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Before starting T, when I socially transitionned, I was surrounded by radical feminists who saw masculinity as gross and inherently evil, something to avoid, something to make fun of, something to destroy. The other transmascs in my friend group, sometimes, told me that they didn’t knew if they really were non-binary or if they just were scared shitless of saying “I am a man”. Because they saw this as a betrayal to their younger self who had been SAd and abused.

I saw many of my masc friends and trans men around me hate themselves, not outing themselves as men because it would imply so so much, it was like opening the Pandora Box. Even when we were just together, talking about our masculinity was always coated with bits like “I know we’re the privileged ones but…”, “I don’t want to sound like I have it bad but…”, “Women obviously have it worse, but last time…” and we were talking about terrible traumas we experienced while taking all the precautions in the world in the case the walls were a crowd of people in disguise waiting to get us if we didn’t downplay the violence we faced, or like crying and being upset and being traumatized and afraid and scared and to say it out loud would make us throw up the needles we were forced to swallow every second of every day living in our skin.

Most of us weren’t on T yet, some of us were catcalled every day and harassed in the streets or in abusive relationships nobody seemed to care to help them get out of because they were “strong enough” to do it by themselves.

I was using the gender swap face app and cried for ours when I saw my father looking back at me through the screen. The idea of transforming, of shedding into a body that would deprive me of love, tenderness, and safety, was absolutely terrifying. I knew I couldn’t stay in this body any longer because it wasn’t mine, but I also knew that if I was going to look like my dad, my brother, my abusers, it would be so much worse.

5 years later and I’m almost 2 years on T, and almost 2 months post top surgery.

I ditched my previous group of friends. I was bullied out of my local trans community. But let me tell you how free I am.

I was scared that T would break my singing voice: it made it sound more alive than ever.

I was scared that T would make me less attractive: it made me find myself hot for the first time in my life.

I was scared that T would make me gain weight: it did. But the weight I put on is not the weight I used to put on by binging and eating my body until I forgot that it even existed. It’s the weight of my body belonging to me, little by little. The wolf hunger for life.

I won’t tell you the same story I see everywhere, the one that goes “I started going to the gym 8 times a week, I put on some muscles, I started a diet and now I look like an action film actor”, in fact if you took pictures of me from 5 years ago vs now I’d just have more acne, I’d have longer hair and still look like I don’t know what to do with myself when I take selfies.

But the sparkle in my eyes, my smile, tell the whole story way better than this long ass stream of words could ever.

I want to say some things that I wish someone told me before starting medically transitionning.

It’s okay to take your time. It’s your body, it’s your journey, if you don’t feel comfortable taking full doses and want to go slow, the only voice you need to listen to is your own. Do what feels right.

If you feel overwhelmed, it’s okay to take a break, it’s okay to ask for support.

Trans people are holy. Everyone is. You didn’t lose your angel wings when you came out because you want to be masculine. You are not excluded from the joy of existence, from being proud of yourself, from being sad, from being scared, from being angry. The emotions and feelings you allowed yourself to feel while processing what you experienced when you grew up as a girl and was seen as a woman are still as valid as before. Nobody can take that from you. If someone tries to, don’t let them.

It’s perfectly normal to grieve some things you were and had before you started to transition, like your high soprano voice or even your chest. Hatching is painful. You can find comfort in things that don’t feel right, so making the decision to change can be incredibly scary and weird and you deserve to be heard and supported through this. Wanting top surgery doesn’t make the surgery less intense, less terrifying, less painful to recover from. When it becomes too much you have the right to take a break and take some deep breaths before going on.

You don’t have to have a radical, 180° change for your transition to be acceptable or valid or worthy of praise. Look at how far you’ve come already. It doesn’t have to show, you’re not made to be a spectacle, you’re human and it is your journey.

Oh, and last thing, you know when some people say “Oh this trans person has to grow out of the cringy phase where you think that you can write essays about being trans or transitionning or just their experience because it’s weird” ? If you ever hear this or see this online, remember all the people whose writing you read and, even if they were not professional writers, helped you more than any theorists did ? If you want to write, do it. It won’t be a waste. It can help people. Or it won’t, and even then, if it helped you, that’s enough.

Love every of my trans siblings, take care of yourselves. You deserve the world.

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Deadbeat dad whose children want nothing to do with him tells nation's step-parents that their families don't count

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Please help spread an urgent appeal to save the lives of my children in Gaza

Welcome,

I write to you with a heart heavy with sorrow and anxiety. I recently launched a fundraising campaign on GoFundMe to save my children in Gaza, but have not received the support we desperately need. I recently lost everything, and I am now homeless and this loss has affected me greatly.

The situation has become unbearable, and I suffer from severe depression and suicidal thoughts. I desperately need your help and support. Please consider helping us in any way you can, whether by donating or by sharing my campaign with your friends

You can watch my campaign at the following link: https://gofund.me/1a528474

Thank you for your time and understanding. Any support, no matter how small, will make a huge difference in our lives.

This is Alaa's go fund me for her and her children. Please do your best in sharing, donating, or even engaging with this post so that it gains traction.

