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Botanical Names Part I

Names you can choose for your characters. Taken from the little signs in a botanical garden. So they are names of plants.

Adoxa

Potentilla

Fraxinus

Stellaria

Valeriana

Iris

Tulipa

Syringa

Danthonia

Avena

Silene

Irsine

Amaranthus

Barbarea

Cleome

Nigella

Erica

Arbutus

Malva

Calluna

Viola

Phyllis

Majorana

Salvia

Morina

Petunia

Calliandra

Veronica

Gilia

Juniper

More names!

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Just rip my heart out, why don’t ya?

angstober (6)

Prompt: "Can't Go Home"

Pairing: Bucky x Reader

A/n: Whew 😮‍💨

angstober masterlist here ♡

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“After this one, we’re getting our own place.” 

Bucky’s sweet words found a home in your head. They nestled into the unkind parts of your brain as the battle went on, fear and pain and confusion mingling. Threatening to take over. 

“I don’t care what the rest of them have to say about it. I’m sick of sharing you. Sick of living in this tower with forty million people.” 

“I don’t think forty million people live here, Buck.” 

“Shut up.” 

You could feel the smile against your neck, the memory of his lips there as he spoke. Something blew up a few feet away from the hand-to-hand fight you were struggling with. You felt the heat along your side. 

“I’ve always pictured a brownstone. Even back then.” 

“Back then as in… before you were as old as my great-grandpa?” 

“You’re awfully mouthy tonight.” 

A truck flew overhead. You had no idea which side threw it. Banner jumped over it, grunting at the force. Not your side, then. This fight wasn’t going well. 

“Well, back then,” Bucky playfully stressed, “I thought it’d be just me in there. Bachelor in New York City and all that. But now that I have you—” 

He rolled over, encasing your head with his arms. His nose brushed yours as he spoke next, eyes achingly soft. 

“Now that I have you, I’m thinking something else. Something far away. Maybe more upstate. We can get a horse.” 

“A horse?” you laughed. 

“Maybe ten horses.” 

Pain erupted across your ribs. A boot imprinted there, pressing and deepening the bruise that had already been inflicted. You cried out, arms tightening around the creature thrashing against you. It eventually went lax and the pinch at your ribs subsided. 

You hobbled into a sitting position, clutching your side. The battle around you raged on, screams and commands hurtled into the comm at your ear. 

“How will the team contact us while we’re out in this vast, open countryside? Carrier pigeon?” 

Bucky ran his fingers along your cheeks. “Don’t care. Hope they don’t contact us, actually.” 

You shot up as gunfire littered the ground around you. Your break was over. It had only been about thirty seconds, but that was enough time for you to be targeted. The bullets were different though—bigger, almost…charged? You didn’t have a word for the current that seemed to run through them. 

Didn’t want to have a word for it. 

“How do you propose we do our jobs then?” you asked, humoring him, loving being under his gaze. 

But Bucky became serious, brow lowering. After taking a moment, watching his thumb as is passed over your skin—

“I want to retire,” he whispered. “This is the big one, but then I want to be done. I want it to be just us. I want to be home. With you.” 

Your name ripped through the air like a siren. You turned, craning your neck to catch the call, but it wasn’t fast enough. 

You heard the shots before anything else. Your body braced for impact, braced for the end, but was met with nothing. A small groan was all you were left with, followed by the decimation of whatever had been shooting at you. Tony flew by in its wake, hands still flaming red from the blast. 

When you turned your eyes back down, the battle ceased to exist. There were no sounds, no guns, no danger. There was just Bucky, pressed against your chest, breathing heavier than you’d ever seen him. 

“Buck?” you whispered, reaching out to brace his arms. “Bucky?” 

Bucky didn’t answer you. His knees buckled instead, and you fell to the ground alongside him. Maybe if you were stronger, faster, anything other than what you were, you would have been able to catch him. But you weren’t, so you fell with him, beside him, as you would be with everything in life. 

You positioned him along your thighs, leaning back on your ankles as you examined him. You went to pull at this suit, but he stopped you, brushing your arm away. He reached up but didn’t make contact with your face like you thought he would. He grabbed your comm instead, missing it the first time in an uncoordinated shuffle. 

