bpd-victor

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me ,  mugging you in an alley : give me your fucking attention

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nsfw sometimes i forget abt masturbating and go weeks w/o it and then I Remember and get off like six times in a row and it FEELS SO GOOD

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that adhd feel when you havent had water in like 8 hours because you forgot so when you go to take just a sip you end up chugging three gallons

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hate posts like “reblog this w what u were most afraid of as a child!!!!” like lmao people in the reblogs are like “vacuum cleaners” / “the wardrobe” and every time i see the posts I’m like “being raped again (:” love it. love having a traumatised childhood

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idk abt u but my fp paying attention to me might be the best thing in the whole entire world

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hey u know what’s rlly fuckinv wild??? when ur like just chilling one day and ur brain just reminds u “hey u were raped when u were a child” and like, u know it happened but it doesn’t feel real when u think about it like that like. that happened and itll never be ok and idk what to do abt that

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I am contemplating suicide but in a lowkey way so I might just play Pokemon and nap

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so i c/t myself again and now i feel better haha i hate myself

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haha isnt it wild how no one is talking to me and i also wanna kill myself but have no idea how to reach out to my friends to tell them im not feeling good especially when theyre all busy and not talking to me rn

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is there anything more amazing on this earth than waking up and insrantly feeling anxious and Bad

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me banging pots and pans: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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here. have some fucking ““”””relatable bpd content””””””.

contemplating suicide after not getting a text back

fantasizing about killing someone because they’re closer to your favourite person than you

cutting yourself & sobbing for hours because of one tiny mistake

not remembering what made you so upset or how it even feels to be upset afterwards

constantly getting angry for no reason

being a literal empty shell unless you have other people around to base yourself off of

falling in love with someone because they laughed at your joke one time

being unable to trust anyone no matter how long you’ve known each other

splitting on all of your friends

wanting to die when they finally leave you because they’re sick of your bullshit

being an irredeemably Bad person who deserves to suffer

shoplifting, binge eating, drinking until you puke, cutting, drug abuse, spending all of your money, impulsivity in general

that feeling of constant paranoia because you know everyone will abandon you eventually and you’ll be alone forever, like you deserve to be

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oh. no god what the fuck fuck fuck fuck im so not ok i keep getting these sudden waves of emotion today like under my skin like im desperate to cry and there’s so many reasons why butbno one cares enough to listen and i. God ij ust need therapy please someone put me into therapy i can’t handle this wait list anymore

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plus like. poverty. so i can't afford alcohol rn

rlly wanna b drunk right now except ive decided never to b drunk around ppl again bc i always overshare and get rlly rlly anxious the next day so i GUESS im getting drunk alone for the rest of my life!

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rlly wanna b drunk right now except ive decided never to b drunk around ppl again bc i always overshare and get rlly rlly anxious the next day so i GUESS im getting drunk alone for the rest of my life!

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also it's wild bc one of my best friends changed her blog so she's not following me on this one anymore and idk why that makes me sad it just does like none of my friends follow this blog just people i don't know and that's. fine. it's just. no one. sees this who. knows me or. idk. no one actually cares about me