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dumping this here cuz i dont think ill finsh it so gl 2 anyone who trys 2 read it

thinking about ⁠suntio again expect its sunday being so touch starved he practly loses his mind when ratio hugs him in his sleep. That Man is fucking beyond pathetic for any crumb of attention ratio could give him + is probably touch-starved to a hyper religious extent. just lying there having his internal freak out over the feeling ratios head is resting on his shoulder. the warmth from the soft breath against his skin, the weight from the bicep thrown across his torso. Really, its a miracle sundays been able 2 keep his freak-out internal. let alone when he registers just how close ratios crotch is to his hip. when there legs intertwine.

Its pure bliss for a man as whipped as Sunday is. Gives him this warm tingly feeling in his chest he cant quite describe, pools in his stomach, stretching towards the tips of his fingers & the skin under his toes. gives him this blanket of warmth & satisfaction he hasn't felt before. All while feeding into his delusions of this being more then a simple "one time-thing" or " no strings attached" type arrangement he's always told it is. Somethings that's easy to ignore when this isn't the first - and nor will it be the last- time he wakes up 2 the breath taking sight that is veritas ratio, sleeping soundly in his bed. it is however, the first time ratios initiated physical contact or held him like this.That Sunday is certain of. Sunday is a man of faith after all, a pious man who places grate emphases on self control & casting out sinful thoughts - and yet, despite all that- Sunday is still simply just a man after all. ... And now he appres to be stuck at a cross road. The main issue with this blessing of a situation is that Sundays ...a littlestuck as one might put it. before him lies two paths; He can wake his sleeping bride and seek assistance for the suffocating tightness in his pants, finding relief in the enjoyment that come from pleasuring his wife. OR he can forgo these sinful thoughts and saviour this rare moment he has here...simply being able 2 just enjoy ratios presence, the weight of his body and the warmth of his skin - there's no hostility in the mans eyes or stubbornness in his voice ,,,just the sight of ratios sleeping face, Sunday wouldnt have believed it was possible for anyone to look any more heavenly if he hadened witnessed a sight such as this with his own eyes. On 1 hand he doesn't want 2 wake Ratio and risk ending the costliest thing hes had to a hug since his mothers passing. - but on the other sundays not sure how much longer he can stand the growing tightness in his pants.

100% he'd get hard just from ratio brushing up on him cus hes a loser Sunday feels like the kind loser 2 dry hump when he's desperate idk y why not both he already has a fucking MOTHER kink he might as well indulge in the joys of flesh (he rubs off on ratios leg while ratios still asleep) The ONE time he fucking gets of on his own and its cuz he's able 2 fucking convice himself it's ratio rubbing against him not the other way around wont touch himself, doesn't seem very big on letting ratio touch him (in the sense of 'servicing' sunday ? ig ?), but sometimes so overcome that he can't help but 'innocently press up against' something After all its not like he's touching himself after all! He's simply using his wife's gorges legs for there intended use. It's NOT sin if his wife is the one pleasuring him (proceeds 2 normally dry hump Ratio when the man's unconscious/asleep) fucking becomes a habit for Sunday to get off that way because he's sooo gracious to allow his wife a lie-in while sunday gets up early for work and if ratios habitual position is curled around Sunday with his thigh happening to be in such a compromising ,,, then Sunday is hardly to blame, no ?

fantasy in his head that it's ratio being clingy and tempting him back to sleep/bed and Sunday is being such a good, faithful man, by resisting ratios attempts Convincing himself his temptress of a wife (who hates him) is trying 2 lure him back to bed and away from his busy work life for a nother round of ✨️love making✨️,his lovely little spoilt wife who spends his mornings sleeping in while Sunday gose 2 work to be able 2 earn nice things 2 spoil Ratio with meanwhile the man's "dragging" him back into the lovely warm bed so they can cuddle some more - and well, it's hardly sundays fault if the only way his clingly wife will let him go is if he allows himself 2 be "serviced" in the mornings by ratio before giving the man a good bye kiss and tucking him in watching the way his body moves at the sudden lack of contact before heading of 2 be a responsible man of faith sunday thinking theyre just living like a picture perfect nuclear family and that his wife is the sweetest little minx in the world, meanwhile he isnt there to see ratio wake up and realize sunday's not bothered to clean him up after and grimaces at the fucking mess its made of both him and the bed

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Ever see a sight so pretty you forget why ur even mad in the first place ?