Bucky was never uncoordinated. 

“Steve,” he said into the device, urgency mixing with an incoherent slur you had never heard from him. “I’m down. I’m—pal, I’m done. You gotta get to y/n. She’s—” 

The rest of his words were nothing but a buzz. The entire scene, the world around you, turned into white noise. Later, you would recognize this as shock. In the moment, it felt as if you ceased to exist. As if everything was ending.

And maybe everything was ending. Because when Bucky put the comm down—when he gripped at the back of your neck and his lips began staining red from blood you couldn’t see yet—it felt as if there was nothing left of you. 

Your hands were shaking. Everything was shaking. 

“You’re gonna be okay,” Bucky whispered. His voice sounded distant, weak. “Stevie’s gonna take care of you.” 

His hands guided your forehead down to his. His labored breath brushed across your lips. 

“I’m sorry, sweetheart. I’m so sorry.” 

Something snapped within you. Something sharp and cruel. A panicked cry left your throat and you pressed back from Bucky in one quick movement. Your hands whipped around him in desperation.

“No,” you gasped, tearing at his vest. “No, no, no, no. You’re fine. I can fix it. I can fix it, Bucky.” 

But the more you shifted his clothes, the more you saw that you wouldn’t be able to fix it. There was so much blood and it wouldn’t stop flowing from his body. You pressed your palms to the wounds to staunch the flow, but it only ran in between your fingers. 

Bucky wasn’t normal; he could heal from most things. That fact had sent him into the line of fire more times than you could count. 

He had also been in this situation an infuriating amount of times, throwing himself in front of you to take the brunt of a hit more often than you had actually been injured. 

But this time… this time he had grabbed your comm before sending you a sheepish laugh. This time he had apologized and asked his friend to take care of you. 

This time he wouldn’t stop bleeding. 

“It won’t stop. It won’t stop,” you cried, shaky and broken and disbelieving. “I’m trying, Bucky, I swear. Why won’t it stop?” 

“Look at me.” 

You kept up with your ministrations, pressing into his stomach even when he had no response to it. Couldn’t he feel it? Didn’t it hurt?” 

“I can’t make it stop.” 

“Please look at me, baby.” 

With a ruined cry, you did as he asked. His eyes were lidded, but his mouth turned up on one side when you entered his view. 

“You’re so damn beautiful,” he breathed out, straining to touch you. “Love you so fucking much.” 

Your sob was harsh and painful. “I love you more.” 

A scream pierced the sky not too long after that. Steve was only able to find you because of it. 

Even if you moved now, you wouldn’t be able to go home. You’d never be home again.

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Lol should I tag people or just leave it like this...?

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If we’re all going completely crazy over percy jackson saying ‘look, I didn’t want to be a half-blood’, I don’t know how we’re going to keep hold of our respective remaining braincells when annabeth says ‘seaweed brain’ and percy responds with ‘wise girl’ 

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Two heartbreaking parralels in the riordanverse:

When Percy bathed in the Styx he saw Annabeth pull him out of the water, out of the pain he felt when he was in the river.She said: "You're not getting away from me that easily".That was the moment when Annabeth became Percy's life-line.

Fast-forward to HoH when Percy was hanging from that ledge when the fall happend he said "You're not getting away from...Never again",in that moment Percy also became Annabeth's life-line but in a more poetical way, but unlike Annabeth in the Styx, Percy couldn't pull Annabeth out of her pain, insted he went through the pain with her.

I'm crying.

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Resources For Writing Sketchy Topics

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I love this video of Owen so much. WE HAVE ONE BILLBOARD.

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WHY YOU NEED TO WATCH JULIE AND THE PHANTOMS

the LGBTQ rep is IMMACULATE. the plot between willie and alex is so cute, and their chemistry is literally so good

the songs are FIRE. I haven’t heard original songs this good since hsm/camp rock era

julie (played by madison reyes) can sing so well it honeslty blows my mind. her acting is also so so good. 

the three boys have geniune friendship without any toxic masculinity and it is honestly so refreshing. they’re not afraid to show their feelings and I LOVE THAT

it’s honestly just casted so well. some teen/ya tv shows are cringey but this one is not i promise you

it stays mostly light while touching on heavier subject lines 

its genuinely really funny

the jar jar binks joke had be actually laughing out loud 

an amazing villian. he gives me dr facillier vibes. 

please watch it i want a season two 

PLEASE WATCH IT SO I CAN HAVE PEOPLE TO FREAK OUT WITH

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Alex saying he's been crying for 25 years is such a mood.

