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1000 cals in today and after the gym I'm thinking it'll be net ~600

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Signed up at the 24 hour gym so I can start going there again woohooo

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I was doing so good then my bf and I went out to eat while high TWICE this weekend. Stupid.

Eating one meal today and guzzling water.

Fasting tomorrow. Maybe signing up at my local gym too. I'm still recovering from hospital but I can at least use the treadmill to walk a bunch or something.

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Down another pound this morning 🌄

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Okay thank God I had a WOOSH and now im down 10 and a half pounds since the 1st

And 10 days no binging

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I don't see the point of drinking casually, like tf?? I drink to get drunk, not trynna ingest some extra cals to NOT get crazy🤨

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SERIOUSLY IM DRINKING WATER AND AGGRESSIVELY WATCHING WHAT I EAT AND CUTTING BACK ON A LOT OF FOODS AND BARELY EATING WHY AM I NOT LOSING WEIGHT at ALL

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Pounds are not dropping. Wtaf.

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Not checking my weight today. Also I don't think it'll be accurate for a while. I'm have been in and out of the hospital and am on massive blood thinners and bleeding from my period like an awful awful lot so I just think I'm a whole ass mess but I haven't had an appetite or been eating much so I'm hoping once things calm down with my body I'll have lost some weight

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Hospital AGAIN.

THEY told me I needed to eat and not try to.lose weight

I'm obese why they care???

Anyway it was a whole fuckin thing. Idk what I ate for cals but nothing crazy.

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668 calories today yeehaw

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Gained back like .2 pounds this morning and I'm pissed. Eating under 800 cals today.

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Ate more than yesterday today but it might help my metabolism and I still kept it under my goal.

I literally am .2 lbs away from a 10lb loss so I'm hoping I see that on the scale tomorrow

And hoping I reach a full 7 days binge free.

I wanna remind yall that eating disorders exist in all kinds of ways. I waver between severe binge eating and severe restricting. It is why I'm so *actually* overweight (223.8 currently) and why it is so hard to keep it off if I do lose 10 or 15 lbs. Almost always gain it back, sometimes even more. This is how I went from 180 to 233 since my eating disorder started. 🙃 not everyone gets an ED and loses weight like crazy. It is a lot more complicated than just that.

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FREE ME!!!!!!! Idk from what...I just want to be free from literally everything