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OLIVER STARK as EVAN ‘BUCK’ BUCKLEY 9-1-1 - S08 E11 · Holy Mother of God

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what tommy heard vs what he needs to know

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Actually you know what I don't think I've really seen anyone talk about how TYPICAL of Buck it is to revert to sex as a coping mechanism. Like yeah he's absolutely grown and changed from Buck 1.0 but let's look at his last year or so from his perspective:

Buck discovers new facets of his sexuality. He starts dating a dude who turned him into a feral little jealousy gremlin

Bobby leaves the 118 and leaves them with fuck ass Gerrard. Bobby almost dies.

Buck has a BOYFRIEND and he sees a future with him

Buck finds out something about his boyfriend that he can't square with, and gets frankly awful advice about what his boyfriend went through to make him Like That. He also continues to be not taken seriously about himself, his feelings, his wants and desires, his concerns

Buck gets dumped. He pushed too hard too fast as he tends to do and he gets dumped for it. Rinse and repeat

All of his friends immediately jump down his throat for wanting to talk to the dude who dumped him. He bakes. And bakes. And bakes and bakes and bakes and it doesn't stop him from missing the guy who dumped him

His best friend leaves. And while Buck can understand it it hurts enough to make him act a little out of pocket.

(Can we talk about the way everyone in his life infantalizing him absolutely makes him behave in childish ways in response? No? Okay I'll shut up.)

His sister gets kidnapped? And almost dies?

He moves out of a place he's lived in for five years to help his best friend. He cannot sleep in the new place.

He tries to make new friends but the thing is he already has a best friend and right now all he has available to him are stories about his best friend. So he tells them. To exhaustion.

So yeah. He's disconnected from a lot of his support systems because they just have other shit going on. (I do not blame them for not making him their number one priority and Buck doesn't either but they're still ...missing.)

He runs into his ex. His ex gives him a SCRAP and what does Buck do? He turns it immediately to sex. And he thinks to himself: this is what I'm good for this is what I can offer THIS will have to be enough even though this man has validated me: the way my brain works, the tangents I go on, the over-reactions I have and the way I get obsessive. But Tommy dumped him. So. Sex will have to be enough for Buck.

Like I just think we're undervaluing exactly how much this regression to fuckboy Buck makes sense. He's not doing it to be an asshole. It's a fucking survival instinct and he's been in survival mode since the second Tommy dumped him

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i would love to read a 100k+ fic of Buck going after captaincy and failing the first time and he and tommy are together (not married) but definitely domesticated.

i just want to see buck strive for something other than a relationship and fail the first time even though he does his absolute best. i want to see tommy struggle to know how to help him only to realise he just needs to be there.

and then i want buck to try again after dusting himself off. i want them to go through the ups and downs together. if he gets it the second time, great; if not, also great.

because, to quote harry kim from star trek and probably someone else, "it's not about the destination, it's about the journey"

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911 + text posts → 15/? bonus:

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morning snack :9

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hi, v! if you're still open to prompts, can i request one with topless tommy back-hugging topless buck and kissing the top of his spine? love your gorgeous gorgeous art 🫶

I'm never going to stop drawing them sleeping aren't I 😶‍🌫️

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my favourite genre of buck stills <3

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brushstroke details because they always get lost in the final version 🖌️

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his boyfriend cut up his shirt:(

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a good boy

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oops it’s a “i want to take an au i wrote for another fandom and make it bucktommy but can’t because it doesn’t work” kind of day and i’m mad about it

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saw those new stills and immediately had to draw buck again sorryy

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happy belated valentine's day 💘