Free Palestine 🇵🇸

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"This woman is simply too good at sport, she must be a man" - an opinion shared by a surprising number of 'radical feminists'

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listen ill make jokes about hating logan paul because he's a bad wrestler.

but none of him being a shit wrestler matters when he's a transphobic, scamming, evil actual son of a bitch, fuck the wrestling who cares when he's posting DUMB SHIT like this, and wwe will still love him.

IMANE IS A WOMAN.

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THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT

Khelif never identified as transgender, she was never a man.

She was born female and unfortunately for her, she has been disqualified from several competitions because of her testosterone levels and unusual genetics. She has won and lost fights in women's competitions, like all female athletes.

It's not her fault she was allowed to compete on the Olympics and she did.

People are so quick to jump and spread hate, especially about trans people since transphobia is still so popular. But again, Khelif is not transgender.

Yes it is understandable that her competing against other women with no genetic differences like hers is not quite fair, but it's not her fault. Stop the hate.

Even her opponent, Angela Carini said nothing that was against her, although she might have been rightfully disappointed or even angry.

Don't believe the fake news!

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307k likes for misinformation.

Khelif is not transgender, but has a disorder of sex development (DSD), which causes some females to have XY chromosomes and blood testosterone levels typical of a male.

[Taken from the Wikipedia Article of the boxer]

Yet they can't be bothered to even add a community note, but when it came to light that Musk gives his conservative buddies literal N-Word passes he adds a special new community note instantly. Not to mention that OP is endorsed by Musk himself. He bought Twitter solely as a political instrument. Truth Social showed him that he can't create. He can only take something with an existing userbase.

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Hey everyone! If you've been keeping up with Aseel Asaad's fundraiser, you may have noticed that she recently created a new campaign, which was mistakenly labeled as a scam. This had led to a lot of confusion and concern that someone was stealing her identity, but I recently got in contact with her cousin, who is organizing the original gfm, and he confirmed that the new campaign is legitimate!

The reason the new campaign was created was because it's easier to raise money in USD than SEK. Both campaigns are still accepting money, but the new one in USD is preferred.

Additionally, Aseel's cousin informed me that his brother also has a gfm and that he would like me to promote it here on tumblr, which I am happy to do. I understand that scams are very prevalent, and it's important to be aware of them, but after talking directly to both Aseel and her cousin I am 100% positive that all 3 campaigns are entirely legitimate.

So, if there is one thing I want you to do today, it is donate to these campaigns! They need a lot of help, and the recent misunderstanding has made it even more difficult for Aseel to collect donations.

Your donation will quite literally be the difference between life and death.

Here's the email I received from Aseel's cousin (the organizer of the original gfm). Please take a moment to read it over:

Here is Aseel's gfm:

Here's her family's other gfm:

AGAIN - PLEASE DONATE. THIS IS NOT A SCAM. THESE FAMILIES CANNOT WAIT.

Tags for reach (thank you; lmk if you want to be removed):

@jupiterisonline @perfectlyperiwinkle @pinetreesdoodles @aces-and-angels @dendrosys

@kyra45-helping-others @memori3esofgreen @appsa @dykesbat @turian

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@just-browsing1222 @forgetlove @transmutationisms @spideyladman @shartreuse1312

@thatwierdquietkidthatdraws @mione-g @excruciatingdespair @autisticmudkip @sevensecondstilltheend

@floof-ghostie @feluka @soep-sofa-may-blog @al-val-meadow @boy-defined

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No but seriously I recently started listening to the artists listed above and I BE DAMNED THEY'RE SO FUCKING GOOD

I especially love Ryan Cassata's "Daughter" because it speaks to me so much and it's so healthy and nice how he speaks about the whole situation and his relationship with his dad aaaah

Also I absolutely adore Noahfinnce's voice, it gives his songs such a vibe

But The Oozes are amazing too, Bitchboy is top tier

So yeah listen to them you won't regret it

Can we please stop it with the “the only transmasc music is whiney ukulele shit”??? Like first of all just say Cavetown we know you mean Cavetown. Second off, Cavetown is a good artist and shaming people for liking his music is weird and gross. Third off, there are way more transmasc artists out there yall just don’t care enough to look. (Ex. Ryan Cassata, Noah Finnce, The Oozes, just to name a few).

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trans people can do anything! trans people literally got me to watch one piece! that shit’s got like a thousand fucking episodes! a cis person could never!

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OH MY GOD I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU

GUYS OH MY GOD-

I WENT TO SCHOOL, FIRST DAY. GOT COMPLIMENTED ON MY SUIT LIKE A BILLION TIMES.

AND NOW A BUNCHA TEACHERS WERE "What's your preferred name?" AND I WAS LIKE "UHM I GO BY ALEX" AND ALL OF THEM BUT 2 WHO I DIDN'T INFORM, AND 2 OF MY OLD TEACHERS WHO I DID INFORM DID THAT.

