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i’m so tired i just wish i was thinner

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i went to universal yesterday and i cannot believe after walking around all over both parks from 10am-9:30pm I GANIED A POUND. what the actual fuck like i don’t understand what happened i didn’t even eat that much??? i litteraly want to just scream and cry until i am skinny like i want i was going to fast today but i ate a little so i could clean my room without getting super dizzy but i only ate 135 calories kinda a lot but i swear im not eating over 300 until i’m losing weight again this is literally so disgusting and embarrassing

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not to brag or anything ment to post this sooner but

im going to do it this time i’m not going to go back to eating whatever i’m going to be small

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also i’m going full delulu on here idc anymore y’all are gonna get front row seats to my brain worms and a keyboard

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also trying really hard to not start smoking again but like mint vape rn sounds insane like one hit of a cool mint evobar or slapping a person of my choice across the face both have no consequences unfortunately my rage filled heart is picking the cool mint

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hey i’m back sorry i disappeared i dont really know what happened but i broke up with my boyfriend and i think i have a new boyfriend now anyway summers soon i’m getting a gym membership and new boyfriend said we could go on gym dates bc he also wants to go to the gym anyway i was looking at pictures from when i use to be skinny and decided i want that again and i have time to eat and be not skinny when i’m old but right now i want to fit in single digits sizes ffs

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she is risen

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hey guys sorry i’ve been m.i.a. the past few days have been hard for me i didn’t binge the entire time i felt down tho which i’m sorta proud of i thought of giving up during that time but i remembered my goal and how bad i want it oh and i just woke up from a nap and i had a nightmare i ate a whole family size bag of chips anyway i still might not have the mental energy to post logs and such for a bit maybe i’ll start again around sunday if not i’ll let you guys know i’ve just felt very blegh lately im trying to get back to my normal self but as of right now i’m 191.6lbs/87kg so yay :)

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sorry i didn’t post log last night my boyfriend slept over i lost another 2 pounds i was scared since i didn’t lose any the night before but were back on track i really want peanut butter or reese’s but i know they aren’t good for me i just really miss them but i just keep thinking about how good i’ll look when i’m skinny and it’s worth it any posting yesterdays log later today

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my biggest fear is that i’ll never be able to lose the weight, and that i’m just “built this way.” there’s nothing worse than hearing “not everyone is meant to be super skinny”

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you know what time it is daily log time🫵

breakfast:

☆coffee =0 cal

☆1/2 cup whole milk =75 cal

total: =75 cal

lunch:

☆2 hard boiled egg whites =34 cal

☆4 strawberries =15 cal

☆1/2 clementine =17 cal

☆1 cup miso broth =40 cal

total: =106 cal

dinner:

☆10 x large shrimp =140 cal

☆1/2 tbsp margine =30 cal

☆1/2 box frozen broccoli = 50 cal

total: =220 cal

total cals: =401 cal

i wish i had taken a picture of my dinner but i forgot ): here’s a pic of lunch tho i wish we had cuter plates

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i don't see nearly enough alt thinsp0 on here, these are some of my favs

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good morning tumblr i am not feeling it today i woke up and my organs hurt and i feel like binging anyway gonna sit here and play minecraft and try not to eat everything in sight 

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Daily reminder that everything burns calories!!

Walking to your room

Laughing

Crying

Sleeping

Walking to your class

Dancing

Literally everything burns calories even if it’s only 3 calories you’re burning you are still burning calories!!💌

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almost forgot to post todays log

breakfast:

☆1/2 cup whole milk =75 cal

☆coffee =0 cal

☆2 hard boiled egg whites =34 cal

☆canned tuna with spicy mustard=123 cal

☆1/3 cup lettuce = 2 cal

total: =234 cal

lunch:

☆1 hard boiled egg white =17 cal

☆1 clementine(-1 slice i dropped on the floor)

=35 cal

☆1/4 of a banana =26 cal

total: =78 cal

dinner:

☆1 cup lentil soup =180 cal

☆1 strawberry =4 cal

☆1/4 teaspoon sugar =4 cal

total: =186 cal

total cal intake: =500cal

also one of the hard boiled eggs cracked when i was making them and it came out like a heart <333

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no bc i lost 2 pounds overnight omg omg i hope everyone is having a good day

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Some Th♡nxpo