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having BPD be like don't split don't split don't split don't split don't split don't split don't split don't split don't spl- *splits*

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feeling nothing is just as frustrating as feeling everything

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yeah, sorry i exhibited symptoms of the disorder i told you i have. it will happen again because i have that disorder and will continue having it. hope this helps!! 🫶🫶🫶

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Existing feels like a punishment I don’t remember earning

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"But you were fine 2 seconds ago"

yeah and now im not

"But you said you were getting better"

yeah and now im getting worse

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feeling used nd like im worthless

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“do you do any type of sports” - yeah i run away from my problems on a daily basis

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i feel like i’ve lost myself in loving you

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no, i will not move on. in fact, i will dwell on it. i will build a small emotional house and live here forever, thinking about it daily and sobbing.

hope this clears things up.

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i never believe in the good, it always comes crashing down

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stayed up all night waiting for something that won’t happen and for someone that won’t come

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I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself

I always ruin everything why am I like this?!

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Feeling like everyone either hates or dislikes you is a different kind of pain..

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Unfortunately, I think stigmatised disorder (personality disorders, psychotic disorders, etc) culture is realising something you experience has a name and finally feeling seen, but you go to google it for more resources and only find people talking about how horrible and morally evil you are for daring to have that symptom you never chose in the first place.

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I've spent my life being what others wanted, and now I'm not sure l was ever anything at all

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Somehow unless I'm at an all time high, it always feels like I'm at the absolute lowest. There's no in between.

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