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i’m going to put alden on my multi @doomdays.  not for lack of muse, i just don’t feel like i’m getting much out of having him on his own blog anymore,  so i’m moving all drafts + etc. over there!  please tag me over there if you have any replies 😌

i may potentially bring this blog back sometime because he will always be my biggest muse, but for now … he’ll be there. 

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i’m going to put alden on my multi @doomdays.  not for lack of muse, i just don’t feel like i’m getting much out of having him on his own blog anymore,  so i’m moving all drafts + etc. over there!  please tag me over there if you have any replies 😌

i may potentially bring this blog back sometime because he will always be my biggest muse, but for now … he’ll be there. 

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i’m going to put alden on my multi @doomdays.  not for lack of muse, i just don’t feel like i’m getting much out of having him on his own blog anymore,  so i’m moving all drafts + etc. over there!  please tag me over there if you have any replies 😌

i may potentially bring this blog back sometime because he will always be my biggest muse, but for now … he’ll be there. 

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yes i’m still moving him to @doomdays, but first i obviously have to post these photos here

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i’m going to put alden on my multi @doomdays.  not for lack of muse, i just don’t feel like i’m getting much out of having him on his own blog anymore,  so i’m moving all drafts + etc. over there!  please tag me over there if you have any replies 😌

i may potentially bring this blog back sometime because he will always be my biggest muse, but for now ... he’ll be there. 

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🌑                   DAD TOLD YOU YOU’RE A HERO.  ind. 𝐋𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐆𝐑𝐄𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐒 of the 𝐔𝐌𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐀 𝐀𝐂𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐌𝐘.  heavily canon divergent + show based (seasons 1-3), powered by cj.  est. 2019 / revamped 2022.   read rules before following.   BUT WHAT IF HE LIED?

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Well, money where your mouth is, we find a couple more of these that lead to our people, you’re gonna sing at the fair, pal.

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ghosthaunt​

his head shakes as he looks down at the shirt he wears before he glances back up to alden with a playful smile.  ❝  nope!  all your clothes are also my clothes now,  so this is my shirt too,  ❞  he insists.  ❝  and i think it looks better like this.  ❞  he truly does think that,  but mostly because he’s just happy with how it got to be this way.  tonight,  he felt pure JOY,  having fun with adam and getting to make him LAUGH.  he felt comfortable.  he felt like he did a good job.  ❝  oh,  we couldn’t help it!  we’re just too much fun together!  ❞  he teases back.  ❝  but there’s gonna be plenty more days for you to join us.  don’t worry.  ❞  this is their LIFE.  they can continue to have this.  the thought gets klaus so EXCITED.  he raises his arms to help alden peel the shirt from his body,  keeping a grin on his mouth and his eyes locked on the other.  he feels like they’ll MELT when he feels alden’s hands on him coupled with the words he speaks.  ❝  i love you too,  ❞  he responds.  he accepts the kiss with ease,  lips pressing to alden’s and enjoying the brief act of affection before he pulls away.  his brows raise and he grows excited again,  lightly bouncing on his feet as he pulls away from alden to move to the living room.  ❝  oh,  no,  we actually did make something!  ❞  he leans down and grabs two pieces of paper that the two of them painted on.  though,  they BOTH look more like they just spilled paint on them than actual paintings,  but it’s clear in klaus’s smile that he’s proud of them.  ❝  look!  ❞  he speaks as he hands the pieces of paper to his boyfriend.

alden laughs, endeared by his words  —-  and with no intention to argue.  not only because he knows it’s a fight he couldn’t win, but because he likes sharing.  that goes for everything; this is their home, their family, their life.  ❝  well,  hey,  if it’s on you,  it’s always gonna look better, ❞  he flirts.  he holds his hands up and shrugs.  ❝  oh, i know it.  that’s why i should just never leave, huh?  ‘cause you’re always gonna find a way to have fun without me, ❞   he jokes, his grin bright as he looks back at klaus.  ❝  i’m judgin’ by how quickly you got ‘em to sleep, you tired ‘em out.  must’ve had fun.  you did good, ❞    he insists, speaking more sincerely now.  they’ve had issues in the past, but klaus is a good dad, and when he has really good days with adam, alden really wants him to know it.  amused, he follows klaus along to the living room, his smile growing even more as he looks at the pieces of paper.  it could be anything at all, and alden would be impressed, just knowing they were able to do it together.  he takes them both, his smile filled with pride and excitement.  ❝  this is great, baby.  and y’know, i got just the place for it,  ❞  he insists, peeking up at him with a grin before he walks over to the fridge, grabbing two magnets and putting the paintings side by side, crowding the other drawings they’ve all made and the photos they’ve taken of their family  (  the home he grew up in never looked like this  —-  and now, he makes sure to show off everything he can.  )  ❝  might have to get a whole new fridge soon, huh?  ❞   he teases, turning back to look at him.  ❝  so, tonight went well?   did i miss anything else?  ❞ 

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Music, huh?  Yeah, theory, composition, history… What do you need, man?

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We need a break.

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WHAT’S YOUR ROLE IN A FOUND FAMILY? THE PROTECTIVE ONE.

it does not require much for you to take someone under your wing.  you have a knack for seeing the best in others and rooting for them, and they look up to you in turn.  they feel that you are safe to go to in times of chaos or strife and are calmed by your presence.  you take extra measures to make sure everyone feels supported.  things that others might not even consider, you have already likely accounted for.  in most scenarios, you are "the leader."  your struggles tend to come from your desire to provide things to others.  you want to give, to see those you love happy, to make wherever you are a place of comfort.  your failures hit you hard because you see this as your responsibility, and you hate to let people down. ...okay, yes, there's no avoiding it: this is the parent friend.