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The way Luke puts his hands on Julies face when they can finally touch each other. And then goes take her hands

I AM SOFT GUYS

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Can we please just acknowledge the sheer absurdity the “Kuzon’s Parents” disguise scene:

Deadass Katara just stuffed her shirt with melons, did nothing else to even pretend that she was older than 14, Sokka put on what was probably an incredibly fake-looking beard and pulled the most shakespearean accent he could muster. 

They just saunter on in with their son who looks literally nothing like either of them, but also almost the exact same age. The headmaster probably just thinks “Fuck it. Okay. Benefit of the doubt. I’m not particularly well-versed in the ethnicities of the colonies maybe this is just normal. Adoption maybe? Good skin care?” 

And then when he asks their names, Sokka just comes out guns blazing with surnames- which is implied (but not confirmed) to be sort of nobility status. And not only is their cover story that they have surnames in the first place, but that their name is Fire. Wang Fire and Sapphire Fire. 

Can you imagine just being a Canadian school principal meeting a student’s parents for the first time and you just see these rogue teenagers showing up saying “Hello yes my name is Sir Jason Toronto and this is my wife Poutine.”

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This. This scene is going to be an emotional rollercoaster, and I don’t know if I’m ready to relive this in live action...

God I didn't remember just how sad Zoe's death was in the titan's curse. I've been crying for fifteen minutes I won't have the strength to watch this on the show

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logan lerman lowkey throwing shade to the percy jackson movies is what i live for

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They should bring Viria in when they start doing the storyboard for the Disney adaptation of Percy Jackson and the Olympians

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first good news of 2020:

PERCY JACKSON IS COMING TO DISNEY+

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the way ben solo STORMED into palpatine’s weird cult area with A FREAKING BLASTER…big dick energy please-

the look they share through their weird force skyping connection…rey looking at ben and realising iT’S BEN AND THAT’S ALL THAT MATTERS and BEn looking at her like “i will do anyTHING to save you”

the way he was dying and bleeding but still climBED HIS WAY TO THE TOP, STUMBLED BACK TO HER WITH AGONY ALL OVER HIS BODY

THE WAY HE HOLDS HER AND BRINGS HER INTO HIS ARMS 

THE WAY HE REALISES HE KNOWS WHAT HE HAS TO DO AND DOES SO WITHOUT A MOMENT’S HESITATION

THE WAY HE LOOKS AT HER WHEN REY WAKES UP

THE WAY HE FREAKING LOOKS AT HER WHEN REY SAYS HIS NAME, NOT KYLO REN, NOT REN, NOT MONSTER BUT B E N AND THE WAY HE SMILES

THE WAY BEN SOLO REALISED HE SAVED REY BY GIVING HIS L I F E FOR HER

THE WAY BEN SOLO REALISED HE’S SO IN LOVE WITH HER

THE WAY HE LITERALLY SMILES SO HARD IT’S A TOOTHY SMILE WITH DIMPLES BECAUSE HE REALISES THAT THIS WAS THE BEST MOMENT OF HIS LIFE THE MOMENT HE HAS LITERALLY BEEN FIGHTING AND DYING INTERNALLY FOR

LOVE Y’ALL

L O V E 

and finally,,,,

the way rey holds his hand after he’s fallen…

she held ben’s hand…BEN’S HAND…the HAND SHE WANTED HOLD-

i’m so emotional right now. pray for me. 

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I JUST REALIZED THAT HIS LITTLE NOD WAS HIM TELLING HER IT WAS OK TO TELL PALPATINE THEY WERE A FORCE DYAD BECAUSE GIVING HIM THE LIGHT SABER WOULD REVEAL THEIR BOND AND BEN WAS TRYING TO HIDE THEM BEING A DYAD FROM PALPATINE TO PROTECT REY THE WHOLE MOVIE BUT IT WAS ALSO “YES IT’S ME TRUST ME” IM SO EMOTIONAL