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Trial run 🏃‍♀️

Notes for next time:

Better B angle

Simple background

Sitting down

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Figuring out my insta aesthetic is tricky 😑

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J3

My grandma is in the hospital right now. My mom told me she got an email from my grandpa about it and she let me know while I was working out. It’s a kidney infection and they need to keep her for a few days.

My mom was kinda mad about it. She came down to tell me and then complained about how inconsiderate my grandparents are in a strange tone

“they’re so weird”

“she always keeps her health a secret”

“why couldn't he just call like a normal person”

It makes me sad that my parents have so little patience for my grandparents.

Everyone goes through things in their life that makes them who they are, and I am one of the lucky ones who have the privilege to look back on the mistake of my family and make changes. From what I’ve heard my grandparents weren't great to my dad, and he’s led a hardworking life and he carries that anger or negativity with him, whether we’re eating too loud or the news anchor annoys him, it’s something we’re aware of it.

He isn't sympathetic towards his parents, he just complains about things he can change within himself or pertaining to my grandma and grandpa but doesn't take action. When we talk about it he doesn’t listen.

I love my dad, my parent would probably rank in the top 100 in Canada, like holy shit my parents are the best. Like any good parents, I’ve learned a lot from them, including what not to do.

It sounds cheesy as heck but I want to be a positive force on the world. I have a long way to go but being able to bring happiness to yourself and others is such an amazing skill.

Just some thoughts this evening.

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The artist we want: @bigbigavocado on insta

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🐙Weekly Goals🐙

To be completed by January 19th

•Write 5 articles ✔️

• Finish buttee’s present ✔️

• Finish mom’s 2nd painting ✖️

• Write a Song ✖️

• Fill all three rings 3 times ✔️

• Get another vlog up and add music to existing blog ✔️

reward: a bottle o wine and a day off to do whatever

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Room and board 🎨

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🦉melatonin🦇

https://www.instagram.com/catalinagena/

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J2

I almost missed my train this morning.

I mixed up 6:55 with 6:22, but luckily I noticed it in enough time to rush over and make the train. I was so nervous that I had wasted $170 on tickets, and without a station attendant to take pity on me and give me a free switch like last time lol.

“There is nothing like returning to a place that remains unchanged, only to find the ways in which you yourself have altered.”

Traveling makes me miss you. like I can forget that I'm not with you when I'm just chilling at my parents’ but being back in Toronto and especially being on a train again. I was hurriedly grabbing your guitar from the back seat of my mum’s car and this realization hit me like bricks bb.

So now I'm listening to mawninyawnin trying to keep my heart swells discreet. Inflammation is essential to keep infection out of the body, so it’s probably good for me, stretching out my ducts ya know?

There is a subtle difference between being nervous and anxious. Yesterday I was definitely anxious about performing today, but before I went to bed I was feeling an excited nervousness. It’s going to be really nice to perform again, and I hope it goes well.

It’s important to get out of my comfort zone and exercise my brain, acclimate myself to doing these kinds of challenges again. I’m happy that I have a bunch of other stuff planned too, looking at the big picture of the trip makes me feel accomplished and if I can pump out an article or two in my downtime I'm a happy camper.

I watched the Joe Rogan motivational video that Buddy sent me, While I was watching I thought of a few quotes for the insta:

You are not a collection of failures, you are a collection of experience

Live on the momentum of your expectations

Learn, grow, survive

The person who examines themselves the closest gets the best results

Don't seek comfort, seek struggle, seek lessons, seek accomplishments (seek fulfillment)

The past few days I’ve felt really accomplished. I can see a real difference in my strength, and it’s too bad I’ll be away from my workout routine in TO but it’s definitely worth it. Also how I've gotten back into writing. In Mexico, I would write articles in a day but it would take forever, It still takes me around 4 hrs, but my focus and consistency are improving.

I think it's fun to write some articles with Oliver, I don't think we’d talk or anything but I like having a work partner. Plus we can share writing tips...more like I would ask him for his writing tips haha.

This playlist is really good. I miss going dancing.

The sun is rising now I should probably start editing again. Necesito un café 😪

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Nutrission is my misstion 🥑

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lil singa ding

cover art by Catalina Cartagena