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I don't understand how people just Do things without daydreaming. like how are you not off in a silly little fantasy world rn

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anyone else constantly feel like there glass between them and rest of the world and like they're not allowed to join in

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can i just be more interesting and not so boring and unlikeable where people actually want to be my friend have me in their lives like i must be one of the most boring uninteresting person

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Hope Sandoval (1992)

photo by Bruce Weber

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everytime i get depressed i always think about the few people that would come to my funeral and the few people that would even notice and im not being melodramatic i literally think theres 4 people who would actually care and my death would truly impact everyone else would just be like “oh. okay” then go on with their lives and i don’t want people at my funeral who havent spoken to me like 10+ years all of sudden caring i dont want to be buried bc i don’t want a grave for anyone to visit or not visit i want to be cremated and put back into the earth

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lets frollick like the chernobyl radioactive dogs Okay?

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a shitty movie from the 90s is worth more than the shitty movies that are made today

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i think i just want to die majority of humans are just pieces of shit everyone has their established group and don’t usually want to add anyone else so it just feels like everytime i make friends im just always on the outside i just either want to stop craving community and friends or die

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being autistic and black is just forever being too weird to fit in anywhere with anyone even when you try and make friends with people who have common interests and you’ve join activities just too fucking weird for everything and destined to be alone and isolated

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youtube is pulling this bullshit again

praying for the firefox gods to save me once more...

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Well, do you think I'm cool?

Dinner in America (2020) dir. Adam Rehmeier

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KYLE GALLNER in DINNER IN AMERICA 2020, dir. Adam Rehmeier

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THERE ARE NO USELESS MAJORS!!

Learning about theater is important! Learning about art is important! Learning about sociology is important! Learning about history is important! Learning about anthropology is important! Learning about philosophy important! Learning about music is important! Learning about English is important! Learning about dance is important! Learning about photography is important! Learning about art history is important! Learning about ethnic studies is important! Learning about theology is important! Learning about performing arts is important!

Usefulness does not equal high income!

All education is important!

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“I can’t exist by myself because I’m afraid of myself, because I’m the maker of my own evil.”

Possession (1981) dir. Andrzej Zulawski

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soooo i think it’s safe to say im unfit for lasting relationships and friends and that ill never experience friends like everyone else seems to have or like community or family

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i put my tv up in my apartment and having a living room is soo fun i cant wait to decorate it