matter-of-fact commentary, is like a rare gem that he will keep in the treasure chest of his heart.

maybe he will bring up plans of having children more seriously next time. but for now, he will huddle in the corner of his office and stick his nose onto his secret collection of parenting books.

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Imagine:

Darling turns around during their hike in the Caribbeans to show Andrew a cool rock only to see him 10 feet back gasping for air.

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Realizing that Warden is watching Elias fall in love with barista just like he did with his wife.

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You remember how Elias and Jonah are friends?

Jonah is getting the life that Elias will never have.

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We love you, baby. 🖤

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Rest in peace, sweet kimahri you're never gonna suffer again💗

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I just wanted to make a quick post to say rest in peace Kimahri, you were the cutest and bestest friend that I’m sure anyone could have asked for from a kitty as charming and cheeky as you. You will continue to live on in the hearts of every crumpet and we wish you a save journey to the afterlife or wherever you may rest now, and every crumpet wishes for Saku to take time with everything as much as you need to in due understanding.