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About Blogger, tiny intro

Small tiny things can be so enormous. I know from my extreme weird obsession with tiny things.

Although I don't own much of the small stuff.

I don't know if this started when i was young, growing up with a total of eight siblings we didn't have much. 

Yes we were poor. Growing up in southern California wasn't easy. 

Didn't have much stuff, or friends. I was a little introvert.

When I was in my tween years a school project that we had to do every week was we had to get a newspaper and write a summary of a story that we read. 

I guess that's where I became interested in articles. 

So in my teen years i wanted to become a writer or a journalist where i could write stories and articles, but hanging out with the wrong crowd stopped me from following my dreams. 

I knew I was a little special, what I mean by that is I had some mental issues when I battled it at a young age, but wasn't able to get help because of my religious beliefs. 

I started therapy a little bit after I became an adult, my father died of a sudden heart attack. Shortly when I noticed it was time to end my life.

I didn't know what was going on. I just came out of a rocky relationship, I felt like everything was over. 

I started working after everything that happened. My first two jobs didn't go well. I was seeing shadows, hallucinating and my depression was at an all time high. I started drinking and what you may call partying.

Shortly my mother started to get sick so i was given the option of quitting or being let go. Due to my performance at work not being so good. I was sleeping on the hospital floor in the room while watching over my mother.

It turns out seeking help at the age of 25, changed my life. I was diagnosed with major depression, schizophrenia and other mental brain disorders. 

Yes i was put on medication and after seven years off and on all kinds of different medications I found the right ones. Just in case you're wondering, I'm going strong and currently on my medication.

During that time I stayed home and took care of my mother. We were living together and now that i think about it, i think the way we both dealt with our depression was by buying stuff. 

We would buy random stuff at thrift stores, sometimes it was broken stuff even. 

My fascination at that time was VHS movies. I had that I remember counting a collection total of 2083 tapes. A few of them were the same tape, but know more than 3 copies for some. 

There was something about the quality of the film that I loved. I still do tell this day. 

When we moved from the house I grew up in to a city thirty minutes away, we still would go buy random stuff. 

I remember watching a show on the travel channel one night when i had to stay up to watch my mother as she wasn't doing so good that night. I believe I thought she was going to pass. I woke up to check on her, she was there unconscious. I don't remember exactly what had made her that way. 

The show was about an older couple who built a tiny home and they lived in it when the 2008 housing market went down hill, and the economy was at an all time low. 

The show talked about how they had to build a new home on an old trailer bed because when they were relocating to another state. They had hit a storm in the southern part of America and the mile high winds knocked over their building and shortly was struck by a tornado.

I remember being shocked and wanting to build one for myself, I thought to myself that it would be nice to own and take your own home with you wherever you go. 

So from that day on I became a tiny house dreamer. I know that one day I will have my tiny home. 

I knew that was the start of my obsession. 

Growing in the late 90’s early 2000’s, I appreciated all the small things that life gave me. 

Being a Christian in a church that didn't allow lots of stuff. My parents became stricter than what they already were. The things I had were not big, but I loved them.

In the late 2000’s and early 2010’s, which in my opinion had the best music, movies, technology and was the best era ever. 

That being said, as the tech got stronger you were more hip with the smaller devices. For example nowadays if you have the biggest cellphone, computer or tablet, you get some kind of cred.

I guess that's another reason why I like tiny stuff.

In early 2017 my mother was in hospice at my sisters house weeks before I was told by the hospital and the dialysis company to think about putting her there, she wasn't doing so well. 

I called my sisters and brothers to have a family meeting, where we came to an agreement where she would be placed in a home. Shortly we realized her roommate wasn't in the right place of mind so my sister took her home to rest at her place.

During the day i would sleep while my family would take care of her, during this time I would stay up all night watching her as they rested. 

I remember the night she passed like if it was yesterday. Everyone was home and my sister was in bed, around 5:13 am she started making noises. I thought she was thirsty so I got a straw and gave her literally a drop of water. She moved her head back and side to side. 

I kissed her forehead and told her I loved her as I combed her hair with my palm.

I sat down and got my phone and less than five minutes from when I checked on her, my sister walked in and said good morning. She noticed that my mother had no reaction. 

That's when we noticed that she passed.

A year later after seeking therapy again, I was recommended to a behavioral health outpatient program where I made friends and found the help I needed.

I didn't graduate High school til the Age of 32. 

I read a lot of articles in my time and I honestly still do. Whether its a long one like this one i'm writing, or if it's a short one ( that I’m hoping to write for this blog ) my goal is to be successful and follow my dream. 

I have been thinking of writing a blog for years now, but the one thing that reall pushed me was last week I heard from my friend after two months. 

We use to video chat every other day and text everyday. 

I thought she got back with her ex which i think is stupid because we known each other for eight years and he forbid us from talking knowing that we both don’t have feeling for each other. We are like brother and sister.

When i talked to her on Sunday she made me realize that life is short and it's never too late to follow your dreams. 

She was out in a ICU in Minnesota, she was in a coma for three days and had to learn how to keep her body balanced and kinda learn how to take steps again. She's able to walk, but slowly and with a walker. 

She almost died because of Covid-19.

When we talked she asked me what am doing with my life. I didn't know what to say at that point. She told me you should start following your dreams, if you don't chase them then you might never catch them. 

When she told me this, it reminded me of two things I read. Quotes.

“Only put off tomorrow, what you are willing to die is left undone.” -Pablo Picasso

“Never be afraid to follow your dreams at any age, life is too short to wait.” -Unknown

Since 2020 was a bad year, I figured this was going to be my year. I figured like the quote above says, follow your dreams at any age. 

So that being said, let me tell you what this page is going to be about…

So my plan for this blog is to write small articles about everything tiny. Hopefully under 500 words. If i go over i apologize now. There will be content about everything. (tech, fitness, love, houses, budgeting, whatever I can research on really.) 

I will try to post every other week or maybe once a week, but for now every other week. It sound good and more realistic. I’ll post on Mondays or Saturdays, but looking at Mondays.

When I asked what encouraged them to write a blog. They told me that i should write what interests me, write what I feel and to stay true to my opinions. That's why I wrote this long introduction.

I know i could have made it a lot shorter but I wanted you to get to know a little bit about the writer. 

Now if you like what you read, follow me (i’ll follow back) 

If you have a story you would like me to write about DM me or leave a comment.

If you would want me to write a story about you. Email me at: submittoeverythingtiny@gmail.com

Thank you so much for your time.

-Juan.