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Today’s BPD character of the day is: Eleanor Shellstrop from The Good Place!

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Today’s BPD character of the day is: Leah Burke from Simon vs The Homosapien Agenda/Love, Simon

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Today’s BPD character of the day is: Simon Spier from Simon vs The Homosapien Agenda/Love, Simon 

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Today’s BPD character of the day is: Alyssa from End of the Fucking World!

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How do you know that those characters are bpd?

upon birth, each and every borderline on gods green earth is gifted with The Bor-dar™ this allows us a superhuman sort of instinct that tells us with complete clarity when a character has The Disorder. It’s science.

~mod wendy

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crying wirh shaky breath and slow breath are 2 entirely different emotions. only real bpd kids will understand

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I love when I can feel the sadness coming on, one moment everything's fine & then suddenly I look up & the world is grey & my stomach is hollow & I'm in a hole of despair

how did I get here????

when will I finally get my period & emerge from it???

nobody knows

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we have to stop pretending that love justifies everything. like yeah sure maybe your dad is trying to control your life because he loves you, and maybe that makes it easier for you as opposed to thinking he deliberately wants to hurt you. but that doesn't make it okay. loving someone doesn't give you the right to own them, or do things they didn't consent to. of course people can make mistakes but if they love you and their behaviour is making you feel bad, they should be working on it. and this goes for romantic relationships and friendships and family members

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bpd culture is not being able to hold long term platonic relationships because whenever you get close to someone you think you have a crush on them and you tell them and it either ruins the friendship or you date and suddenly you just. lose interest and it feels awful what’s wrong with me

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Naomi Shihab Nye, “Sometimes I Pretend.” A Maze Me: Poems for Girls

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Me splitting on my bf for the 100th time in 24 hours

There’s this concept called the reservoir of grief. When you experience some sort of grief, you feel grief from a bunch of different instances too. I have that with being misunderstood. I’m calling it the reservoir of being misunderstood. When someone misunderstands me, it brings up the 26181818181717161617181827271818172726 other instances of being misunderstood and it hurts so fucking bad this is absolutely agonizing

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Gonna start referring to all my past traumatic experiences as "lore"

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hey uh. don't listen to the people who say the bullying won't matter once you get out of school. because shit. it will.

bullying is peer abuse. it's traumatizing. and while getting out of the environment helps, the hurt doesn't go away. all the things ingrained in you don't go away. just because your bullies might not be in your life doesn't mean the awful things they did to you don't matter. they are still very significant people in your life.

please don't brush it off. please treat yourself with kindness and fight for the support and safety you deserve. you are not the person your bullies thought you were. you never were. you deserve to be happy and confident, and minimizing what happened won't lead to that.

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You’ve got to forgive yourself for being traumatized and needing to learn how to function again. 

Recovery isn’t always nightmares and depression, it’s forgetting to eat, being scared of what others might see as completely normal things, it’s getting random panic attacks, not knowing how to take care of yourself, not knowing how to live like an adult, even if you’re twenty, thirty, forty, fifty, of feeling like you’re failing to function in a world where everyone seems to have their shit together. 

If you need help, ask for it. Go to forums and ask for advice. Take advantage of community resources. Buy pre-sliced veggies and fruits, eat instant meals if you can’t cook for yourself today. Hire someone. Ask a neighbor for a favor. Buy any item you think might make life easier, even if you feel like you aren’t ‘disabled’ enough to have it. 

Some of the depression posts (ie open your windows, take a shower, go outside, call a friend) are really helpful but they’re not always enough. I’ve found advice for spoonies, people with chronic pain or other disabilities have the best tips because they know what it’s like to be bedridden, out of energy, stuck in a brain fog. 

You may never return back to the energy you had when you were younger and you might always need to use crutches to help you through life. It’s the same with medication. 

Trauma is a real thing that happens to you, it physically alters your brain and it’s alright to have lasting scars. 

You’re not broken, your life is not over and you can still be happy. 

It’s not your fault.