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a letter to a friend

my friend, 

there is something magical about your ideas, 

they’re as bright as the trillions of stars in the skies, 

and my dear friend, 

life has not been kind, 

I see the struggling in your eyes.

Supernova explode in fits of frustration and rage. 

Take a step back, rebuild from the volatile explosions.

Because the universe rewards hard work, 

these things just take time. 

You are worthy of love, you are worthy of patience, you are worthy of kindness..

you are worthy.

oh friend, you mean the universe to me. 

And that is what makes me feel worthy. 

To know you’re a part of me now, 

truly is a privilege and a pleasure. 

Your presence is a pleasure to Earth.

Be kinder to yourself, as I see the kindness you give me.

- b.r. 

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another journal about being sick, yay

Sorry for another one of these, y’all. It’s been a wild day to say the least. 

I was supposed to be attending a leadership conference for uni today but as I was carpooling with my friend and her mom, my body decided to quit on me again... urgh.... 

Needless to say, I didn’t go. I’m so frustrated at this point. But through the frustration and aggravation, I’ve grown to learn who my real friends are. And boy, am I so beyond appreciative. I just feel bad for constantly worrying them 

>.<

But another day, another struggle. It’s okay, it hopefully will be gone soon.

Goodnight, my loves. ~ 💕 

𝒰𝓃𝓉𝒾𝓁 𝓃𝑒𝓍𝓉 𝓉𝒾𝓂𝑒, 𝓑𝓇𝒾

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pain

there are times when the ache becomes too agonizing, 

yet it’s all too surreal, 

every second grows more painful than the last;

the emptiness in my chest grows exponentially, 

fracturing every whole piece of me into shards, 

for this is the pain I felt, 

when you said you didn’t care, 

but it wasn’t that you didn’t care, 

it’s that I cared too much,

for that was the reason behind 

all this pain

- b.r.

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drown

kick, fight, scream, yell.

the swim is long and tiring.

the water’s getting higher, closer... above.

the cool waves encapsulate the panic

and for once... is that.... reprieve? 

false tranquility disguises itself yet again,

the chameleon on my shoulder,

the bringer of the waves,

until finally...

drown

- b.r.

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let’s get real about health 🏥

It’s fair to say I’ve battled my fair share of health issues over the years, but lately, everything has just been progressing to this sense of overwhelm. 

Juggling being a student, a friend, a daughter, and much more of my daily tasks and responsibilities has been so difficult lately -- and that’s okay. 

But what isn’t okay is ignoring when my body is saying something is wrong. It is about time I stop this constant fight of juggling and piling things on my plate and stop. My body is telling me something, and that is the fact that something is genuinely not okay right now. Maybe it’s time I listen. 

The symptoms I have been having lately have been nothing short of out of the ordinary and alarming. My friends have yet to know... well at least not all of them. But I think sitting down with them this week, getting them up to speed, and taking time for myself are my priority items to tackle at this point. 

This is just one of the lowest lows I’ve been in, but like all the other lows, I have to pull myself out. I have to keep fighting. I am tired of fighting, but there’s still one hell of a mountain to climb and I can’t stop now that I have come so far.

Whatever you all are going through, you are not going through it alone. But above all else, we need to take care of ourselves. Stop trying to bend over backwards and start bending forward. Flexibility comes from knowing your limits. You are not weak for needing time to heal yourself. 

Let’s start healing, folks.