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You have no idea how hard it is for me to stop thinking about you

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A solid female means a lot to a nigga who can't trust nobody

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I'm only putting myself in position to win, already lost a lot.

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Straight gas

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Really tried living my life with people I cared, loved and had respect for. We spent almost the time in this world together. We grew up and chose different careers. Some went to study. I chose not to. Coz I was already motivated by the hood. The hood had been the only place I ever been in the world.

I got tired of being there because I couldn't fi d opportunities. Since completing the 12th grade. I had since been unemployed. I was already a grown up. Been doing music since 2016. I tell my story through every word and line I write. Things started feeling different when I got absent energy from friends I wrote about from the first paragraph. Although I can't say they ain't supported me. But my pulse told me they ain't believe in me.

Despite my efforts of sharing my blueprint, I went fourth. I didn't have a business plan and I had not execution plan and strategies. I encountered and trial and error period. But you know the best thing about trial and error period, you are forced to zone in and forced to go through proper training. This is where you are allowed to focus, start from scratch and lastly to reinvent yourself. Trial and error costs time. But if you spend almost your after school years unemployed, it's obvious you had all the time in the world.

Like mad scientist. My hair would be all messy. I didn't have time to visit the barber. I mean I was dream chasing. The barber was something I would obviously remember at the after life. I dealt with strokes of depression. But it was not intense since well Im productive under pressure as long as I'm the boss. With everything under my control I know when to rest.

Most of the time I worked so hard that I started being happy with the work I was putting in. I would laugh and yell in celebration to my secret achievements. People and neighbors started portraying me crazy. I would walk in to people talking about how crazy I was. I listened without them noticing. Because I realized that they were the craziest people I knew. The lived they whole life through herd life. But I'm not judging anyone. I only felt that they should have just left me to follow my destiny without making it seem like I was wasting time.

TOO BE CONTINUED ...

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They can all keep the fame. I just want the GLORY all to myself.

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Few close people got left.. Coz I had to get right.

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“Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength.”

— Arnold Schwarzenegger

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“Success is not final, failure is not final. It is the courage to continue that counts.”

— Winston Churchill

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“You only want me when you can’t have me.”

— Charlotte York

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Cuanto tiempo libre tiene la gente

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“Sometimes people don’t want to hear the truth because they don’t want their illusions destroyed.”

— Friedrich Nietzsche

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“But every time I think about not having you in my life I literally break into a million pieces.”

— Unknown

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“It’s so nice when toxic people stop talking to you. It’s like the trash took itself out.”

— Unknown

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We all came we all saw

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“They made me wicked They made me wicked They made me wicked Then they locked me up For the demon I’ve become”

— “I Wasn’t Meant to be Like This” from Repressed Feelings by anastasiasyah (via anastasiasyah)