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Sorrow

Shadow is now feeling upset that she got angry at Phoebe. Phoebe is her best friend. Shadow knows she has an iced tea problem. She can't have one. One is never enough, she realizes. But she loves the energy and the warmth she feels from taking even a sip of iced tea. In her realization that she had hurt Phoebe, Shadow composed a song to express her sorrow and the hurt she may have caused Phoebe. sfmacman · The Hurt Read the full article

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Sfmacman

Here is my latest track. Flatline. Read the full article

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Sfmacman

Here is my latest track. Flatline. Read the full article

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Sfmacman

Here is my latest track. Flatline. Read the full article

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The Truth

I want to apologize for not continuing the story. I had personal issues I needed to work out. For the last 40 years, I've had an addiction problem. I wanted to stay sober, but my PTSD always got in the way. I thought using was the way to forget the sexual torture I went through. Things were done to me that could have easily killed me. The abuse was so horrific that I had three colon reconstruction surgeries. And believe me, that was enough to keep me relapsing as the emotional pain around this was too much to handle, and I have been using since I was six years old. I have been in and out of the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous since 1998. I get some time to clean, and then I use it again to get rid of the pain. I was lucky if I got thirty days clean. Something happened to me. I started staying clean. I found a sponsor that knew how to deal with my PTSD. He got me to see I was an Alcoholic/ drug addict. He had me read Step One in the 12x12. I don't know what happened, but it was clear to me I was an Alcoholic. I began to fight for my life. I began to take the program seriously because it was a matter of life or death. I began praying to my higher entity, and things started changing. ((I don't believe in God because he didn't protect me from the monsters I was living with.) I went to meetings to learn about my disease and how others were using the program to stay sober. And I began to look at the intense self-pity I had for myself because of what was done to me. My sponsor had me take the first step around my self-pity. The dam broke open, and I began to see I needed to start helping others. Every share I do, I share the solution, not the poison I have in me. Before I knew it, I started getting respect from the AA community. Tomorrow I will have six months. I haven't been able to get time in a long time. My self-pity was out of control. Shadow the cat needs to get back to its original silliness. I like writing for fun. I painted myself into a corner when I began to create drama by having a war break out with The Shadow Cat Warriors trying to kill Shadow. I hated writing about the war. It was not in me. So, from now on, I promise to deliver the silliness that is Shadowthecat.com/adventures.web site. Read the full article

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Sorrow

Shadow is now feeling upset that she got angry at Phoebe. Phoebe is her best friend. Shadow knows she has an iced tea problem. She can't have one. One is never enough, she realizes. But she loves the energy and the warmth she feels from taking even a sip of iced tea. In her realization that she had hurt Phoebe, Shadow composed a song to express her sorrow and the hurt she may have caused Phoebe. sfmacman · The Hurt Read the full article

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Chaos

Shadow was pissed at Phoebe for dumping her iced tea down the sink. Shadow thought, "I am not that inebriated from the tea leaves, that bitch!" Shadow chased Phoebe out of her apartment. (Shadow is living by herself now as she is a grown cat now.) As soon as Phoebe ran out of the house, Shadow went to her bedroom studio and turned on her computer. She would put this anger to good use she thought. Shadow quickly created a track she named, "Bedlam," a hyper-frenetic techno diaster. She was so proud! She posted her track to SoundCloud under the moniker of sfmacman: https://soundcloud.com/sfmacman/bedlam?si=a6a8e6fa378b4023ae6e27927a4e2e82&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing Bedlam Read the full article

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Awakened

Shadow was soon back to her old self in a matter of weeks. She began to ask for iced tea, her drug of choice. The doctors were hesitant but they complied because Shadow became unruly when her demands were not met. Soon, Shadow was in happy land as the iced teas soon made her forget about today and tomorrow and the next day after. Phoebe came to visit her BFF. Immediately, Phoebe realized Shadow was in never-never land. "What have you done," said a concerned Phoebe as she shook shadow to awareness. "Hi Phoebe, let's go Techno dancing tonight!" said a delighted and fuzzy-minded Shadow. "Do you know where you are?" said Phoebe shocked at Shadow's response to her question. "Yes, I'm in the forest with my forest friend dancing to Fischer," said a giddy Shadow. "That's it. No more iced tea for you," said Phoebe as she reached over and grabbed the glass of iced tea from Shadow's tight-gripped hands. Phoebe up and walked over to the bathroom sink to dump the iced tea down the sink. "NO!" screamed Shadow when she realized what Phoebe just did... Read the full article