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𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭𝐲 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐬 𝐩𝐭. 𝟏

i’ve made emotional ones before but also, angst?? bon appetit!

“ i can’t do this alone… “

“ i can’t do this without you. “

“ nothing is worth losing you. “

“ i can’t lose you! not again! “

“ i don’t wanna lose you! “

“ i love you… “

“ i never should’ve dragged you into this. “

“ you’re not alone, [NAME]… you never were. “

“ if something happened to you… that would be because of me. and i can’t have that. “

“ …did you know about this? “ “ this is all my fault… “

“ i/we/you lost… “

“ you won’t win. “ “ this path you’re on… it’s gonna get you killed. you know that, though; don’t you? “

“ i can’t stop. “

“ you would tell me if something was wrong. wouldn’t you? “

“ it’s like you’re not really here; even when you are. “

“ don’t you get it?! if anything happens to you, i… i don’t know what i’d do! “

“ you have no idea how important you are to me, and i’m tired of waiting for you to figure it out, and i sure as hell won’t wait to announce it over your reckless ass’ grave! “

“ no! i’m not leaving without you! “

“ i can’t do this anymore… “

“ you don’t even know me. “

“ what have you done?! “

“ you’re shaking… “

“ i’ve… made some mistakes. “

“ you are nothing to me. “

“ you were never nothing to me… “

“ stop it. enough of this self-sacrificing bullshit! stop acting like you have nobody who loves you! you have me! so no! you don’t get to be a martyr. not today! we can figure out a different plan… “

“ i would’ve done anything for you… “

“ i’d risk everything and anything for you. “

“ i’m not a good person. “

“ please don’t look at me like that… “

“ i believed in you! “

“ we can’t lose… “

“ what?! what am i supposed to do?! please! tell me, what the hell am i supposed to do?! “

“ please, just go… i’m not the kind of person anyone needs to be around right now. “

“ what happened to you? huh? what happened to you to make you this way? “

“ they’re coming for you. right? that’s why you’re pushing me away like an idiot? because you don’t want me getting hurt? “

“ nothing’s going to be as good as it was before. “

“ you lied to me! “

“ i didn’t mean for any of this to happen! “

“ i can’t trust you anymore… “

“ i know it’s selfish. god knows, ever since we met, i’ve been the reason behind every threat and danger that’s come your way. but… i honestly can’t say that i’d change a second of it. “

“ it’s been an honour knowing you. “

“ there’s nobody else i can turn to. only you. “

“ i don’t trust anybody else. not the way i trust you. “

“ we have no choice… “

“ why?! why are you helping me?! “

“ it’s too late. there’s nothing more we can do… “

“ please don’t go… don’t leave me. “

“ you are everything to me. okay? EVERYTHING. i can’t lose you… “

“ you deserve better than this… better than me… “

“ i thought i could give you a better life. instead, i’m the reason it’s gotten worse… i’m so sorry. “

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WHERE SHOULD YOU BE KISSED? CHEEK.

you are made of light.  your cheeks hurt from grinning, sun-kissed and lifting in a bubbling laugh.  you should be kissed there.  and often.  a reminder that you are a joy to be around, and that your smiling face is a gift.

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I want to hear my crooner boyfriend croon.

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ghosthaunt​:

as klaus is brought over to the bed,  he sits down on it with a sigh and places his hands behind him to support himself upright.  it only takes a moment for him to decide that’s too much and he leans back,  resting on his elbows with a more comfortable sigh.  he looks up at alden with a lazy grin on his mouth.  ❝  no,  you’re not intimidating at all,  ❞  he compliments.  ❝  actually,  if you tried to scold me,  i’d probably just tell you how cute you are because you are.  even when you’re not trying to be intimidating.  ❞  but he’d still rather alden not try to scold him.  he gets enough of that from ben and from others.  he’d prefer this  —–  just someone willing to care for him without judgement.  ❝  yeah?  that’s all i have to do?  let you take care of me?  okay,  yeah,  i can definitely,  DEFINITLEY do that.  ❞  he actively WANTS that.  he came back to the bar just because he wanted to see alden,  and this is the best outcome he could have hoped for.  his shoulders shrug and he tilts his head.  he lifts his feet up from the ground and holds them up to assist alden in taking off his shoes,  staring up at him with his eyes slightly widened.  ❝  well,  it’s nothing CRAZY.  i mean,  your bar has good alcohol,  don’t get me wrong,  but i wanted something STRONGER tonight,  so i went out and got something stronger!  but then i wanted to see you because i always wanted to see you,  so i came back.   ❞

 alden chuckles, shaking his head.  he gets a bashful grin on his lips at the compliment, his cheeks warming with the sentiment.   ❝  well,  gee,  i s’pose if i do ever have to scold ya, i better work on my intimidating face then,  huh?  ❞   he teases.  he can’t imagine what that would be or how it would come about.  he’s only that way when protecting his family, and with klaus, he can see him becoming part of it.  he laughs again and beams back at him.  ❝  sure thing, baby,  i just need ya to let me,  ❞   he repeats again.  he finishes getting off his shoes,  then moves his hands up to the bottom of klaus’s shirt,  lifting it over his head carefully.  he tosses it aside and then moves to lay on his side next to klaus on the bed, propping himself up with his elbow while the other hand drapes against klaus’s waist.  ❝  that so, huh?  well, lucky me for bein’ the last stop,  ❞  he teases, waiting a moment before he raises a brow.  ❝  i am the last stop right? ❞   he hopes so.  he wants to spend the rest of the night with him.  even if he’s drunk, he cherishes every moment he gets to have with him.  ❝  ‘cause—- if ya need convincing .  .  .  ❞   he trails off,  his arm suddenly tugging his waist in closer as he moves his head to bury his face in his neck,  peppering fast kisses over his skin as he chuckles against him playfully.