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Well. We'll stop asking for help. And go back to doing it ourselves. And tbat way we cant be dissapointed again. Feels just like being home

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Cant fucming wait for tblhe flare thats definitely following this

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I bet by time she comes back ill still be fucking cleaning. I feel so fucking sick.

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Fucjing starbing and cant even cook my fucking first meal simce yesterday because i have to clean.

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I was just starting to calm. Couldnt find my fucking weed. And its in a fucking table. Hidden. Great. Orocess has to refucking start because i soent so long looking for it i cant even fucking smoke because shes ON THE WAY. I shoukd just off myself. I might. Guess it now deoends on the el‼️ection.

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The onky thing i cant fucking do is pick shit up off the floors and theres not a single fuckong thing thay was actually oicked up. Thisnis my own personal hell of my own making. I choose to stay here and i choose to do it to myself.

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God. Everwhere i walk i just get more pissed off. Nothing was done. Nothing is fucking even remotely presentable to another person ESPECIALLY to nana. The most germaphobic person i know after mom. I should off myself now so i dont have to hear about 'how filthy and how much of a slob i am' from my family.for another fucking year after i FINALLY got them to stop that. And once again theyre going to only target me and im going to be tbe only one actualmy fucking affected by it at the end of the days. Im so fuckijg tired of being berated for someome elses mess

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Every fucking time we freak out like this the only thing i can think abt is how so kany other people with bpd say these symptoms practically stopped the second they were single

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Must be nice having 40 fucking days off a week. Especially if its not even a whole shift. And then i work 40 plus and come home making myself sick trying to clean because this is ANITHER FULL TIME FUCKING JOB. Nine if my days off ever feel like days off. Because i just work around the fucking house. Why is it that being sick was really what it took for anything to change. Why is it that oir needs are only ever considered when we start freaking the fuck out

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Andnafter months and months and minths and months of asking begging or fucking telling there is STILL ALWAYS TRASH NEXT TO THE FUCKING CAN RHAT NECER GOESNOUT. DO I REALLY HAVE TK DO EVERYTHING FOR IT TO BE DONE CORRECTLY. IS THAT MOT JUST LIVING BY MYSELF? SHOUKD I MAKE US LIVE BY OURSELF?

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AND NOW BECAUSE THERES ROTTING FOOD DTUCK TO THE FUCKING SINK I HAVE TO UNDO ALL OF MY FICKING WORK WITH TBE WINDOW TO AIR IT OUT. DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN. GRT SICK DOING IT. AND THEN WASH THE FUCKING DISBES BECAUSE I CANT TAKE IT OUT DO TO THEIR BEIN LG FUCKIJG. FOOD. ROTTED. TO THE SINK.

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Ky headphones were fucjing ON so i cant even fucking PLAY OR RELAX bBECAUSE THEYRE NIT FUCKING CHARGED. Theres still STUFF AKL OVER THE FUCKIMG FLOOR SO INDTEAD OF HAVING MY FIRST MEAL YESTERDAY I HAVE TO FUCKING BEMD OVER TO PICK STUFF UP AND MAKE MUSELF DIZZY BECAYSE ITS NEVER FUCKING EVER FUCKING DONE

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God i ffffffUCKING hate it here. Cant even fucking complain about it.

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We just WANT it to work really bad.

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Glances at the rest of this system. We obviously have different wants and needs. It likely wont work

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Im trying so fucking hard to keep her from fronting because shes Going to start crying. Hiw tf is she supposed to front tonight. My poor girl thinks shes just an obligation..

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Ugh. Playing music she likes Almost worked. Shes still definitely going to cry and now idk what to do