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2 eepy 2 re read all this 2 check if it even makes snece so good luck 2 any brave solders who try mmmmmmmmmm i want a seacun of sunday getting of his ass and actly confessing 2 ratio during his stay on pelcany , there in his offcie standing by his desk , sunday looking up at him and puffing out his chest as he forces out these 3 little words with such confdence no wone would be able 2 know how much he threated over if this was the right place or roght time ,. say , ratio stiffinging uo the seconf the words reach his ears only 2 sigh or tch as he lets the displure seem into his vice "mr sunday, im afraid you dont actly love me you love whatever idea of me youve creatied in your head" , keeps his voice stern and profestionl as he looks at sundayalmost with dispaine - tlike this is some sort of /joke/ hes had 2 sit threw threw a milllon times and wont againg.

sunday almost looking supirsed and slightly taken a back by ratios responce - becuse how can he loike a made a up of the proffester ehen theres alredy so much about him to love? almost slightly offended ratio thinks head love anything /but/ the man he sees infront of him . 2 that sunday gose "no i love you, i love the " and isntantly starts listing of things he loves about rato , everythingg from ratio larger achiments to the way he carrys himselfs ,the inflections in his voice when he says certan stuff ,all the way 2 these minoir little habbits ratio mighte not even relised he had . speeks them all with such adorating in his voice , the hole thing just makes ratio "tch" in responce , almost cought of gard for a second by sundays reply before standing humself u straght , maybe even leaning in sightly to sunday , looking down at him with sunch coldness in his eyes as he says "then why do you keep trying ti chnage me." to witch sunday is suddnly caught of gard, looks like hes just had something droped on his - the man cleary caught of gard and not sure how 2 reply . ratio staring down for him for a second before hes had enough of watching sunday fumble with his words . chosing insted 2 simply exuse himself as he bids sunday good eveing . he still has a job to do here after all , hes not going 2 try 2 destroy there working relastionship over something so small , if anything it just served as a course 2 get them back ontrack.

want sunday 2 feel his stomach drop the second ratio resonds 2 him as such , its like a cold butchet of water was suddnly droped over him. hes not trying 2 change ratio after all. he loves the man for who he is!! he just. giving ratio slight pushes torwards becomeone something sunday would be allowed to love. feels like a fool when he spluters out im not as ratio walks away from him . bidding him good night and lleaving sunday all on his lonesome .

scean eneding with sunday begrudly calling someone up 2 cancle the dinner resvastions he ,ade as hes cleary unable 2 get ratio 2 go with him tonight . mm want sunday 2 have had been oping himself up in a rare moment if vunriblety when he confensed 2 ratio , worshiping the man with his words and longing for him with his eyes , only 2 find himself instaly cloisng back up the second ratio responds so coldly. sunday clining into the fragemnts of warmth in his voice when he said he loves the idea of him not actly ratio . clear 2 sunday despite the tone of his voice ratio didnt want 2 hurt him

sunday whod planed 2 invote ratio 2 dinner afterthis all 2 only 2 never get the chance , his offica sunday feeling so much colder without ratios warmth t make it all feel real. imaging 2 on ratios end hes prerphas both only ever reacved confestions as a joke 2 , and those that arnt wernt jokes were nothing more then confesstions of lust. chalking sundays confestion up 2 be more the former compared 2 the later, after all sunday is the head of pelcany. he could have every one of all these people vising for his attasion or even a hint of his aprovle . what about ratio is there for a man like that 2 fall in love with? there bussnes parternes. nothing more and nothing kess. ratio also feeling both a hint of warmth only 2 be downed out by the dispoment and dusgist that washesover him , looking down at sunday with pitty in his eyes while the man below still looked up him with such adoration well intill ratio called himout on trying 2 change him , sunday becoming so ridgetd and his eyes become hardh - looking at ratio with such closed of and hardend eyes , its unsetting just how fast sundays demanor chances in that regard. anyways all this 2 say ratio attempting 2 turn down sundays romatic persuse of him (only now even discovering the man was suposedly ever instred in anything moee then a working relastionship , ultmetpy his day going on

