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If a system doesnt disclose they are a system upon meeting people they aren't lying to them.

Also, if a system introduces themselves as a system, they aren't doing it for attention

- @sovereignsystem

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This hit so close to home...

"omg you're a system!!! it just be so fun to have friends in your head!!!"

Yeah. They are my friends but you know what's really not fucking fun? Seeing how intelligent an alter is and how much they want to pursue their dream career but they can't because we share a body. Seeing how creative and talented alters are but we can't spend hours and hours drawing because we share a body and the body has to work. Seeing that an alter really wants to do something and we just don't have time, they say it's okay but we share a body and I know how they really feel.

Yeah I have friends in my head and I'm constantly letting them down because the things we all want aren't physically possible. Yeah that's really fun.

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I Uhm.... I haven't talked here before but I'm Mute.. I'm an emotional holder mainly but Uhm also a trauma holder...

It's hard when being an alter of a system...watching your host not do well and spiral... I Uhm... I've been around since the body was 5 to deal with trauma... And I've witnessed everything....

I worry for the body, the host, the rest of us.... I just want us to be happy but it's so hard when everything in/around us says no...

Caedis is currently spiralling over feeling like she said things out of line... Shes worried about her friends health and made her cry because her friend is in denial... I worry... We all worry... For both of them...

Caedis is...caedis is a person with a good heart and she means well....she's just scared... She's not well.... We all are...

I'm sorry for this rant/vent...we have no one to go to about this so we needed to get it out....

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shoutout to systems that got so manipulated and gaslighted by their abusers that it took them years to realize what they went/go through daily was not normal at all, we're with you

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"I know your dad/mom/parents are shitty, but you can't hate them for your whole life, they're your dad/mom/parents!" (Said no one I know)

Hold my 7up

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Saying “oh hey it’s ___ I’m fronting now” when coming into front : Bad. Lame. Boring. Cringe

Saying “hey I’m back and I killed that other guy” when coming into front: Awesome. Hilarious. Based. Literally the funniest thing ever

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disabled people when their disability disables them

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what if ablebodied people believed disabled people when they said stuff exhausts/hurts them, even if said ablebodied people didnt understand or couldnt relate. lol

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me when my DID actually disables me and takes away hours/days away from me and its not just a bunch of cool lil dudes in my head

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I think that it's really important for people to realize that being disabled is traumatic. genuinely. your body and brain feel like they are breaking down and wrong. you are in constant heavy stress from stuff like chronic pain. most disabled people i know have a somewhat regular emotional break down from the trauma of it all. and we are expected to just smile through it by society, to not be in the way, to not be an issue.

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"You weren't a bad kid, you just had terrible parents." Is something I want to tell everyone who ever thought they were or still think they are.

I feel like a lot of my issues stem from the trauma of constantly being told off for just being neurodivergent because when ever someone tells me I'm doing something wrong I dissociate very hard to the point where I don't remember what they fucking said to me and I hate it!

I honest to god hate it more then I care to fucking admit!

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When you got that headache and you don't knew whether it's because

Ur splitting to deal with the current trauma

It's hot so you've got a headache

The chronic illness is flaring up

Like it could be any of them or a mix of them or a headache for another reason all together, it could just be a headache bc that happens some time like brooo

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little and non-human alters being surprised by the body's hands for the 800th time:

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