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Starry Eyed Love (Love Ending) (Part 1)

It technically is wlw because Im gay and want a girlfriend, so im writing this for me basically, but you can imagine it for yourself if y’all want to.

The dashes are just so I can separate paragraphs because I’m not a fan of long blocks of texts, but I also don’t like the giant spaces between them.

It’s about the fictional disease where you basically cry stars but, it hurts your eyes and they make little twinkling noises when they fall. I thought it would be cute, but I plan on writing this three different ways. One ends with them getting together, another one ends with them not getting together, and the last one is getting surgery to fix her eyes.

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As a sensitive person, I always have thought that I was a little too emotional. However, this takes the cake. There’s this girl, and she’s amazing. I always laugh with her, her smile is super contagious, and I always feel butterfly’s when I’m around her. However, this feeling I get when she talks about her crush, it’s miserable. I do end up tearing up over it a lot, but recently it’s started to actually hurt. My tears feel sharp, they feel as though they cut my eyes. Yet, the tears are beautiful. Ironic right? That even though they are causing me pain, I still think it’s beautiful? They look so pretty, but they hurt like actual shards of glass. They are shaped like those little star shards from that one game I played as a kid. Hopefully it will stop hurting soon. ——————————————————————— I cry more often now, and I just found out she’s planning on asking her crush out. I know I should get over her, but for some reason I feel as though I can win her over somehow. They hurt so much, and i feel like my vision seems more dull now. However, I don’t know if that’s just from all the crying Ive been doing or all the nights that I’ve been staying up to talk to her. We used to hang out all the time, but we both have been so busy recently. Staying up to chat with her has been how we have stayed close as friends at this time of year. Maybe I can ask her to hang out sometime, I hope she says yes.——————————————————————— I was looking at a picture of this rose she sent me and I couldn’t see that it was a bright pink, I thought it was a soft pastel pink. I had to go get my eyes checked and it turns out my vision is going bad, they say my eyes might completely lose the ability to see color. I hope it doesn’t happen too quick, I really like looking at all the crazy colors she dyes her hair to. My favorite that she’s done so far is the half and half. I think it looks really great, and she always finds a ways to match it with what she is wearing or with her makeup. I got to hang out with her, we went to the movies and then afterwards we went out to a cafe. She told me today that I looked pretty, I ended up panicking though and said your welcome instead of thanks. She thought it was funny and I got to hear her laugh. She apologized because she knows how flustered I get with complements, but I did end up being able to tell her that she was very pretty too. She had the biggest smile on her face when I said that. If I lose my ability to see color, I want to spend the rest of that time looking at her and all of her colorful looks. ———————————————————————She texted me to ask if I want to go over to her house to watch movies and get some food together, so I said yes. However, I just found out that I can have my sight fixed, but that there are only two options. My first option is that they can be healed by having her fall in love with me as well, or I can have surgery done to fix my eyesight. If I get the surgery I lose my feelings for her with the tears, and I don’t want that. I’ll lose my ability to see color if I keep letting the star tears fall, but I’d rather lose my color in life than lose my love for her. I think I’ve given the term starry-eyed a whole new meaning. I would love for her to fall in love back for me, but that’s not realistic. It’s true she has no longer been talking about her crush, but that’s because their crush was a huge asshole to others and she doesn’t play like that. So she no longer likes them, but I feel as though it would be too soon for me to even attempt to get her to like me back. Who knows, maybe I’ll just have to wait and see.——————————————————————— That’s part one, I have to make another part if I want this to be as long as I want it. Hopefully people actually read this and like what I’m writing, if not then it’s fine but it would be nice. I don’t know who’s going to read this but I hope y’all have a great day/evening/night or whatever.