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I want to die.

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do you ever have like a breakdown but your logical brain is still active just thinking “ok this is annoying can we wrap this up so we can go back to bottling these feelings and like going to work or whatever” lol

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straight people should have to wear “VISITOR” badges when they go to gay bars

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the inherent romance of going to a grocery store and goofing around with the person you love

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Appearing like trenches dragged into the earth, sunken lanes, also called hollow-ways or holloways, are centuries-old thoroughfares worn down by the traffic of time. They’re one of the few examples of human-made infrastructure still serving its original purpose, although many who walk through holloways don’t realize they’re retracing ancient steps.

- Allison Meier in Atlas Abscura

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the intensity of the rage men direct at harmless girls doing harmless things would be hysterical if it wasn't so terrifying

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Meknès - Morocco

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Morocco 💙

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Morocco

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do you ever feel lonely and unwanted even if you are with your friends

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I think I like my therapist so much because she doesn’t expect anything from me.

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I wonder if the future will bring me real happiness. I wonder if I’ll always feel like this. I hope not. I hope one day that I’m so undeniably happy that my vibes rub off on people and make them feel better too.

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When I was younger I used to get these overwhelming feelings that life wasn’t real and I was just a cartoon. It felt like my body wasn’t my own. It never made sense to me and it’d fill me with despair. Now I have these overwhelming feelings of life not being what it seems to be, but instead of the cartoon feeling its paralyzingly fear and doubt and I realize it’s almost the same.

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All I wanna do is cuddle and give some head.

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Today my therapist misgendered me. Usually I don’t have a problem with it because usually I really don’t care. But if you start out knowing me as one gender, then I tend to like to keep it that way. I haven’t seen her in awhile, but she had my records right in front of her, and I assume she didn’t know my age either because when I said I worked full time and financially helped my dad she looked stunned. I don’t look my age, but like I said she had my records right in front of her. I was a bit insulted to say the least- the session wasn’t helpful at all. I don’t blame her fully for that though. With that being said I don’t really think I’ll go back to therapy. The last few ones I’ve had didn’t really help, as well as the psychiatrist. Maybe I’m going about it all wrong but these experiences haven’t been the best.