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Sick of this mind and the games it plays Mental enemieememieenemies want to push me back again Here they come running wanting me up on that Tree, crucified

Whatever words they say (me who said it) Whomever they betray (me who did it) Whenever they're awake it makes me die

There's so much on my mind, we're given so little time There's no way to hold on as it passes by So lead me into denial, help me forget for awhile Stay with me, please please don't go

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Time’s passing and instead of releating to less, I’m releating to more. Especially 8

Fear of abandonment. People with BPD are often terrified of being abandoned or left alone. Even something as innocuous as a loved one getting home late from work or going away for the weekend can trigger intense fear. This leads to frantic efforts to keep the other person close. You may beg, cling, start fights, jealously track your loved one’s movements, or even physically block the other person from leaving. Unfortunately, this behavior tends to have the opposite effect—driving others away.

Unstable relationships. People with BPD tend to have relationships that are intense and short-lived. You may fall in love quickly, believing each new person is the one who will make you feel whole, only to be quickly disappointed. Your relationships either seem perfect or horrible, with nothing in between. Your lovers, friends, or family members may feel like they have emotional whiplash from your rapid swings between idealization and devaluation, anger, and hate.

Unclear or unstable self-image. When you have BPD, your sense of self is typically unstable. Sometimes you may feel good about yourself, but other times you hate yourself, or even view yourself as evil. You probably don’t have a clear idea of who you are or what you want in life. As a result, you may frequently change jobs, friends, lovers, religion, values, goals, and even sexual identity.

Impulsive, self-destructive behaviors. If you have BPD, you may engage in harmful, sensation-seeking behaviors, especially when you’re upset. You may impulsively spend money you can’t afford, binge eat, drive recklessly, shoplift, engage in risky sex, or overdo it with drugs or alcohol. These risky behaviors may help you feel better in the moment, but they hurt you and those around you over the long-term.

Self-harm. Suicidal behavior and deliberate self-harm is common in people with BPD. Suicidal behavior includes thinking about suicide, making suicidal gestures or threats, or actually carrying out a suicide attempt. Self-harm includes all other attempts to hurt yourself without suicidal intent. Common forms of self-harm include cutting and burning.

Extreme emotional swings. Unstable emotions and moods are common with BPD. One moment, you may feel happy, and the next, despondent. Little things that other people brush off can send you into an emotional tailspin. These mood swings are intense, but they tend to pass fairly quickly (unlike the emotional swings of depression or bipolar disorder), usually lasting just a few minutes or hours.

Chronic feelings of emptiness. People with BPD often talk about feeling empty, as if there’s a hole or a void inside them. At the extreme, you may feel as if you’re “nothing” or “nobody.” This feeling is uncomfortable, so you may try to fill the hole with things like drugs, food, or sex. But nothing feels truly satisfying.

Explosive anger. If you have BPD, you may struggle with intense anger and a short temper. You may also have trouble controlling yourself once the fuse is lit—yelling, throwing things, or becoming completely consumed by rage. It’s important to note that this anger isn’t always directed outwards. You may spend a lot of time being angry at yourself.

Feeling suspicious or out of touch with reality. People with BPD often struggle with paranoia or suspicious thoughts about others’ motives. When under stress, you may even lose touch with reality—an experience known as dissociation. You may feel foggy, spaced out, or as if you’re outside your own body. https://www.helpguide.org/articles/mental-disorders/borderline-personality-disorder.htm

I can basically releate to everything, bu 1, 2, 4, 5, 7 and 9 is basically me

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O cały swój bagaż boisz się Nie zaśniesz skoro z Tobą jedzie Co byś  zrobił gdyby został on Ale zniknął przedział

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Odejdę pusty i to trochę marność Ale chcę się czuć jakbymobrabował Monte Carlo

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I’m madly in anger with me

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Daemons. They don’t stop working. They are always active. They seduce. They manipulate. They own us. And even though you’re with me, even though I created you, it makes no difference. We all must deal with them alone. The best we can hope for…The only silver lining in all of this…is that when we break through, we find a few familiar faces waiting on the other side.

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Day like everyday

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Doch die Welt ist mir, zu grau ich mag's wenn's bunt ist Ich will die Welt auch mal von oben sehen Ich muss Drogen nehmen, damit diese Gefühle nicht verloren gehen

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The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had

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I feel lost in time But if wait for direction my lifetime will pass me by I feel lost in time I think if I lived for forever this feeling would never die PLEASE COME TO SAVE ME! This feeling will never die I'm lost in time This feeling will never die I'm lost in time Never Ever Die PLEASE COME TO SAVE ME! I'm lost in time This feeling will never die

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My life makes perfect sense Lust and food and violence Sex and money are my major kicks Get me in a fight I like dirty tricks 'cause if you want to run cool Yes if you want to run cool, you got to run On heavy, heavy fuel

This may or may be not about me (rather may)

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I’m not crying

But I’m dying

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A my na spotkanie jesteśmy na tak

Dlatego zapraszamy na nie

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