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update 220221

Okay, My relationship with V is going well. Both romantically and sexually we are doing fine and I honestly couldn’t be happier, but then again I still have to find a way to distance myself from G, it would have been a lot easier if V and G hadn’t had had a conversation today but they did :/ G followed V and then messaged him, I was on the phone to G the whole time and he promised me he wouldn’t tell V about what we did, and he kept his promise. Hopefully he can keep it forever because i cant live without V, I wish i hadn’t done what I did, I feel so guilty, but i was pressured in to it. Now all I have to do is find a way to Distance myself and V from G so that my secrets don’t spill and I can live happily with V. Anyways I should probably go now as i have school tomorrow, although its 5:30 am and i still havent slept, who cares. Anyways goodbye guys.

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I haven’t been that active, I’m sorry I promise to do an update today

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i am so fucking done

I fucked up so bad, I am currently on the phone to my psycho ex even though he has manipulated me way too much and he literally went psycho on me earlier. My boyfriend hates me because I’m suicidal but i cant help it and I really don’t know what I’m doing with my life anymore. I don’t know who I love anymore, i love G but i also love V and I am just stuck in this love triangle and being expected to choose V doesn’t even know that I am still talking to G but i did something really bad.. i send G nudes, he wanted them and begged and I gave in. I am a terrible person. I am sure i can fix this, anyways I am gonna go to sleep, goodnight.

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Big update coming soon. A lot has happened

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This ones gonna hurt

A broken girl, in love

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pure happiness

Wow guys.. I am literally in love, we have been talking all day on the phone. I don’t know how the fuck i found this guy and i don’t even know if i deserve the love he gives me but i wouldn’t trade it for the world honestly, if i could get him the moon i would. He deserves everything i can possibly give him i just want to treat him with all the love and kindness he deserves. 

Goodnight guys!!

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Goodnight :)

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IM SO IN LOVE

It’s real, It’s happening, I am really and truly IN LOVE. He makes me feel so fucking loved it puts the biggest smile on my face ever. I have to marry this guy! He actually loves me for being myself and he loves every part of me omg can this get any more dreamy? G, my toxic ass ex is still trying to talk, hopefully he stops :( 

Anyways byeeee

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Good morning babiesssss

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Goodnight to the uhhh NO PEOPLE who read this blog! :)

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WOWOWOWOWOW

OKAY I HAVE SERIOUS NEWS. I have a boyfriend, I’ve finally figured out i’m bisexual and i’ve cut off my toxic, psycho ex. So me and this guy, ill just call him V for now, we have been talking for a while and we have finally decided to make it offical!! Round of applause to me! And hes so adorable and cute and funny and he just makes me so happy and he makes me feel something my ex never could. Lets call my ex G, hes been begging for me back for 2 WHOLE HOURS and threatning to kill himself if i leave, like what the fuck who does that!!! But i finally stood up to him and told him to just let me go, and i no longer feel love for him which is a big achievement for me! I am so happy i’m finnalllllllyyyyy moving on. Anyways its getting so late over here so im going to go to sleep, goodnight guys!

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I feel kinda better, the emptiness has gone. I expect it to be back soon, everything is always too good to be true.

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It’s like I can be so happy then BAM depression hits and i feel nothingness again, that empty feeling that just sits in the pit of your stomach, yeah... it hurts.

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Fun fact: I have a constant fear that i’m about to literally die and its ruining my life LOL

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There isn’t much to tell you guys today. Nothings really happened overnight, I actually feel okay today, better than yesterday anyways.

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Good morning, my depressed bundles of joy!

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You're my drug, and I seem to keep relapsing. One of these days I'm going to overdose

A broken, lost young girl