MY FAVORITE TEACHER, LINGUISTICS TEACHER, ALWAYS ADDRESSED ME AS "ALEX" LIKE "Alex, would you like to answer the question?" "Alex, go on." "Alex, you can read the text up on the screen." OH MY DEAR LUCIFER I'M DYING OF HAPPINESS- AND THE FIRST TIME HE STUTTERED BUT THEN GOT MY NAME RIGHT.

AND MY STUDY HALL TEACHER I WAS A BIT LATE BECUSE I HAD TO GO TO THE BATHROOM AND SHE WAS LIKE "What's your name?" "I- Uhh, I'm [deadname]." BUT I THINK I HESITATED SO MUCH ON MY DEADNAME THAT SHE WENT "Okay but what's your preferred name?" "I go by Alex..."

I still have to inform my 2 other teachers and I still have a teacher i haven't met yet but I'M STILL DYING OF HAPPINESS-

LIKE 7 TEACHERS ARE ALREADY CALLING ME BY MY PREFERRED NAME.

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My Family in Gaza: Stuck in a Vicious Cycle of Pain, Displacement and Death

I experienced the traumatic experience of displacement four times with my family in Gaza before I was evacuated alone to Ireland with the help of my Irish college.

No words can describe the fear that engulfs us when we see thousands of leaflets in our sky dropped from Israeli warplanes ordering us to leave for other places that are just as dangerous. It is a tedious and terrible process of packing everything we need, begging bus drivers over the phone (mostly with a feeble phone signal) to come and pick us up at any cost. Unfortunately, displacement and running from death became the daily routine of adults and children alike in Gaza.

When displaced, sniper bullets and indiscriminate heavy bombardment are not the only risks that face my family and other people. Another life-threatening problem facing people in Gaza is the sewage flooding the streets of Gaza after Israel deliberately destroyed most of the infrastructure. This led to the spread of fatal viruses and diseases like Poliomyelitis as announced by the Ministry of Health in Gaza.

It pains my heart that my beloved city Gaza has turned into an apocalyptic ghost city where innocent people, children and adults, are indiscriminately killed daily. It is shocking to see this becoming normalized and the extent to which the world has become desensitized. What happened to humanity and human rights?! When will we see a ceasefire and be able to hug and reunite with our families?! When will we wake up from this never-ending nightmare?

The Lifeless corpses of innocent Palestinians decompose in the streets of Gaza and under the rubble. These bodies become food for stray dogs. I wonder what hopes and dreams the person had before he was killed. Did it hurt? Was he scared? Was it fast or painfully slow?! Does he/ she have children? Does his/her family know?! Was he/she unlucky to be in the wrong place at the wrong time?! Most importantly, how does one decide what is a wrong place and a wrong time to be when every place and every time in Gaza is wrong?! Survival is nothing but a matter of luck in Gaza.

Imagining that this could be the fate of my family makes me go insane with heart-stopping fear!

With the increasing escalation in the region, hope for a ceasefire in Gaza fades away and I have to live every second of every day with the haunting thoughts that my family could be the next to leave this cruel world brutally. Therefore, I am exerting all efforts to get them out of Gaza and hopefully reunite with them in Ireland where I am continuing my studies.

I cannot do that without your help. Decide today to play a significant role in saving my family in Gaza including many children with a prosperous future ahead of them.

Note: Vetted by:

1. @el-shab-hussein and @nabulsi # 151 on the spreadsheet of Vetted Gaza Fundraisers List]

2. @riding-with-the-wild-hunt Here #5.

Please Donate, Reblog, and Share everywhere.

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Dear terf reading this:

Yes, I'm sure your feminist precursors are soooooo proud of you constantly talking about how weak, frail, dainty, innocent, feminine and fertile women are, as a means to "seperate" yourselves from trans women all while aligning yourself with rich men in power to strip them of their rights.

Surely the butch, lesbian, weight-lifting woman who lived child-free for all of her life to defy the societal expectations of women as "subservient child bearers" and who spent her free time instead advocating for women's rights and throwing bricks at cops, is really just so so SO very proud of you following in her true footsteps and sticking it to the patriarchy when you write scathing call-out posts on twitter talking about how inherently feminine and beautiful women are and how special women are for being able to bring life into the world.

Calling out who? Well trans women of course. Because as every good little feminist knows, no cis woman in the history of ever has been masculine looking or unable to have children. Not to mention even rejecting the entire role of "child bearer" in the first place. Gosh could you even imagine that? A woman who doesn't find her life-fulfilling purpose in having children? The thought makes me shiver.

Must be nice to know you're making your ancestors proud, eh? Godspeed terfs🫡

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I love this

tools of rebellion

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Absolutely fucking disturbing that here we are, 100 days later, still witnessing the same genocide unfold on our screens, each day comes with unimaginable violence that surpasses the day before. 100 days of ruthless violence and massacres inflicted by Israel against a besieged and starved population. 100 days of traumatic loss and destruction on every level; history, culture, traditions, families - to the point of no return.

Yet, 100 days later we are still having to put up with the exact same evil rhetoric as we did on day 1. Absolutely sickening.