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It can’t get worse. Right? *gets worse*

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sorry fuckers but not every person with an eating disorder is a thin cishet white girl. some of us are obese, some of us are chubby, some of us are poc, some of us are cis men, some of us transgender, and some of us don’t even have bulimia nervosa or anorexia nervosa. binge eating disorder is an ed, arfid is an ed, orthorexia is an ed, pica is an ed, ednos (eating disorder not otherwise specified) is an ed. bulimia athletica and anorexia athletica affects mainly athletes and predominately male athletes which is… an ed. people can have disordered eating tendencies and be 110 lbs or 350 lbs. gatekeeping and accusing people of being a “wannarexic” because they don’t fit your uneducated worldview makes you not only ignorant, but ableist, fatphobic, sexist, racist, and transphobic god bless x

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No one is more disappointed in me than I am.

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I don’t know how to explain this to you. I just got more and more sad, full of thoughts. I always search for mistakes in myself, always try to get myself perfect. I broke myself more and more, always hating what I became. And finally I was someone else. Someday I was, what I am now. And that isn‘t something good

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At 14 I thought I was better off dead

And I was right

And I’m still right

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i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone. i’m alone.

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I wish I could just fall asleep and never wake up

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“And I don’t think anybody should feel bad if they get diagnosed with a mental illness, ’cause it’s just information about you that helps you to know how to take better care of yourself.

“Being bipolar, there’s nothing wrong with it. Being bipolar is like not knowing how to swim. It might be embarrassing to tell people, and it might be hard to take you certain places. But they have arm floaties. And if you just take your arm floaties, you can go wherever the hell you want.

“And I know some of you are like, ‘But Taylor, what if people judge me for taking arm floaties?’ Well, those people don’t care if you live or die, so maybe who cares? Maybe fuck those people a little. I don’t know.”

Taylor Tomlinson, Look At You (2022)

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Würde mich gerade so gern selbstverletzen.

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Ehrlich gesagt, will ich einfach nur aufhören, zu atmen. Für immer.

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bitte sei nicht sauer, wenn ich es nicht schaffe, am Leben zu bleiben.

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Hab mich in nem Song noch nie so sehr selbst gefunden wie in diesem.

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Wisst ihr was mich richtig abfuckt? Das die einzigen beiden Menschen in meinem Leben die mir wirklich was bedeutet haben, mir mein fucking Herz rausgerissen haben um dann darauf rumzutrampeln und dann mir zu sagen ich wär selbst schuld daran.

~Und ich Vollidiot Stimme ihnen auch noch zu~

Ich lass nie wieder jemanden so nah an mich ran