My little blog for going from mia to ana since my gag reflex is dead </3
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Guys my gag reflex randomly came back nvm i’m staying bulimic
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I miss my ex so bad he dumped me like 2 months ago why am i randomly obsessed w him
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I hate how Zero is now and i hate how mpa is too why couldn’t they stay the same this sucks
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why do i always have the urge to binge right after i purge like settle down fatty
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I accidentally ripped my frowny out 😭 it hurts so bad omg
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This has got to be the shittiest christmas ever
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Idk who let me think i could restrict on christmas and christmas eve 😭 i’m gonna bp so much the food is scrumptious as hell
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Ok the all nighter is not gonna work out i’m going to bed (it’s 8:45 AM 💀) i’ll just set an alarm
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Way too much info about me!! (Warning, word vomit)
My stats:
Height: 5’7
Sw: 184 lbs
Cw: 156 lbs
Lw: 151 lbs
Gw: 96 lbs
I’ve been bulimic since March but last night i binged and could barely purge, scared me right back into ana. I was ana for about a year before that though.
It’s currently 8 AM and i haven’t slept, but i don’t wanna sleep through christmas eve so i’m too scared to go to sleep now, oh well I’ll pull another all nighter
Kind of? addicted to getting high on benadryl which is really stupid but yknow. Trying to stop because last time i dosed i had 35 (875mg) and barely hallucinated at all and if i dose again i’ll probably want at least a gram which scares me, don’t want seizures. Was alcoholic when i was 14 but passed out behind a closed down bush’s chicken (blood alcohol level was 0.27) and had to go to the hospital, haven’t really drank since. Been hospitalized once for benadryl as well, took 35 before my tolerance was very high (like it is now) and was speaking gibberish and my mom found me :/ went to the psych ward after that one.
Been to 3 psych wards in the span of 2 months for various reasons, was diagnosed w a lot but i don’t trust them because they diagnosed me w BPD even though i’m only 15? Off all my meds too because fuck em.
Dad recently shot up my house then killed himself so that’s fun. Happened 8? days ago i think. He had a little psychotic break. He had pretty bad bipolar disorder so honestly he wasn’t really acting out of character.
Obsessed w butterflies and ready to make it my whole personality. The color purple too.
This is mostly for my own well being because i really need somewhere to vent/blog and why not make it public?
I love piercings sm, and will be getting more hopefully in the near future. I currently have 4 lobes, both daiths, 2 helixes, 1 nostril, smiley, frowny, tongue web, and a vertical labret. I really want snake bites, medusa, other nostril, and dimples, as well as a shit ton more on my ears. Have to wait until after my dad’s funeral though, his family is very conservative and my mom doesn’t want to be judged.
I really like working out and have a bit of muscle, but i wanna be way more toned.
Still unhealthily obsessed w my ex who dumped me right after i got out of the psych ward the first time (and ditched me to drink alone, which is when i almost died) he was good to me before the end, I think he’s in jail now though, not positive. He just kinda disappeared.
Mom keeps trying to send me to a ed clinic, rehab, or RTC so if i disappear i probably didn’t die.
Came from twitter but it’s shit now so i’m here, i like it so far.
I used to self harm a lot, like a lot. Used to have a shtwt account but we don’t do that anymore, it made me feel special because i could cut to beans 😬. I won’t post any gore on here. If i ever post my body (unlikely for a long while) be warned there will be scars.
edit: I’m also depressed asf if u couldn’t tell 😭 barely hanging on by a thread. I need to clean so bad i’m considering overdosing on sudafed to give me the energy.
I live w just my mom, my brothers in college, and my dads dead (obvi) probs gonna have to move now that we only have one income.
I doubt anyone read this but that’s my whole life basically. I’m really sweet but get so scared ppl r judging me when they interact so i may not answer 😭
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Gonna try my patented diet of insane amounts of caffeine (600-800mg) daily again
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I’ve been awake for 19 hours and just chugged a reign y didn’t i just go to sleep
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