meanwhile sunday of gard because while he knows he loves ratio for what he is and all the parts of him sunday lacjs, he has no way 2 justify or pwrhpas hasn't actually even released he's trying 2 mold ratio into the only way sunday thinks he's allowed 2 love someone . all tgis 2 despite that sunday not taking it as a rejection per say, hell just have 2 ajust his persute is he wants the proffesore 2 see him as a posble romatic option , aunday taking this all as a sing that despite how much his yeart yearned for it it wasnt the right time. he still needs 2 find a way 2 prove himself to be worthy of being trusted with ratios heart.

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i think this is one the worst things ive ever drawn. and thats why im going 2 make everyone here look at it to.

redraw that 1 silly chikawaiia meme

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wip dump 1/2

its 1/2 becuse ive have like no time 2 finsh anything , ill dealte these later i just need 2 clear space from my files

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Omegaverse,,,,, Beta sunday who's been helping out Omenga ratio with his heats only to get thrown full force into a sympathy rut the around the same time ratio(WHO. IS. LATE.AND NOT HERE.) normally comes 2 see him and is slowly losing his damn mind the longer he has 2 deal with it AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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think ratio should be rly pent up and horny trying 2 bait sunday into fucking the sense out of him by going out his way 2 piss of and set of sunday because hes 2 prideful 2 simply ask 4 what he want

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giggles thinking married suntio with kids & ratio slowly coming 2 the heart-breaking realisation that the man he loves- who he knows loves him, doesn't seem 2 overly care 4 there kids that much and if anything is starting 2 slowly seem them more as a nuance then anything and the realisation starting 2 slowly braking his heart a little </3

i worded that wrong but im 2 eepy 2 know how 2 word it right , sming about the difference between ratio who didn't grow up with his parents around & there for wants 2 there 4 his kids vs Sunday who grew up with gopher only being around for the "good" or "worthwhile" parts of having kids sunday & robin being raised more by nannys 'nd maids then there main parental figure- and there for doesn't understand why ratios so against simply highering a nanny to deal with all the "bad" and "trivial" parts of having kids, witch is also probly what sunday was expecting when the topic of kids actly came up

igorog the fact i dont think sundays realy even overly interested in actly having kids at the start and more so that he feels complited 2 from the evorment hes grown up in to take the final step in creating a "proper family" +the idea makes his wife happy so he figures that 1 or maybe even 2 wouldnt hurt. There both very carrier driven individuals and wouldn't have 2 keep try 2 juggle work around the kids and would have far more free time to spend togther. Realy he doesn't understand why ratios so unsure about even having one part time? its not like they'd never see the kids againg after all, theyd still be able 2 have meals together and celebrate whatever millstones the kids achieve, and go on little faimly outings togther. all it dose is cut out the time sink that is the hassle of having 2 get them up&dressed with everything they need for whereever they need 2 be in the morings, along with having 2 arange there working days around picking up and caring for the damn things.

sometimes a little distance is good for people, it would make all the time they all spend togther feel more valuable to the kids and them actly want to be around them and looking forwed 2 spending that time togther. after all arnt they meant 2 be about Meating each other half way in this relationship are they not? what's wrong wanting them simply having a little more time to spend togther? theyd be able go out whenver they please or even simply more time 2 spare in the day on hobbies and trival things, so what is it that has ratio being so hestant on them having a nanny for even just a small handfull of days a week? is ratio realy that reluction 2 give up dealing with the brain numbing childish arguments and silly problems childern deal create that badly? while sundays aware there kids are bright for there age that dosnt stop them from acting like brats at times. if anything a nanny would simply makes the kids want 2 be around

blah blah b;ah sunday having his piroitys "ratio - me - kids" meanwhile ratio has his "kids-sunday-me" this ended up just being sunday not wanting 2 deal with the school run insted of ratio watching the man he loves and /knows/ loves him grow fustraided with there kids and act like there more like something u can just pick up and put down whenevr but oh welllll maybe ill expand on this later with more ratios side things and him slolwy starting 2 notice that while sunday likes there kids he seems 2 treat them more almost like mini adults or pets then he dose actul children at some point or a nother