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Awakened

Shadow was soon back to her old self in a matter of weeks. She began to ask for iced tea, her drug of choice. The doctors were hesitant but they complied because Shadow became unruly when her demands were not met. Soon, Shadow was in happy land as the iced teas soon made her forget about today and tomorrow and the next day after. Phoebe came to visit her BFF. Immediately, Phoebe realized Shadow was in never-never land. "What have you done," said a concerned Phoebe as she shook shadow to awareness. "Hi Phoebe, let's go Techno dancing tonight!" said a delighted and fuzzy-minded Shadow. "Do you know where you are?" said Phoebe shocked at Shadow's response to her question. "Yes, I'm in the forest with my forest friend dancing to Fischer," said a giddy Shadow. "That's it. No more iced tea for you," said Phoebe as she reached over and grabbed the glass of iced tea from Shadow's tight-gripped hands. Phoebe up and walked over to the bathroom sink to dump the iced tea down the sink. "NO!" screamed Shadow when she realized what Phoebe just did... Read the full article

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Alive

All of Shadow's friends were gathered around her. The doctor told them they would pull the plug on the apparatus that was keeping her alive. She had been in a coma for a year and a half after being hit by a car. The doctor told the gathered friends that she would never wake up from her coma. Phoebe broke out in tears. "Is there no hope," she asked the doctor between her sobbing. Suddenly a faint purr was heard coming from Shadow's direction. John in shock said aloud, "Did you all hear that noise?" The doctor quickly walked over to Shadow and placed his head toward hers. He heard it. Shadow was purring. "Everyone, quickly gather around her bed and tell her you love her. Everyone began to tell Shadow they loved her. Shadows' eyes began to flicker open. The doctor was shocked. "It's a miracle," he said. Shadow woke up and began mumbling something about the Shadow Cat Warriors were after her, and she wasn't safe. "She must have been dreaming while in her coma," said the doctor... Read the full article

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Alive

All of Shadow's friends were gathered around her. The doctor told them they would pull the plug on the apparatus that was keeping her alive. She had been in a coma for a year and a half after being hit by a car. The doctor told the gathered friends that she would never wake up from her coma. Phoebe broke out in tears. "Is there no hope," she asked the doctor between her sobbing. Suddenly a faint purr was heard coming from Shadow's direction. John in shock said aloud, "Did you all hear that noise?" The doctor quickly walked over to Shadow and placed his head toward hers. He heard it. Shadow was purring. "Everyone, quickly gather around her bed and tell her you love her. Everyone began to tell Shadow they loved her. Shadows' eyes began to flicker open. The doctor was shocked. "It's a miracle," he said. Shadow woke up and began mumbling something about the Shadow Cat Warriors were after her, and she wasn't safe. "She must have been dreaming while in her coma," said the doctor... Read the full article

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Thee end

Shadow Cat Warriors surrounded Shadow. She was so scared her fur was sticking up to twice its size. After she shot and killed the SCW that rushed her, a group came out of nowhere and pulled her out of the gun turret. Shadow that this is the end. This is where I die. She looked in shock as they moved to surround her in a circle. They had on their military clothes and shoes. If she didn’t know better, she would have thought that she was in the wrong. But she knew she was not. She knew the fight to keep her alive would affect all species. The Shadow Cat Warriors wanted to sterilize all species so that the SCW sect of Catmoonians could rule the world. What Shadow didn’t know is they wanted to keep her alive, so they could figure out why she had more powers than the other Catmoonians since she was part Egyptian cat and Catmoonian. If they could harness Shadow’s power, they could control the world. Suddenly, somebody threw a net over Shadow. “Be careful she doesn’t do any of her special powers,” said Captain Meaner to his troops, that now were within inches of Shadow. “Bind her ears and paws and put her neck in a brace. We must isolate her ability to disappear,” said Captain Meaner. When Shadow was tied up and secured, they picked her up and took her back to their ship. Captain Cattitude watched in shock as Shadow was taken away. He was bleeding from a laser shot to his side. He couldn’t move. He screamed, ‘Nooo!!!” as he saw her disappear inside the ship. Around him lay dozens of dead Catmooonians. Their body parts were splattered on the surface of the city square where the fight first broke out. The bomb the SCW dropped came as a surprise to the Catmoonians. It killed many and destroyed Captain Cattitude’s ship. Phoebe lay protected under Captain Cattitude. She looked on in horror as she saw her friend captured by the SCW's. Read the full article