Don’t think I ever shared this drawing I did in December on here. Watched this movie for the first time in 2020, it was my introduction to Gregg Araki and I’ve been obsessed ever since! Had a lot of fun drawing this one
"I come out here at night sometimes, and fall asleep between the tracks. Sometimes I fall asleep for five minutes, but sometimes it's for like an hour. Sometimes I want to go to sleep in the woods or in the basement of an abandoned house during the day and only come out at night. And be like a monster. And like beautiful."
It's so interesting to me that Benson has such a unique desire to stand out after committing a triple homicide and taking a hostage lol. I feel like he spent so much of his life working with his head down - scrubbing floors, flipping burgers, cleaning toilets. things he didn't necessarily see himself still doing for a living pushing 40. The way his work hat all but completely covers his eyes while he cleans the dining room that morning, gaze mostly to the floor. but when he steps outside for his final cigarette before sealing his coworkers' fates with his rifle, his face is no longer shaded at all. He's practically begging for someone to say something about him - about his car or his bright fuzzy sweater or his clearly deranged dynamic with Randy. He doesn't even park in a real parking space when he pulls up to Randy's old elementary school! He genuinely just doesn't give a fuck at this point, he's already on his way out, it's already over, his death wish is finally going to come true. And for as much as Randy is being forced out of his shell that day, in a lot of ways Benson is coming out of his too. and i want to shake both of them around like chew toys lol