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still think ratio having no clue how 2 deal with being called Mommy/Sunday has a mommy kink is vry funny 2 me. bounce points if this is how Sunday is in denial about having one to. finds out he has one 2,the word just slipped out before he even knew what hit him

sunday just has 2 fucking lie there starring at the Look of utter horror that appears on ratios face, the shear disbelife in his exuse me??. Feels the realisation if what he just said come crashing down on him like a bricks as he registers the words that left his mouth.

sunday just completely rewning the mood before trying desperately to savelge the suition bless him

when it was all going SO WELL for once :agnony: , the atspmoster was so lovely , ratios hands in his hair , the left cupping his cheak while the right altatins bettwen running threw his hair and scratching the base of sundays wing - feels so good letting this nice feeling buzz around his brain while lieing ontop ratios chest , this sweet little domatic moment - a rarety that sunday tresuures , like a waited blancket lieing over him , deep seated feeling of rest and comfert in his bones sunday hasnt felt in years.

AND THEN HE REWENED IT. ratio fucking pulling his hands away from sundays face the second the word slips out and sunday is DISRUGHT. bearly able 2 keep ratios palm pressed againsgt his face wings flapping in allarm at ratio trying 2 pull away from him , both only dressed from the waist up

honestly can you rly blame sunday 2 just LOOK at ratio no wonder hes so obsessed with him, man so milfy he brings out & heals mommy issues without even relasing it

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Craving sunratio but in that 1sided attraction where sundays been head over heals &yearning 4 ratio since they were kids ,meanwhile ratios out here feeling nothing for the man who wants 2 give him the world. ratios stuck in a situation where rejecting the man whos infatuated with his vry exitance's feelings could either put his life at risk or endanger the things he holds dearest 2 him. ratio having 2 chose between taking the plunge and dealing with the no doubt painful consequences of rejecting sunday or being stuck in a loveless marriage with a man who wants nothing more then to make him smile <33

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Thinking about Sunday burying his head in ratios tummy like one those stupid birds when he's feeling so overwhelmed he can beardly function. head so heavy its pulsating, thoughts running 100mp a minit as the ringing in his ears keeps getting louder and louder till hes shoved his face into ratios stomach, clinging to him like a new born would. A wave of relief and comfort washing over him at the feeling of ratios stomach muscles contracting bellow him, every inich of ratios skin purifying him of this heinous sin . Feeling safe in a way he hasn't felt in so long.

Sundays heads is still throbing, much like how the voices are still screaming & church quire are still signing, but the ringing in his ears has passed now. along with the overwhelming feeling of dread slowy fadeing into something warmer now. its like a blanket of tranquitly has been placed over his mind, wrapping him in this pleasant comforting feeling that seems to make even the worst parts of his mind feel bearable. Sunday no longer feeling like hes going 2 be ripped appart at his seem, yet still clining 2 ratio like a life line. eyes no longer franticly searching for whatever something or someone he was runing from, breathing starting 2 slow from its ragged pace and even out into something a little more steddy.

if hes lucky the man above him will slowly run his fingers thew the failed attempt of a birds nest that is Sundays hair. fingertips grazing his scalp in such a way that has Sundays melting at the touch, okay nm i got distracted and forgot where i was going with this ,

something about Sunday not caring if ratios actions are out of pitty or compassion and savouring it the same, only gaining the couge 2 open his eyes and take in the sight of the beautify above him after having the back his wings scratched + that hed cling 2 ratio just the same if the man were 2 be trying 2 kick&shove him of if he were 2 ignore Sunday and act like there isnt a fully grown man clinging 2 him like a child