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these two have an extra reply i cant see

hey who's the ghost in my notes?

some of replies are saying they aren't available. do i accidentally have you blocked from my main?

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hey who's the ghost in my notes?

some of replies are saying they aren't available. do i accidentally have you blocked from my main?

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There's apparently silicone sheets that are good for healing scars, heard people using it for stretch marks to burns

ill try that out. thank you

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girl who's so pathetic and traumatized that she apologizes profusely and starts crying for safewording during sex because she thinks she upset you by wanting to stop

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forced marriage thumbs up

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i hate how all the advice to get rid of self harm scars is "dont do it" or "become institutionalized". my friend told me that moisturizing lotion helps. and thats literally the only advice ive ever received, besides some asshole telling me to cover up because they're ugly and they make him feel bad

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i was with a friend, and i went back to her hotel room. me and my partner had gone to different places, so it was just me and her. i really missed my partner, because i usually dont spend that much time away from them.

the girl asks me if i want to take a shower because im really hot and sweaty. i say sure. and she gets in with me. and puts soap on my body. and touches me

it was consentual. i could have said no at any time and she would have been respectful and stoped. she asked if it was too much. but i told her i was okay and to keep going.

it doesnt end up as sexual. its just her washing me. and me washing her. but as soon as i get out i realize how horrible it was. i practically cheated on my partner. i felt like absolute shit, and ended up crying on her shoulder.

i want to not tell my partner until we get home. but He can tell something is up. so im forced to tell Him. i felt so disgusted and so terrified. i considered lying to Him or hiding it forever, because i was afraid He was going to beat me or break up with me or worse.

but when i explained everything, He was really understanding and wasnt upset at all. He didnt see it as sexual, because it wasnt really. and He said He doesnt think it was cheating. but i still feel like im the worst human to ever live. less than human. a disgusting monster who almost ruined the one relationship ive ever had that isnt abusive. i hate myself so much. i feel like i should die. i dont deserve to be alive.

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i was with a friend, and i went back to her hotel room. me and my partner had gone to different places, so it was just me and her. i really missed my partner, because i usually dont spend that much time away from them.

the girl asks me if i want to take a shower because im really hot and sweaty. i say sure. and she gets in with me. and puts soap on my body. and touches me

it was consentual. i could have said no at any time and she would have been respectful and stoped. she asked if it was too much. but i told her i was okay and to keep going.

it doesnt end up as sexual. its just her washing me. and me washing her. but as soon as i get out i realize how horrible it was. i practically cheated on my partner. i felt like absolute shit, and ended up crying on her shoulder.

i want to not tell my partner until we get home. but He can tell something is up. so im forced to tell Him. i felt so disgusted and so terrified. i considered lying to Him or hiding it forever, because i was afraid He was going to beat me or break up with me or worse.

but when i explained everything, He was really understanding and wasnt upset at all. He didnt see it as sexual, because it wasnt really. and He said He doesnt think it was cheating. but i still feel like im the worst human to ever live. less than human. a disgusting monster who almost ruined the one relationship ive ever had that isnt abusive. i hate myself so much. i feel like i should die. i dont deserve to be alive.

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Broke: Healing your inner child

Woke: Healing your inner chuuni

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my friends shouldn't suffer more than me. idk if its selfishness or selflessness. does it even matter? i just hate to see them in more pain than me. so ill punish myself, ill scratch at my arms, cut my legs, dig away at my own flesh. i refuse to let them suffer more than me. i deserve worse then them

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Pure Love Between Girls

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mono_kigu

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It's my 1 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

happy one year of sexualizing self harm, bpd, and apparently pocd

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It’s so important.